Hey cousin, guess what?

i love you. thats all.
now lets go do some work LOL.

is this life?

i certainly hope not. im becoming mean & more frustrated as the days fly pass me.

the lack of inspiration is starting to scare me. im losing sight of what i want to do and what i need to do to get there. the most concerning part is im losing myself and i feel myself giving up that fight slowly. Day by day, bit by bit.

anyhoo,

came back from camping this weekend with ONLY two mosquito bites, massive pounds gained and am now a pro at flipcup. i returned to a messy room, my brother being difficult and a pile of freelance work.

i may be doing a lot of freelance work but 90% of that work is extremely mindless and doesn't inspire me in any way. its mainly for income. To me its no different from data entry.

what has life become?

Slumber Coma

Since i've came back from San Diego, i have been completely out of routine. I've been doing nothing, in terms of my freelance plus job hunting situation (except for maybe that one night where I did my all-nighter for this infographic that I wanted to send in to one particular company). I haven't been to the gym since as well (except on Saturday, which felt great because my body feels like its been run over by a bus!) and i feel like shit even more because of that. On top of that, i've been sleeping A LOT. I mean taking these two and a half hours naps during the day. I would be chatting and then I would be gone because ive fallen asleep on my oh-so-comfy bed behind me. What's even worst is this slumber coma that i fell into yesterday. Pretty much i slept ALL DAY yesterday. Partially because of this nagging painful headache that did not go away since Saturday afternoon, partially my upper body was sore from the gym (whenever bod is sore = me wanna sleep) and then, just because i felt like sleeping even though i SHOULD be doing a bit of freelance work. Um, i took a 4 hour nap before dinner. Ate dinner, ate cake for dessert on the couch but started to fall asleep!!! I then just gave up and went to bed at 7pm. Ridiculous no? I woke at 1115 and decided that i should just sleep through the night and wake up at 530am. Mainly because i fear i might turn into a vegetable if i let myself sleep until 10am- which im sure i would have been able to do.

I've been fairly productive when it comes to seeing people and going out though! That said- I MISS MY COUSIN. Its official. I don't remember what her face looks like no more and it makes me saddddd. So so sadddddd. Big sad face. I hopes to see her soon before our annual camping trip next week??? Pweleaseee??


I guess its good that im up right now and blogging (yesh! its only 7am). But i'm really losing focus. Its extremely difficult to stay positive when you've been in this limbo of a stage for almost two years now (its been TWO summers). Its not really like i haven't gotten any responses either because at least it shows that i'm doing something right. I must really be the talks when people gossip about who's doing what after graduation and me, K, been completely useless. Unemployed for this long, not really going anywhere with life amongst other things. Out of all people, i am seriously the last fucking person to be in this type of situation and here i am. All this bad luck- i'm convinced one of you wankers cursed me.

Especially lately, I've told myself, those are just vain words, from an empty mind. (I say mind because of one specific person). But ive always been that person that really gives a shit about what others think. I cannot, help but let that ruin me. But seriously, this person's two-faced-ness makes me bloody sick. I mean, if you are going to be two-faced, at least make one of them pretty, bitch. Ugh. 

And of course, right when I act spontaneously (i do that a lot)- my dreams (the ones i get at night, not the froo froo ones) brings me back to a broken reality and tells me, its not going to happen. Bummer, really. I think its this loss of focus that's causing me to lose that control i had over how i feel.

Or it might even be that- the cause of my slumber coma. mEEEH. we shall see this week.

GOOD MORNINGGGGG.

Lazy....AGAIN

I know i know, i am lagging behind on the easiest photo blog challenge in the world. i can't help it if im a busy girl!?!?! Blogging is like an UNPAID full-time job you know. (Well for me it is, unlike those lucky ones who gets paid to blog #sideeyes).

I would LOVE to do a catch-up soon time with some actual typing and ranting but not until i get this design practical out of the way.

On that note- I was OFFICIALLY rejected from P.A the other day (which was pretty devastating but expected). Fortunately, i actually had ANOTHER interview lined up (seems like i've been saying this A LOT haven't i). I was told that they would like me to move onto part 2 of the hiring process immediately (hence the design practical). If I pass that one, then its one more interview with the VP of sales and that's that. Much thnx to lx the other day for taking me there (this place is....pretty effing far).

I should really continue with this task though. I underestimated its complexity and tedious nature. A starbucks session is probably needed tomorrow.

Tis all. Happy Thursday!

I MISS YOU BLOGGING

I really ought to start blogging again. I miss sharing my thoughts and randomness and i'm sure as hell you guys miss reading stuff from me. Shockingly, people STILL come by to see whether or not i've updated (thank you oh loyal stalker ones). I guess i owe you guys THATT much for sticking by me. I'm considering whether i should pick up where i ended that 10 day Tumblr Challenge that i NEVER actually finished. HA (You can go through them by clicking on the BLOG PROJECTS link on the side there or here) Or just completely start a new one. The idea of starting a new one is extremely tempting at the moment so i probably will do that. I will be starting another Project 30 Day (older one can be found here or the entire month of September 2010) aka. the Photo project that EVERYONE loved. I shall begin that next WEDNESDAY when i get my camera back from someone. cough. haha <3

So. What's new eh. AHHHHHHHHH

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Haha wow. I am SO terrible at this now i don't even know where to begin. ESPECIALLY because.....its almost 2am and i haven't updated in so long i don't remember what i have done anymore (happens with old age and lots of drinking) since my last, long word vomit entry. OKAY MAJORLY OFF. I FELL ASLEEP. ITS ACTUALLY 330 PM RIGHT NOW AS I'M TYPING THIS. I'M ALSO ROYALLY ANNOYED BUT THAT'S NOT THE POINT RIGHT NOW. Holey crap MAJOR DELAY.It is officially four days later since i STARTED this blog, i am DETERMINED to finish it TONIGHT. RWAR.

i digress. moving on-

I'm still in the middle of this finding a job crisis. I'm getting pretty nervous again. The place that called me back for a 2nd interview has "delayed" the hiring because of some internal crisis so now im just AWAITING for them to sort that crisis out and see if they remember to call me. I don't even know what to do. I'm still applying (DAILY) for positions but seriously.....Graphic Design is hard stuff. Looks like I have to start doing "cold" e-mailing. I kind of wish they can get it over with, and just reject me if they really aren't that interested in me so i can move on.

Other points of interest

• San Diego ish in LESS THAN A MONTH
  Indeed kids. I will be in San Diego for comic con next month. Its starting to REALLY hit me because schedules of panels are coming out, more things are confirmed to be at the convention. It will be absolutely EPIC. The boys and i just need to wrap up some loose ends and i shall be off, snogging Ian Somerhalder. Hopefully. hahah Unfortunately, I will be missing an epic Canoe Summerlicious Dinner date w/ zee girls. I am quite sadden that l'll be missing it but hopefully when i return we can have another nights out at Brants. I'll be adding onto this subject more and more as the day gets closer.
  
  
• Reading Percy Jackson series / a lil rant
  The other day at BMV i was able to find the ENTIRE Percy Jackson and the Olympian Gods boxed series in HARDCOVER for only 30 dollars which is a STEAL because each book usually costs about 25 dollars anyways (FYI. I try to buy only hardcovers, especially when it comes to series. I have a thing for hardcover books). 
• Been reading that and even though i'm only on book 3, i would have to put it as 4th on my "Favorite Book Series of all times" list. Extremely entertaining, but NO WHERE near Harry Potter (#1), Twilight or the Hunger Games (which fights for #2). 
• Also, don't judge me......because i read "childrens" books. These childrens books are GOOD. Ohkay. 
• Earlier I was part of a discussion re: Harry Potter vs. Twilight. People were comparing the two series. For someone like me who is a HUGE (and proud) obsessive fan of both series- i get majorly annoyed when that happens. Its like comparing apples and oranges, seriously, dont be stupid now. If ANYONE has any say on this, i would think id be the one that has the most legit argument. Ugh. // rant done.
• The Percy Jackson books also reminded how much i love Greek Mythology. I think if was rich and my family did not depend on me to bring home cash nor would i ever need to support myself in this lifetime, i would study Greek Mythology because its geniunely a subject that I've always enjoyed since i heard my first Greek Myth in grade 6. Too bad my life isn't that ideal.
  
  
• Freelance Work
  Been busy as hell with freelance work. Might have slightly mentioned this before in previous blog entries but A and I are going to tag team and come together to work on a special project. I'm pretty excited about that, i think things should be pretty awesome once we have something to show.
  
  
• Beastmode
  Since December i've put on a disgusting 10lbs. Fortunately for me, Combat and Weights HAVE paid off and i've lost 4lbs in the past 2 months (HUGE for me!). Just another 6 to go and l'll be back to how i was LAST August (which i considered to be the first time in my life where ive been the fittest AND skinniest ive ever been in my life).
• I do have a new goal though, which is to reach that DREAM weight and physique by my 25th birthday this year. Essentially November 2nd is my deadline. You know. Birthday and all. I like being monumental about certain occasions. 
• All my life i've been big (im serious) and i would REALLY like it, if by my quarter of a century i can finally reach that ideal physique so i can look at myself in the mirror and be proud of the way i look and not be ashamed as i have been all my life. Going to work really hard for that. 
  
  
• I MISS ARSENAL
  ENOUGH SAID. I MISS WATCHING ARSENAL PLAY SO MUCH AND GOING INSANE.
  

fjhskjskfkldsjfdlsk i think im done.

Damnit i REALLY am losing my touch. Must work hard. Don't want to lose that blogging momentum. EVER.

but ya. there u go. AN UPDATE.

Fob

Pig Pig 豬;這世上誰最下賤?!?!

HAHAHAHHAHA 林峰 (Ray Lam) you Kill me.

NEWS FLASH

BWHAHAHA

No wonder they want this presentation by Wednesday.

Its because they want us to come in for round two INTERVIEWS on THURSDAY.

BWHAHAHAHHA. I think ive OFFICIALLY GONE INSANE.

Fairytale

I attended my first Brown Engagement Blessing ceremony yesterday for S&N. It would say it was quite a pleasant culture experience. I think it was mostly stemmed from the fact that i was able to be part of the "back scene" by helping setting up things and being around the bridal party for the entire day. I think if i was to just arrive and not been around to do all those things, i would have been pretty bored.

The engagement ceremony went well, S looked so so beautiful. I think her and N are the most good-looking couple i know. Pretty babies are expected. It was SO SO hot though, i think i sweated up a storm and i was the one that didn't have to wear the traditional clothing which basically meant i got the better end of the deal. Afterwards it was pictures (the bridal party is SO cute) and drinking as down time.

So can i say that brown people can party? Like, even the grown-ups lololol omg it was INSANE. A few drinks and they start blasting reggae and dance hall. I didnt even need to go to the club to dance. And can i also add, that S's mom has got some hot swag. I cannot move like that woman. She is absolutely phenomenon!!!!!

One thing i do want to comment on though, is how envious I am of S&N. They are what you call, blissfully in love with one another. The perfect fairytale. Its not the sappy, barf-worthy kind of romance either. Its real yet storybook-like. They are both so so cool and so much fun when they're together. Everything you want in a relationship, they have with one another. I can even go as far as saying that they remind me a lot of when A and I were together, playful. But so much more. So much better. Lets not forget how much her in-laws LOVES her. And vice versa. The family bond is also visibly strong and its not quite official just yet either so you can only imagine how much stronger it will become when they become official. Honestly, the day just proves that happily ever afters do exist. There are guys out there that want to settle down and be devoted to building a life with you without needing to sacrifice anything. So thank you to the both of you, for giving me hope. Again. Sorta.

Needless to say though- i earned my Scarborough street creds yesterday. haha booya.

But now its TOTAL CRUNCH TIME. My entire day was pretty much wasted because of my hangover. (I drank on an empty stomach AGAIN. I really don't learn do i.)

The main theme for the deck i am creating is Playstation/Xbox's NBA 2K11. I hope being the boy that i am, i can design something so kickass that it doesn't look like a female did it. And then of course get hired and life would be almost perfect again.

Outs.

Allergies are killing me slowly

ZINGGGGGGGGG. BWAHHA I laughed out loud at several pics. Creative, no?

Observation made earlier tonight- I am terribly frighten of holding a knife.
I noticed this while i was cutting up slices of lemons earlier for my water. Shit, talk about being scared. Not good for future wife duties. Might have to tell future husband to hire someone to cut stuff for me. That or future mister is gonna be doing all the slicing, dicing and chopping.

Observation made this morning- I cannot drink red wine for the life of me.
A and i had our WAG evening last night and somehow we went through two bots of white and decided to go for more by drinking a newly vintage red she opened recently. I ALWAYS knew that i can't drink reds but i heard this thing about how its only certain Reds that would get you shtfaced (aka the cheap ones) and the real exquisite ones won't give you ANY hangovers. Needless to say i have yet to sample any exquisite ones because i always wake up feeling like DEATH. So yes, i woke up feeling like death today. There's no room for ambitions when it comes to drinking. I should remember that.

Noted people. NOTED.

Currently working on S&N's engagement present. On a friday night. Running into construction issues. I hate running into issuessss. If you're reading this dear, I HOPE YOU LIKE IT!!! <3

- I should also clean my room. Its getting dutty and chaotic again.

Ha, and today i was at FMP and bought myself a large bag of those......salty plum snack munchie thingys (Wa Mui's for all you chinks). The lady actually asked me if i was preggos.

.................

BWAHHAHA i just looked at her with my "are you fucking with me" glare. She added quickly though, "Not that u look it. Its just that only pregnant girls buy this much". Good thing she did because she would have received a cussing from me! So apparently non-preggo girls cant munch on salty snacks no more. PREJUDICEEEEE. Not going back. EVER.

Shit its 2am.

OUTZ.

TEEE SHIRT WEATHER

OK. HERE IT IS. UPDATE UPDATE.

[ The weekend is done again and i know i promised/sorta, an entry yesterday but i got lazy and procrastinated and the next thing you know its 1230am and i need to sleep to get up for 7am, for a 9am game at the pub. My apologies, sleep was definitely priority seeing i did not get much of it from the past weeeeek. ] <- As you can see i wrote this YESTERDAY. I was not lying.

So from my previous couple of entries, you kind of get the idea that i was so exhausted to a point of insanity. To recap, i had an interview with a really awesome company for a position that's pretty much "tailored" for me. I really did NOT think i had a chance even though i fit the description of the type of person they are looking for. Reason being is that i responded to it from seeing a posting on Monster and everybody knows, how many hits Monster gets- especially for design jobs. Anyways, didn't think i would be called back but they did. The catch here was that they called a day AFTER i took my laptop in for servicing. They listed a lot of specific things they wanted me to bring in as portfolio pieces and being the big fukken dumbass that i am- i have none of that backed up. It was ALL on that laptop that is in servicing, that won't be available for me until 2 weeks later. Thankfully after a rant with the cousin after i read the call-back e-mail, i somewhat formulated a game plan which was pretttttttttttty much to RECREATE several pieces and create a kick ass presentation. I had about 4.5 days to do all that. Even though it sounds like a lot of time, it actually wasn't. During those couple of days even though i managed to get in 6 hours of sleep, it was extremely mentally exhausting because i would get up at 8am to start working at it and literally grind at it until 2 am. I did 7 hour starbucks session, i also somehow managed to fit in an hour or two at the gym and obvs my downtime which included eating/crapping/showering.....QUICKLY. There were many, MANY instances where i started to doubt myself and wondered whether I was being a little bit too ambitious with what I was trying to achieve for this interview. At the end though, i ACTUALLY finished on schedule (surprisingly) and i personally thought i did an amazing job given the amount of time i had and the shitty slow old laptop i was using.

For anyone that cares- the interview went amazing. I hope i dont jinx myself by saying this but i am SO confident that i made the short-list for round 2. Okay maybe i shouldnt have said that because now i dont feel so confident no more after i typed it out. ah fakerys.

Moving on.

The other evening was also the night of the advanced screening of Something Borrowed that i won tix to (remember?!?!). The movie itself was absolutely fantastic. I LOVED it. Every minute. I loved it so so much i'm actually going to watch it again with K this week. As mentioned before, i am so in love with John Krasinski. After watching the movie i am even MORE in love with him. It is definitely time to download all seasons of the Office. And of course at the end of the movie, C and I managed to take a picture with the main actor. I'm totally taking this experience as practice to when i actually meet one of my Arsenal boys and i won't fan girl the fuck out in front of them. Thumbs Up and Big Grins.

Now, some quick point-form thoughts-

• E.I - So i've been informed that i will be not receiving employment insurance benefits as i thought i would be. This kind of spoils the summer in a way where i won't be able to patio as much, go out as much, go on certain camping trips and road trips, and obvs no new summer wardrobe. That said im hoping, hoping to be hired sooooon because i can't support this lifestyle of mine for very long on the savings i have. Wish me good luck kiddies.
• Beastmode- Since i'm unemployed and the gym is STILL taking money from my acct every month, i'm trying really hard to get fit and down to how i was last summer. I discovered the other week that i actually gained TEN pounds since December. Very, VERY bad. So beast mode totally on. That said, i think i am in the best shape i've ever been (not as good as last summer but close enough) health-wise. Like i've said many times before, i'm fueled by negative energy when i work out. Hence why i look like i am going to kill someone when im at the gym. I don't like people being in my way. I think that's the competitive nature side of me. I'm quite a competitive and jealous person by nature.
• HARRY POTTER- Had to add this. The trailer for the 2nd part of the 7th book aka 8th movie came out and as always- EPIC. EFFING EPIC. Watch watch watch.
• Osama Bin Laden's Death- For everyone's whos celebrating, i dont really think there's that much to celebrate for. I mean, even though the man is dead- his ideas and legacy isn't. And my thought was confirmed when Al Queda sent out that "chilling threat" on their website. Something along the lines of "Americans blood will mingle with our tears.....his death will be a curse to you americans and your agents......" x lovely. now they're upset. Definitely not something worth celebrating over, no?

Ok i've delayed with other work and posting this long enough.

Sorry kids if ive become boring.

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Beer on the go? That's some legit shit!!!
Project by Russian design student Ivan Maximov

Absolutely brilliant.

i need a beer.or six.

I'M STILL EXHAUSTED AS FAKKK.
IS THERE A WORD THAT DESCRIBES "BEYOND EXHAUSTION"?!?!?
STILLLLLLLLL CRANKING THAT WHEEL. 

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I NEED ONE RIGHT NOW. DESPERATELY.

AND A MASSAGE. 

I REALLY NEED A MASSAGE. I THINK I STRAINED SOMETHING IN MY NECK.

I DON'T KNOW WHY I AM TYPING IN CAPS AND BOLD.

MAYBE THE EXHAUSTION IS MAKING ME A BIT INSANE. I MEAN, I HAVEEEEEE BEEN WORKING AND STARING AT THE ARTIFICIAL LAPTOP SCREEN FOR THE PAST 16 HOURS. I THINK THIS WOULD DO SOMETHING TO YOUR MENTAL WELL-BEING.

[[ WHO SPENDS AN HOUR ON CUSTOM ANIMATIONS FOR ONEEEEE PRESENTATION SLIDE?!?!!? BETTER BE VG'S FUTURE PPT SPECIALIST AKA. ME. EFFING ME!!!!! ]]
 

OH AND DON'T FORGET MY POOOOR NECKKKKK.

Go donate dammmnit.

I was going to go on mindlessly blogging about my life when A bbm-ed me to tell me that she heard that a Tsunami was suppose to hit Japan in (a then) 15 minutes. I really don't remember what my reaction was except that i felt horror for the people. Like, if you KNEW this was coming at you.....where can you run? Who are you going to warn? Does the people even know? Because i'm sure INTERNET/TV/PHONES are down. While the rest of the world knows EXACTLY WHEN and WHERE disaster is going to hit and the # of people in other parts of the world cannot do a single damn thing for these people. It's like knowingly having the knowledge of when one is going to die yet we can't do anything to help them. That's how i feel right now.

Um, i'm not one to be personally attached to these type of natural disasters (i.e. Hurricane Katrina, Haiti, China Earthquake a year ago). It's extremely unfortunate, its extremely devastating, tragic- the list goes on. I know, i get it. I may sound extremely insensitive but what good will it do if i cried with everyone else. It's not that i don't care but I believe in taking action and the best action is to donate money for relief and to help them prepare for the future (whether its to stay alive in current conditions or to rebuild the country). Because i am pretty atheist therefore i will probably get shot for saying this but - praying won't help those citizens have food in their stomach, shelter over their heads, a warm blanket on their shoulder. Sure you may pray for the natural disasters to stop "coming" but directly for the "people", its not gonna do crap. I'm not a hypocrite either, i DID donate money and i plan to donate more. To me it's just one less drinking night, one less dress, one less poutine. I will survive, i don't know about the Japanese at a time like this. If you really DO care, you would do something about it and not just say you do. But that's me just saying.

{ADD-ON after talking to someone that pissed me off:
As SOME of you may know. I don't really like the Japanese. Mainly because of what they did to China in World War II. I'm not exactly sure if anyone has really heard or know about this part of history, but this period of time where China went through the worst, unimaginable sufferings (BECAUSE of the Japanese) was called, The Nanking Massacre (Nanjing Massacre) or the Rape of Nanking. It's exactly what it sounds like, mass murder and war rape that occurred during what was a 6 week period. (From wikipedia- During this period, 200,000+ Chinese civilians and disarmed soldiers were murdered and 20,000–80,000 women were raped by soldiers of the Imperial Japanese Army.) I absolutely REFUSE to go into history details because this is NOT the time to. I've watched documentary's (sickening) on this and read up on this and put it this way- i was pissed at Japanese people for weeks. Many, many fucking weeks. So if even i am willing to donate to help them, that's saying A LOT. So all you fucks can leave me alone about me being "insensitive" and not caring and how i shouldn't say that praying won't do anything. It's MY opinion and I don't see you effing donating now do i? SCREW YOU. UGH. Way to kill my mood.}

I leave you guys with some images which i found that completely killed me. Yeah, as if the videos and images of the rushing, gushing, dangerous dark waters coming at you and moving huge cargo ships across the highway is not enough for me. Again, i know, the insensitive-ness, i don't know why.

The magnitude of the damage is....horrific. A country, drowning. LITERALLY.
I got the images from here. Should go see more. 

Pictures of children hits me.....really hard. I love kids and seeing them scared and confused kills me.

Evacuation and keeping the kids warm.....poor lil things......

Credit: here

Suffering Family

Credit: here

To check for radiation.....

Credit: here

And what totally makes my heart cry?

Poor terrified Pananda grabbing onto a policemen's leg after the earthquake.

AND YOU GUYS SHOULD KNOW HOW MUCH I LOVE PANDAS DAMMIT.

............so go donate. 

Superbowl (Boring) Sunday

Funny how i am into totally into English "futbol" yet not remotely interested in American pigskin. Yes i call it that because there is only ONEEE futbol/football in my life, and that's my endearing soccer/futbol. While everyone indulges in amazing, greasy superbowl food - i opted to stay home to clean up my tumblr "like" list (which consisted of 1391 entries), caught up a bit more with The Big Bang Theory, watched a lil FUTBOL earlier in the day anddddd....napped. Haha. When i really should be apply for jobs/customizing my cover letter (as i am right now). I don't understand the HUGE hype with the Superbowl. That said, i don't expect people to understand the HUGE hype behind english league cups. I suppose i should really look at the superbowl as, "the worldcup" or "eurocup" of futbol. That logic makes a lil more sense to me.

im really just rambling. and finding an excuse to type something. forgive my boringness.

Here's a fffound tho!

Pretty awesome eh. Apparently the 1899 one is the one that had cocaine in it? ha.

Lazy

I'm sorry everyone. I've just been SO SO lazy and completely not in blogging mode.

i really do want to type something worth reading though. Hopefully during CNY next week when i am home a bit more.

That said! Exciting next few days!!!! VDAY Date w/ the Lover @ Joeys, Winterlicious w/ the Boys @ Joe Badali's and a drunken Blue Mountain weekend w/ the GCM kids!!!

Oh and my futbol team made it to the finals for one of the competitions they're in - that's pretty huge news for anybody that really cares. hahah

Sorry again for the lack of reads! Maybe l'll load a couple of fffounds.

Quckie

Weeks flying but loving it.

Wish me good luck kids - i REALLY want this job!!!!!!!!!!

Oh ya i got a job interview. HA!

Will update the next time im at SB again!

Plans for Today?

NONE. 

Because i am POOR and need to recover for NYE this Friday.

Therefore i am going to take advantage of this fact and:

• Clean my unbeliveably messy room and to sterilize/sanitize/make it germs-free
• Watch the Catalonia vs Honduras friendly 
• Pray that ManU will lose their game 
• Watch Despicable Me
• Check how much i have spent in the past 2 weeks (something i am absolutely DREADING) and figure out some finance stuff
• Possibly Combat - haven't decided yet. I still feel defeated from last night

Side-note: love LOVE Big Bang Theory. Where have ive been without this show?!?!?! ohmygod i must catch up.

Random

Can someone take the Clamato juice away from me? I'm on my third cup of Caesars in an hour and a half.

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What is FATE?

DEFINITION OF FATE:

a. Something that inevitably befalls a person
b. Ultimate agency by which the order of things is prescribed
c. That which is inevitably predetermined; destiny
d. Prophetic declaration of what must be.

It is clear that these definitions have the following two components. ONE, that future is predetermined. TWO, that there is an agency that does this pre-determination.

ONE— that future is predetermined. This will be adressed here in some detail. Available scientific information will be combined with possiblities based upon such information to consider the likelihood of correctness of this component.

TWO— that there is an agency that does this pre-determination. This will not be discussed. It will be taken as a foregone conclusion. It is obvious that if something is done, there must be someone who has done it. That someone may be called God [Lord, Yehovah, Allah, Ishwar, etc.], Creator, or, even as a yet unknown or understood force or agency. The nature and attributes of that being, God, will not be discussed here.

-writing.com


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SORRY SORRRRRY. I REALLY WAS GONNA BLOG. BUT I CAUGHT UP WITH HOMEWORK INSTEAD!!!! haha

I am going to try really hard and make tomorrow a BLOGGING DAY.

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Sorry i did it again. I promised an entry but yet still nothing and its already 1130pm! I apologize, but i lost all mood when my gunners lost their game today and i went on this crazy drinking binge all by my lonesome self (i know, its SUCH an acolohic thing to do!!!) to numb the pain i felt from the boys loss. La sighs.

ANYWAYS.

I do want to blog soon. About Miami. And everything. But not now because i hafta get ready for bed because of work tomorrow.

Leave you guys with a ffffound.

Pray that i dont lose my data connection tomorrow???