The most important thing I realized is that painful breakups, unrequited love, shitty jobs and the like help us to BUILD CHARACTER and that no matter how bad it feels, we are much better off because of it. Sometimes you have to stand alone to make sure you can. Forget what you want to remember what you deserve.You may not end up where you thought you'd be, but you'll always end up where you were meant to be. You can either let these bad things, define you, destroy you or strengthen you. Fight through it like a warrior. Greater things are to come.

Saturday, April 30, 2011

Starbucks Snob

I noticed that i have become (i am) a really mean, arrogant Starbucks drinker. I am definitely one of those that are anal about their drinks, demand (and EXPECT) for the highest quality of customer service, perfect execution of a drink for the taste to be exquisite and of course, look down at noobs.

I feel so bad but i can't helppppp itttttttt.

Anyways, here i go.another 6 hours shift to recreate a resume, CL, half a portfolio, portfolio presentation all the while fitting in some tutorials on Advance Powerpoint Presentation Techniques.

Go, go, go!

Friday, April 29, 2011

Quick Story

Once Upon a Time there lived a dork who was unemployed.
All her life, lady luck has never been her friend. She knows shes unlucky, but she really didn't think she was THAT unlucky.
I mean, all the jobs that she's had in the past were cut short either due to shortage of work, lack of budget, douchebag for a boss, and end of contract.
It's not ALLLLL completely related to bad luck right?
So here she is, with a variety of experience, a wealth of skill sets and a vibe of desperation (because she needs money).
Then here comes the wave of job interviews.
But none of them works out because she either fucks up, not fit for the company, did not do her research/prep work, and was not hired because she was holding a temp job that she could not leave.
Again, not really about luck right? Perhaps bad timing...........and maybe a bit of bad luck too. 
But she's still persistent and determined!
Over the past 2 weeks she's just been mindlessly applying for jobs in which she figures its worth a shot to send something in but not expecting a call back. All while working on her areas that needs improvements.
Three days ago her laptop did not turn on. Friends of the dork suspected it was a battery/power supply issue, the techs says it might be a motherboard issue.
Two days later one of those companies whom she applied to two weeks ago e-mails her back asking for an interview. Also listed in that e-mail is a whole LIST of specific things they would like to see from the dork.
But the dork's laptop is in service. The tech people said the return date is in 7- 21 days.
The dork's interview is in 5 days.
So now she has about 4 and a half days to replicate and re-create A LOT of her projects for this job interview. All the while learning some new advance skills to hopefully be able to knock the socks off of the THREE people whom will be interviewing her (includes an Art Director, a Senior Affiliate Coordinator and Director of Sponsorship Sales).
Yes, the dork concludes she has the worst fucking luck in he world.
Or rather, lack of.


Story of my life. Story of my FUCKING LIFE PEOPLE. UGHHHHH
Please wish me good luck. I NEED IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Fairytales do come true!

Obviously today is zee biggg "Royal Wedding" or "the wedding of the decade". I really didn't give a damn to be honest and totally was going to brush it off. But really now. Me, not watching the wedding of the decade? The self-proclaim wedding addict not watch it? Don't be silly now. I got up to watch it at 6am with a mild hangover and totally soldiered it. So during the entire ceremony i did some "side commentaries" on my bb. As follows. Please read along as if this was a live (at the moment) play by play commentary.
  • I liked the trees in the church. Gave it a nice touch
  • Her makeup was pretty. Fierce fierce eyebrows. I'll get into my DRESS comments later in this entry. 
  • I think Kate's sister is hawt. So does half of my UK futbol guy friends on twitter haha
  • I wonder what the requirements are to be a choir boy? And why do some of the boys get to wear a military-looking uniform/outfit, while the others are forced to wear a fluffy shirt? Sucks to be those boys.
  • Some of the ladies hats are SO outrageous.
  • I'm bored as fak. If I was there I would have yawned a couple of times
    • And one lil black boy.
  • And of course the jolly choir MEN.
    • ok maybe there's TWO lil black boys.
  • Lil boy gets a solo during the singing. Bright future.
  • Whenever they say, "let us pray" I catch myself rolling my eyes. 
    • I'm sorry to all my religious friends and readers does bore me because i dont understand. Forgive me for being ignorant.
  • Crowd shot- i see several good-looking men.
    • I wonder how many are Arsenal fans.
    • Actually, there's this one RLLLLLLY hot looking guy in the crowd. Probably a distinct fifth cousin, twice removed, Wills side, because Kate's COMMMMONER extended family shall be forbidden from entering.
  • And of course there's kates sis (Pippa?) as Maid of Honour and Prince Harry as Best Man. Do i smell a hook-up? Heard they're both partay animals. Rwar. Sexy times.
    • Harry is actually pretty handsome. Ginger. Exotic.
  • WAYY to much singing. If your not singing, you're probably bored as hell.
    • Especially those who are seated behind that great big STONE WALL.
    • I don't understand the point in seating people where u can't even see kate and will.
      • Oh I will put Kate before will in sentences because I think she deserves it and Will gets enough spotlight, don't u think?
  • Oh oh, sexy guy in crowd again. The cam LOVES him. haha
  • A little sad that Diana wasn't present to see her boy get married.
  • So the whole ceremony took about an hour, with only about 10mins being the exchange of vows. No wonder guys dread weddings. Its a bloody bore!
  • What!?!? Kate and will are a duke and duchess. I thought it was prince and princess???? Now that's news to me. 
    • Actually rethinking it now, i guess it makes sense. Never mind lol.
  • Ok so I was wondering about the whole kiss the bride thing. Apparently they have do it at a balcony. Sexy time after that?
  • When Kate and Will got into the carriage, Will looked SO handsome with his white gloves and hat on. oh man. I was reminded of those school girl days when i would fondly daydream of the prince.
  • I guess no touching is allowed in the carriage?
  • NEWS AGAIN! Wills is 28!!?!?!? Kates 29!!!!!!!!! 
    • Never mind. Only by a couple of months. Confirmed to me by K. lol
  • Ohemgee, Beckham and Posh were guests at the church ceremony. I totally just experienced a crazy, futbol fan girl moment.
    • DAMNNNYNNNNN. The man has STILLLL got it in him. SO SO effing sexy.
    • !@#@$%& fangirl-ing.
  • I thought the Queen was cute wearing that yellow attire. 
    • That said, people on my twitter did not think that. A friend's tweet: " I'd I was Wills I'd say, "Look nan, if you don't stop stealing my thunder I'll put you in a home and won't visit."" 
    • ^ LOL!!!!
  • Bwahhaha omg harry gets to ride the carriage with the kids!!!!!! Sooooooo cuteeeeeeee.
  • " all night party Harry is hosting" x of course he would be hosting an all night party. He
    would probably be the first one to get shitfaced!!!!
- And i stopped there because the public ceremonies were done. Sorry about the grammer tenses. I kept on typing in past and present. That's what you get when im typing things so early in the morning. (I don't normally blog this early as you've noticed).

Ok now we move onto my DRESS rant

To be brutally honest, I was more thrilled by the baby flower girls dresses more. I'm NOT saying its ugly, its really just a question of taste and personal style right? I thought she could have gone and put more OMMPHHH in the volume of the dress but that's just my opinion. Its interesting because the first image of the Royal Wedding i saw when i turned on the tv was her dress and i was not "wow-ed" at all. That said.......she RLLLY looked like cinderella from.....cinderella. DISNEY.

Hahaha dont you think so?????

I would describe the dress to be very "timelless and exquisite". After watching it for a little longer it did start to grow on me. In particular the lace. I thought the lace work was absolutely beautiful. The dress is designed by Sarah Burton for Alexander McQueen (very VERY unfortunate he is not alive to do it himself. I think that would have been so symbolic). The description for this dress goes:
The design of the long-awaited wedding-dress combined majesty and modernity, royal heritage and romantic history, passion and pageantry.
Which i think it does capture all that. You can read all about the fashion and motifs behind her dress here at this [ link ]. As for her tiara, ahhhhhh i am NOT a fan of tiaras. AT ALL. I think it ruins the outfit and VERY LITTLE people can pull it off nicely. 8/10 brides do NOT pull it off well. But the name of the tiara and story behind it is nice.

I think overall Kate pulled it off very gracefully and beautifully. She really COULD have gone with a really, REALLY big name designer but she chose someone who is important and well respected in England and the fashion world. She could have also went against the norm and did something a bit more "chic" and encrusted the dress with a zillion Swarovski to say "Hey, i'm not a commoner no more. I can be royalty too" to all those blue-blooded snoots. But no, she stuck to simplicity, to something I think a "common" girl can relate to. That to me means more than anything.

Ah. The famous kiss on the balcony. The kiss was so so so endearing (despite what everyone says about the kiss being so horrendous and their interaction with their dentist was sexier haha). It's seriously a modern fairytale. They seemed real. Genuine.

At the beginning of the church ceremony, there was a moment where you saw Harry saying something to Will, i guess maybe a joke or something because they both chuckled. And then you also see Will saying something to Kate, and you see another chuckle. At the end of the day, they're still young and i think that's what i appreciate most about this entire gigantic, broadcasted, almost scripted "event"- is that they (the couple) tried to stay as real as possible.

Worth the wake-up for!

Thursday, April 28, 2011



Something Borrowed

About a month ago, the trailer for this novel "Something Borrowed" was released. My first impression of the trailer/movie was that its a pretty cute chick romance flick and probably WILL end up seeing it just because. The thing is that i've never read the book despite it being the top book to read on every girls list and been out for so long. Most of the girls aren't surprised that I haven't read it because "chick" novels are not exactly my think whereas i prefer mysteries, drama and erm, wizards/vampires/teenagers killing each other (i lump them all in one category because everyone does lol) haha. So i had no plans of reading it whatsoever and will depend heavily on the critique of girlfriends whom has and will allow them to point out to me how faithful the movie was to the book. Something i was completely fine with.

Until this:

I won advance screening tickets (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) to the movie through a blog contest that C told me to enter. I entered it not expecting to win (because i don't ever win anything) and the next thing you know i get an e-mail telling me i wonnnnnnnn. I really did not expect this advance screening to be much. I mean its shown two days before release night, how special can it be right? Ha. So it appears to be a tad more special than that because (as you can see in the above pic) the actor who plays Dex (the main guy in the novel) will be making a special appearanceeeeeeeeee. Bwhahaha. I totally experienced a fan girl moment when i saw that line of text in red and bold. Oh em geeeeeee. The guy is a GORGEOUS 38 year old. This means i must straighten the hair fo shuree now haha. and maybe wear a dress.

On another note- i did finish the book and fak it was GOOOOD. The way it was written is similar to Sex and the City, and everyone knows Sex and the City to me is a visual bible. Anything Carrie Bradshaw says is golden and sacred. Thus, this book is pretty effing awesome too.
Quick plot summary:
The novel centers around the protagonist and narrator, Rachel White, a thirty-year-old single woman who is a consummate good-girl. She and Darcy Rhone have been best friends since childhood, and hard-working Rachel is often in the shadow of flashy, sometimes ALWAYS selfish Darcy. Then, after a night of drinking on Rachel's thirtieth birthday, she sleeps with Darcy's fiance, Dex. After this turns into an affair, Rachel explores the meaning of friendship, true love, and ethics. - Courtesy of WIKIPEDIA.

Right, so I can relate to it in several aspects.

the whole 30 year old and single thing. I so see that happening to me and its going to suck ox balls. In the novel, the protagonist talked about how every girl dreams to be a 20s bride and have that beautiful family and house with the white fence around it by 30. But shit happens and the next thing you know, you're 28 and starting to freak the shit out until you actually hit 30 and that's when botox and lavalife commercials seems intriguing. Its really not that glamorous to be successful but single. Sure you can afford 14 dollar Caesars and bone a different guy every night but the party lifestyle can get tiresome. I would know, i've been living that lifestyle (being unemployed but having a sufficient income from the government) for almost a year now and i'm only twenty four. (Note: not saying i bone a different guy every night HA). I digress. So in the novel she's hit 30 and she's single. It sucks. That is- until she bones the guy shes been in love with for 7 years aka her bff's fiancee.
being cheated on. Another thing that sucks ox (or maybe buffalo) balls. Being cheated on is perhaps the worst thing in the world. The feeling of betrayal is so overwhelming and suffocating that adjectives just doesn't cut it. Which is why i am completely unsure on whether i agree with the main protagonist having an affair with her bff's boyfriend. No matter how much i hate the bff (whoms a major bitch id cut), it's just not cools. Its hard to judge because the plot is so much more complicated but at the end of the day, cheating is wrong. I strongly believe in Karma and how it can and will sneak up on you and bite you in the ass and you will have no one to blame but yourself. I'm tres cynical aren't i.
Three being the plain jane in the group. I don't care what anyone says- i have always been the larger, taller, bigger, uncooler one. I know what it feels like to live in the shadows. I know what it feels like when the guy likes your best friend and not you, or they they're talking to you just so you can be the wingman for them and one of your girls. Been there, done that. Maybe that's why I choose to live a certain lifestyle, just so i can be more special. Nobody likes dorks anyways when you can have a pretty fun girl. The type of guys i like anyways. HA. I DIGRESS AGAIN. I feel myself going emo again lol.

SO YES. FANTASTIC BOOK. Starting the 2nd book now. Hopefully its just as good. I heard that one of the characters i liked in the first book will have a bigger role in the second one. I am talking about Ethan, if anyone cares.


The dude with the arrow beside him is John Krasinski, and he's playing the character whom i am currently in live with (Ethan). I'm not sure why John Krasinski is part of the "main cast" because he doesn't really play that big of a role in the novel (not so sure about the 2nd book though) but HEY. I'M NOT COMPLAINING because i am IN LOVEEEEEE with him. I've come to a conclusion (this may change after reading the 2nd book) that if i was to marry a Caucasian guy, it would be a guy with a personality like the dude in the novel and looks like him.

Yeahhhhh. Geeky and wholesome as apple pie. So my cup of tea. 

Holey, i just realized i typed up an ESSAY. I really did NOT meant it to be that way. I also didn't mean it to be so damn emo either. I guess enjoy the read because it was totally accidental.

Wings and beer w/ some good company tmr evening. Paper shopping et Beastmode avec zee cousin first though. I will potentially be doing something extremely brave tomorrow. Will blog about it when it happens.


Wednesday, April 27, 2011


Thought it would be appropriate to loud this given the crazy downpour just now.

soooooooooo true lol

bitch rant mood

Be prepared to read a full rant by either tonight or tomorrow. i feel like just ranting the shit out.

Anyways. just some random side nerd sharings-
  • The movie THOR is rated shockingly HIGH at 93%. This makes me feel better about dragging the boys to go see it!
  • && First photo from the set of the Avengers movie.

Of course, only iiiiii would be all up over this.

Tuesday, April 26, 2011


im awfully selfish 

- according to my father. for the past 45 minutes. 

So remember that people. Don't count on me for anything because im sooooooo selfish, arrogant and can't be count on.

Oh and my laptop is out for a good 2-3 weeks. im on my old laptop that i can't stand.

What a wonderful day today has been.

Monday, April 25, 2011

White Mocha Americano Misto - ORDER. ITS GOOD.

Yesterday i woke up from what i think was only 6 hour of sleep (in which i was certain i woke up to puke once but it was very fuzzy)  and decided that i was going to go work out! With a hangover! Good thing i did because it was a really great workout and i didn't really feel my hangover until the abs track where i got a crazy nauseous, head rush when laying on my mat. I guess i didn't combat it away after all. Anyways, it was BEAUTIFUL outside today and I decided to nurse my hangover outdoors instead of staying in. I knew it was nice, but i didn't know that it was NINETEEN DEGREES NICE.

Thus began my journey downtown to the harbourfront to read. Yesh, i bussed my ass downtown to read at that man-made urban beach (HTO Park)

It was REALLY windy. I don't know why it was so shocking to me because it IS by the lake. Anyways, it was actually quite nice, where i sat. I had a starbucks, i had my book (now reading, Girl with a Dragon Tattoo...which is on hold now for me to finish Something Borrowed), my blackberry was away and ipod on. It was quite blissful for a good couple of hours sitting there and not really having a care in the world. When i look up the first thing i see is the water or sometimes there's a plane that flys by because Toronto Islands Airport is right there. I think this summer these solo trips will be frequent. I've gotten to enjoy spending time on my own- as lonely as that sounds.


and i watched "Water for Elephants". The movie was surprisingly GOOD. Robert Pattinson....was....actually....a GOOD ACTOR!!! I KNOW, OMFGBBQ right??? I hope since he's a better actor now, he would be a really awesome Edward in the last twilight movie. I also was positively reminded of how hollywood handsome he is.

MMMM. YAR. I am totally up and all over the R.Patz alley again. Total fan-girl mode was on during the entire movie. No shame.

This was kind of a random post with no real purpose. Something for you guys to read i guess. Gotta start being productive this week. I had a good two weeks "off". Pressure on again.

Peace out.

Sunday, April 24, 2011

"big" boned.

i guess ur allowed to say that when ur so rich.
but at the same time, very ballsy of her.

heart hurts

because my boys lost their first game in 17 matches.

Friday, April 22, 2011

im just a wreck today (rant)

i think people should stay clear of me today.

  • annoyed by several things
  • woke up from a terrible dream (essentially it was the undeniable future), pillow wet to the max from tears
  • terrible aching cramps
  • watched "Strangers, Again" (Wong Fu Productions), which i think is the worst decision in the world right now. i couldn't even finished the short because i felt like dying at half way point. 
  • noticed how ugly my nails are
  • also breaking out and fat

i just feel like curling up into a ball, curtains drawn, and sulking in the dark today.

and its not even quite 11am yet.

damn you female hormones. curses to chooo.


Sucks balls to be this guy rofl. #fail #fail

Opt out

geez even a 6th grader is going to a party

When you're poor, you tend to miss out on a lot of stuff.

i.e. why i am at home and not out like everyone else, on a night that starts Easter long weekend.

Sad face.

i think l'll be opt-ing out on many things this summer. That's until i get a final decision on whether i will be receiving E.I. (Which is looking grim) or find a FT job. Either or.

Triple million sad faces.

Thursday, April 21, 2011


This is how the rain looks like when you're up there.



本來前一天應該是四年, 不過一年後, 一切都變了, 好像一個夢.
雖然各有自己的生活, 有時候我真的很想知道你是不是真是gum容易忘記一切?
可能是我的問題lor. 我太固執. 不過有時候我真的很想念"我們".
我以為個一日一定會好痛, 好難受. [我其實好奇你記不記得] 不過竟然不是這樣的.
個一晚我逼自己哭, 逼得很辛苦. 最後我道是哭不到.
是不是因為我終於明白, 為什麼我們要分手? 或者是我終於接受你是今本不再愛我. or both.
或者gum, 個心好淡, 太痛, 哭不到.

無論deem, 一個非常gee難的年後- i survived. i'm still breathing.

That to me is an accomplishment.


I met up with S a few weeks back and did our usual quad-monthly catching up. To this day it still shocks me how much he still understands me after so much, so long (given that i don't really know whats going on in HIS mind but its really not any of my business. He has his boss woman to do that). Maybe it's because after all this time i am STILL that effing predictable. One thing he did point out was that he felt like i was a stronger person when i asked him did he think i am a bigger bitch now than when he first met me. I'm surprised he didn't think so because i feel like i am. I find it interesting when I ask people their opinions on me now versus how I was before. Most of the answers are pretty common. The majority thinks im stronger, more confident and articulate - but not a bitch. Which i find funny. Because i think of myself as one. I supposed it can be worst.

Nobody wants to be a bitch right.

Unless i'm a fighter bitch. Than i'm cools with that because fighter bitches dont get hurt. Physically or emotionally.

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

fashun - inspiration

Designer: Jason Wu

Spring 2011 Ready to Wear Collection

new old layout

Its a new layout of an old layout ive used in the past because i was too lazy to figure out the coding for anything new and spectacular.

But i DID jazz it up (sorta- if you remembered what this looked like when it was all pink and happy looking) and i think the jazzing up looks prettty nice if i would say so myself (because im a bit egotistic like that).

Ok im REALLY going to sleep now before i decide to start a new blog post or work on a design project.

oh and a small fffound-

What a sassy lil troll lolol

Ok im very serious now. SIGNING OUT~

The Hunger Games

For the past two weeks I've been reading this trilogy (the Hunger Games) recommended to me by Twin. Her exact words were "READ. ITS BETTER THAN HARRY POTTER". That to me is pretty UNpossible because absolutely nothing in this world can be better than Harry Potter. That includes Twilight too and it comes in second place for me. That said it WAS under her recommendation (actually it was more like an advisory) for me to start HP & Twilight. After much protest on how lame "wizards" and "vampires" are, i DID end up reading it (again, because it was a direct order) and became much more obsessed with those two series than her. Something she would never let go for the rest of my life lol In conclusion because she recommended the two book series that changed my life, i wasn't really allowed to question her when she began telling me what this book was about (because it sounded LAME again).

With that said, i was told by many people in the store (people around me and the employees, while i was holding the book and debating whether i should buy it or not) - how amazing the book is and they were not able to put it down. I ended up buying the softcover, reading it and........returning it back to the store in 3 days because i went ahead and brought the damn trilogy in hardcover online because it was thatttttttttttt gooooooooooood. I even FORCED myself to slow down while reading the 3rd (and final) book because i did not want the story/book to end!!!! When i finally finished the series the other night i felt SO sad and empty because i wanted to read MOREEEEEEEEEEEEE.

And tis begins my rant on how fucking amazing it was-

HOLYFUKERY the series is ONE BIG MIND FUCK. Do not be fooled by the fact that its published by Scholastic haha I have to say though, that the "hunger games" storyline itself is completely NOT original. Think....Battle Royale with Romance. But everything else is original and freaking mindblowing.

Remember this movie?

Recap: Class of 42 students are "abducted" (even though it was planned) and left on an island where essentially they must kill each other until there is one sole survivor. There's obvs small details like the tracking devices on their necks (that blow up if u attempt to take them off) or the various weapons and "supplies" they provide you with to kill everyone. Lots of blood, lots of gore- Just like how the japanese like it!

It's really hard to say which series i find better because they are all different in various aspects. Because:

  • Harry Potter - the entire world, character development, details is SO meticulous that to this day, ten years later, i still pick out details i have NEVER noticed in the past when i reread the books. that's just how insanely detailed HP is. the whole series comes together to form something utterly brilliant.
  • Twilight - i really liked the author's style of writing. believe it or not but the books are actually pretty funny and bella is SERIOUSLY not so monotoned and boring as k.Stewart portrays her in the movies. The way that twilight is breathtaking is that the books builds up to a final, huge, finale to essentially this enormous journey that S.Meyers had created. 
  • The Hunger Games - The style in which this trilogy was written is entirely different from the above two series. Its crazy suspenseful and i kid you not- at the end of EVERY chapter there's a cliffhanger. Usually in novels there might be a cliffhanger or suspense in every 3-4 chapters but not with these books. It just makes you want to KEEEEEPPPP ON READINGGGG UNTIL YOUR EYES BURN and the author keeps on fucking with your mind OVER AND OVER again by having something TOTALLLYYYY UNEXPECTED happen. I think this series might even kick Twilight to 3rd place on my best reads list.
I'm not articulate enough to give a good description on why everyone should read this (and also because its almost 2am and i want to sleep) but the entire series is absolutely bloody (literally and metaphorically) epic. Highly recommended and it is SUCHHHH an EASY read.

I'm gonna start reading book 1 again now. 

Or sleep.

It ISSSS 2am.

Monday, April 18, 2011


ffffound by annnbug!


Sunday, April 17, 2011


 Sexiest wall. EVER.
The book shelf.............

Love love love.

Why i love Futbol (and Arsenal) - an Explaination.

Its no secret to anyone that i am a HUGE futbol fan. Its so huge i even call it futbol and not soccer. More specifically ive turned into a hardcore Arsenal fan. Of course anyone that has me on facebook and/or twitter, and also personally would already know that from my excessive tweets, angry/mocking status updates, my constant chatter regarding the subject and of course, the team jerseys i wear out on a regular basis proudly and shamelessly.

For the past couple of weeks i've actually been feeling extremely sad because my team hasn't been very doing well. I've told people this and EVERYONE (except for A) just looks at me with that uber crazy wtf i dont understand you look. Interestingly enough just hours ago i was in tears at the bar because i thought we won a very important game and now im upset beyond imaginable. People ask me why do i get so worked up and get so visibly upset? I'm going to try and explain that feeling in one shot and if u still dont get it..................yeah i can't do much about it. hahah

I started to follow the English Premier League (EPL) and Spanish League in September. A started too with the EPL but followed the French League instead. No brainer, she supports France, i support Spain. At the time i didn't know which team to "follow" so i actually watched all games played by the infamous top 5 teams in the league (i would name them but i don't think anybody gives a shit)(Actually l'll name em for shits and giggles: ManUtd, ManCitey, Liverpool, Arsenal and Chelsea). I was EXTREMELY busy for a couple of weekends (watching game after game) trying to figure out who i want to be "my team". Somehow outta all the teams that i watched, Arsenal was the ONLY one that did not bore me to death and was the only one i was able to watch the game in its entirety from when it started right up to the 90th minute. So it wasn't like a bandwagon thing where i jumped onto the one with the most wins, the most popular and has the hottest guys. On contrary if that was the case, i SHOULD be following Manchester United (like the rest of the Chinese population.) aka the infamous team Beckham was on for 10 years  (Yuck, the thought makes me cringe.) But i don't. In fact i actually hate them. So in a way Arsenal chose me.

And if you even START, even DARE TO start on the reason why i started to follow Arsenal is because the guys are good looking - i seriously will cut your face for insulting me like that. Call me a fan girl, i will triple slash that face. And if you are a good friend, the value and effort that i will be putting into your wedding gift will be influenced (hint: HEAVILY deducted). But i mean if you are a realllllll good friend, you would never say that to me so there's nothing to worry about (aka ur wedding gift is safe haha) ! = ]

So now, i am physically and emotionally attached to Arsenal. Every day i wake up and the first thing i do is check twitter to see if any of the boys from my team tweets, then i check for news. Their wins and losses directly affects me and i swear to god those tears are real and so are those threats if you dare cross me when i am angry. It has become so personal that if you attack the team, its like you are attacking me. There has been many instances where i would get into heated conversations with people i hardly know- just because they started to talk shit about arsenal. I've even begun to judge people depending on what team they support.

I really can't explain that devotion except that its REALLY like, being married to someone. Its SO sad, SO weird and SO hard to comprehend but really think of it that way. You decide to devote your life to that person and in good or bad times, you will stick by them no matter what. Chin up at all times. They make you happy, they make you sad. You love their flaws and their entirety. That's exactly how i feel about my team. It has now become like a pledge and vow i made to the team, to be supportive and faithful til i die.

Sounds kinda like a cult eh. bahaha

As of now its Arsenal > Boys. I have no time for boys. I will probably remain single for the rest of my life because of this.

So after reading this people, please still be my friend. lollllllllllllllll.

Peace out kids. im going to sulk for the rest of the day. B.urton is a Genius

Photos of the exhibit that i was not suppose to take (security would seriously run up on your ass and demand you to delete the picture on the spot in front of em. Good thing my stealth level is at Ninja High). I hope i don't get into trouble for this. Hence why i put the periods in between the name so Google can't pick it up. Heh clever aren't i.


I played with the coloring of some of the pictures. 

I took maybe a couple more pics but l'll load those on facebook

Concept sketch for Edward Scissorhands.
I don't know how long i stood in front of this illustration but i am in love. i want this.

Concept Model made for "The Stain Boy"
Don't care what anyone says- this was probably my 2nd most favorite short on his list of amazing work. There was actually a whole house (think dollhouse with christmas lights) and this was what was INSIDE the model house when you look through the window. Its so creeepishly cute.

After my almost 2 hours tour of this exhibit (it was said that the tour should take about an average of 45 minutes to complete, so you can imagine how long i lingered at each section)
I am truly inspired by this mastermind. B.urton is bloooody brilliant

Friday, April 15, 2011


LOL poor eeeyore. He's SO angry. hahah

Schedule for the next two weeks:
Fri- S's Birthday
Sat- Brunch date avec zee girls, Tim Burton Exhibit, dinner et drinks.
Sun- Arsenal v Liverpool game en Scally for brunch
Mon- Papa anniversaire
Tue- Italian Dinnah Date avec lover <3
Wed- Arsenal v Spuds game/ El Clasico game en Scally (again)
Thurs- M's Birthday (maybe....i might pass depending on how EXHAUSTED i am)
Fri- J's Birthday

Yeah. I really don't think i have time to do ANY "real" blogging. I'm sorry kids!

maybe l'll load a pic of each of my outings.


Wednesday, April 13, 2011


Natalie McDonald, who appears on page 159 of Harry Potter And The Goblet Of Fire, was a real person. She was a nine-year-old girl from Toronto, Canada, who was dying of leukemia. She wrote to JK Rowling asking what was going to happen in the next Harry Potter book as she would not live long enough to read it. The kindly author emailed back, but Natalie had died a day earlier. In tribute, she became a first-year student at Hogwarts named by the Sorting Hat in Gryffindor - the house for the brave at heart - in the fourth book.

thats so saddddddd.

Tuesday, April 12, 2011


BWAHHAHA immi-gants are so creative

Monday, April 11, 2011

Differences between friends & best friends

FRIENDS: Will comfort you when he rejects you.
BEST FRIENDS: Will go up and ask him, “It’s because you’re gay, isn’t it?”
FRIENDS: Will be there for you when he breaks up with you.
BEST FRIENDS: Will call him up and whisper, “you will die in Seven days…”
FRIENDS: Help you up when you fall.
BEST FRIENDS: Keeps on walking saying, “Walk much, dumb ass?”
FRIENDS: Help you find your prince.
BEST FRIENDS: Kidnap him and brings him to you.
FRIENDS: Will ask you if you’re okay when you’re crying.
BEST FRIENDS: Will laugh at you and say, “Ha Ha, Loser!”
FRIENDS: Will offer you a soda.
BEST FRIENDS: Will dump theirs on you.
FRIENDS: Will sit at the side of the pool with you at that time of the month.
BEST FRIENDS: Will throw you a tampon and push you in.
FRIENDS: Gives you their umbrella in the rain.
BEST FRIENDS: Takes yours and says, “Run, fucker, run!”
FRIENDS: Will help you move.
BEST FRIENDS: Will help you move the bodies.
FRIENDS: Will bail you out of jail.
BEST FRIENDS: Would be in the room next to you saying, “That was awesome! Let’s do it again!”
FRIENDS: Would bail you out of jail again
BEST FRIENDS: Would be sitting next to you saying “DAMN!” we messed up!
FRIENDS: Never ask for anything to eat or drink.
BEST FRIENDS: Help themselves and are the reason why you have no food.
FRIENDS: Call your parents by Mr. and Mrs. and Grandpa, by Grandpa.
BEST FRIENDS: Call your parents DAD and MOM and Grandpa, GRAMPS!
FRIENDS: Have never seen you cry.
BEST FRIENDS: Wont tell everyone else you cried…just laugh about it with you in private when your not down anymore.  <= bwahahah Twin.
FRIENDS: Asks you to write down your number.
BEST FRIENDS: Have you on speed dial.
FRIENDS: Borrows your stuff for a few days then gives it back.
BEST FRIENDS: Loses your stuff and tells you, “My bad…here’s a tissue.”
FRIENDS: Only know a few things about you.
BEST FRIENDS: Could write a very embarrassing biography on your life story…
FRIENDS: Will leave you behind if that is what the crowd is doing.
BEST FRIENDS: Will kick the whole crowd’s ass that left you
FRIENDS: Would knock on your front door.
BEST FRIENDS: Walk right in and say “I’M HOME.”
FRIENDS: You have to tell them not to tell anyone.
BEST FRIENDS: Already know not to tell.
FRIENDS: Are only through high school/college. (aka: drinking buddies)
BEST FRIENDS: Are for life.
FRIENDS: Will be there to take your drink away from you when they think you’ve had enough.
BEST FRIENDS: Will look at you stumbling all over the place & say “Girl drink the rest of that ! You know we don’t waste!

Saturday, April 9, 2011

i owe you guys a nice lil read

This one is interesting!

Day 4- Seven things that cross your mind a lot.

  1. MoneyThis is on my mind ALL. THE. TIME. But then i think its on everyone's mind because money IS everything. The people who say its NOT everything are people who clearly people who are delusional....and very not superficial. I'd rather not meet these people. That said, being newly unemployed (yet once again!) its time for me to be real cautious about my spending. But not even that, money has always been a huge ongoing issue for me. A lot of people may think that i have an excessive amount of dispoisable income but that's REALLLY not the case. I mean sure, i go to starbucks a lot but i actually order the cheapest thing on the menu (and also because i know some money saving tricks, it just seems like im ordering something delicious and expensive) and i save money on a lottttt of other stuff. I could probably save even more if i stopped drinking, but that's just me being unrealistic. I pay for a lot of stuff on my own, i don't ask for money and i also help my parents out with a very large expense that they carry on top of my OSAP debt that i owe the father (both my parents are unemployed at the moment 'mind you). So yeah, i'd say money is always on my mind especially when friends ask me to go out or to go out trips. I have to be very strategic about whom i can dine/lunch with. I can't always dine with one person and neglect another. I know, im terrible. I'm so sorry guys, i wish i can eat/go out/vacay/dine with ALL you guys :( but i know people are fairly understanding, so im very thankful for that.
  2. Career Along with money, the thing that's im always fussing about - is what i want to do with my life. Where do i want to go, what do i want to do, what do i like doing, what CAN i do, what am i currently doing, etc. etc. I remember the cousin asked me what i was aiming to do/to be in 10 years and i really had zero idea. I mean i am barely getting by figuring out what i want to do a year from now (aside from wanting a stable, permanent, full-time job.....details are foggy) let a lone 10 years! That said this time around (being unemployed i mean) i really have to be more focused. I literally wasted a year and its not something i am too proud of.
  3. BrotherMy brother's well-being, future, what he's up to, etc is ALWAYS on my mind but do i do anything about it? No. Simply said- i'm a bad sister and i am horribly ashamed and disappointed in myself. Sometimes i feel like, what right do i have to go trolling on him about what he's doing with his life when i barely know what i am doing with mine? Guilty as charged....sighs.
  4. FamilyIt just might be the type of person I was brought up to be but i constantly think about my family and their future. I might not always show it but i always feel the need to have to take on the traditional eldest role and just take care of everything for my parents and of course, brother. I think this mentality is going to stick with me for life thus its very hard for me to, want to be ambitious in certain areas of my life because I will always want to be around to "take care" of them. In my mind, I'm not allowed to be selfish because i am the eldest.
  5. The Way i lookThis sounds SO uber superficial of me but its true. My physical appearance is ALWAYS on my mind. Whether its my hair (which has to be straightened 80% of the time or i will not leave the house!) or my nails has to be nice (and not chipped/cracked) and obviously my weight. For someone who grew up always as the big girl (literally, in width AND height) in the group, people choosing to be your best girlfriends friend instead of yours because you're dorky looking and fat and wore bad clothes, or guys not giving you the time of the day because they judged you on your appearance - it kind of makes you superficial in that way.
  6. Future Wedding Lame. I can't believe i am OPENLY admitting this on a public blog and it will probably incriminate me in the future (i guess l'll deal with it then) but i always find myself looking at wedding-related things and i would think "hey, i'd like that at my wedding" and save that inspiration in my ever-growing file of wedding inspirations. Hell, K even bought me a vintage typewriter (which i play to spraypaint white lol) for my birthday and its actually INTENDED for my future wedding. Fukked right? Yeah typing that out is actually a bit overwhelming lame. First off, i don't have a boyfriend and lets say if i ever do and it leads to you know, this actually happening....i'm hoping i can massage "him" into the plans i already have. HA. Lame once again. Can't help myself though.
  7. PastWhat runs through my head a lot, are what if's. I linger and analyze details of the past a lot. I don't just think about recent things either. I still replay stuff that's happened 8 years ago. Perhaps this is my way of dealing with things but it happens a lot when I am alone. Sometimes i would replay it in my head over and over again, and look for those first signs of trouble. This might be why I am so analytical with my dreams and am so obsessed with the details. I find unspoken actions speaks volume as oppose to actual words being said. I wonder a lot, obsessed with alternate endings and scenarios. It's actually very unhealthy lol With that said, just because i think of the past a lot does not mean i linger. I sincerely believe what's meant to be will always find a way. At least i tell myself that otherwise l'm certain i will go insane with this unhealthyness haha.
That's that!

But because i owe you guys so much more to read, i'm going to KEEEEP on going haha.

Yesterday was my last day of my contract work on friday and it was pretty bittersweet. I did my rounds of goodbyes at the office and it was particularly hard with one of the ladies there because she was actually my "manager" when i worked there during highschool and she remembered me very well when i returned this time around. Saying a goodbye a second time around was a little sad. Since i'm unemployed again, three main things i need to concentrate on.

One- i need to go easy on the spendings. 
Because E.I this time around is not going to cut it. No more celebrity lifestyle for me yo. Expect to not see me that much people. Heads up now. 
Two- beast mode the shit outta my body.
Not only is it because it's summer, but because i know that i am capable of being "fit", i won't settle for less than that so going have to work harddddd alllll over again. Started jogging last night, it actually felt great. I think i'm going to start doing that.
Three- Work on finding a full-time job. 
Obvs, priority yo.

Ugh ugh i actually wanted to blog more buttttt because i am so "on top of things" today, will forego the stuff i wanted to rant about and do it another day.

Going to do nails, finish up "Unstoppable", read a bit more of "Catching Fire" (part of The Hunger Games trilogy aka THE BEST I'VE READ IN A VERY LONG TIME) and then sleep to wake for my 830 game tmr morning.

Hope that's enough of a read for now!

Friday, April 8, 2011


Sorry sorry sorry!!! Will REALLY make an effort to blog when i am on my productive date avec annnbug tomorrow.

Until then kids!

Tuesday, April 5, 2011

Eight ways to win your heart

This one is interesting!

Day 3- Eight ways to win your heart

  1. Be a Gooner - I think that's pretty simple right? YOU"D THINK. It's NOT. Not in TORONTO anyways. If you're into soccer or more specifically, an ARSENAL fan, you've won half of my heart already. After meeting a couple of people who are in fact soccer (and Arsenal fans/gooners), I can conclude that knowing what you are talking (you gotta AT LEAST know what happened at Ansfield in 1989) about and sharing the same love and passion as me would definitely win you brownie points- or in this case my heart. haha
  2. Likes to read - He would have to know how to settle down with a book and enjoys spending time in book stores. Having a book in his hand will win my heart for sure.
  3. Dress properly- Not necessarily "stylish" but be proper. If he dresses like a hobo or are mismatching - i'm sorry it will never work lol
  4. Enjoys/have a good laugh - I don't mean be obnoxious about it but don't judge if i do/say something stupid. Also if he can make me laugh, always a plus.
  5. Be turdy - Huge. Turds and dorks are winners.
  6. Have good conversation - Everyone knows how chatty and vocal I am so seeing the other person be just as chatty is always great. If he can motivate me to be better,  constantly challenge me and not afraid to disagree with me (better be a damn good reason), i choose that comfort-ness over a lot of things.
  7. If you can talk nerd, but not look like a nerd - WIN!
  8. Just be tall, charming and cute - because at the end of the day i am superficial like that.

I haven't been home much peeps. Bear with me! Work tmr then MWDC~


Ums, hells no? That's SO effing scary.

This is how ive been feeling

Pretty much every day haha


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