Beast Mode: Spring & Summer Edition

Summer is quickly approaching and i REALLY need to buckle down and freaking get back into my beast mode regime that i started last summer that i sadly, failed to keep up as the winter months approached. I felt i could get away with wearing large shirts and black tights all season. Now the season to wear dresses and no tights is fast approaching thus the need to lose my huge middle area because face it- people judge you no matter what people say.

See. Gerard butler totally judging. lol TRUEEE SAYYYY.

Things to do and change up!

• Gym, gym, gyM
  A no brainer. Start up with weight training again, continue w/ combat, do more cardio inbetween, attend a new class and throw in kickboxing/Muay Thai again.
• Hot Yoga
  Cousin and i were discussing whether this actually helped or not. I was a bit on the fence but she was convinced that it did help with the toning and weight loss last summer. Perhaps its a placebo effect but im sold lol I want to start up again with the cheap classes. lol
• Drink water and green-tea like a fish
  Okay maybe not a fish because i don't know if fishes drink the water they swim in....bahahha. But the idea is there. 
• Eat out MAX, three times a week
  Not only am i noticing myself eating out ALOT, but it's also become expensive too. Since i am on a bit of a budget at the moment, this SHOULD help the wallet and waistline. 
• Drink three times a week
  This is a BIT harder because i drink......almost every other night (AT MOST, NOT EVERY WEEK). The fact that i dont really mind the taste of beer anymore (ewww yucky. i converted. sorta. i knowwwwww. bleh)....doesn't really help the cause. I also drink socially for futbol, dinners, parties and for no reason at all. Right.......so i'm going to try. Wish me good luck on this one. 
• Going to REALLY try it with the veggies this summer....
  Enough said. I should. Before i lose friends because i am such a weirdo.
• When at Starbucks-
• Allowed to have a yummy SB pastry only once a week 
• Allowed to have a relatively creamy-sb drink once every 2 weeks but stick to non-milk beverages. Avoid cream (liquid. Not whip. I've always said no to whip).

Moderation is key! I know i can do this because i did it last summer!!!

On a completely random note:
I am currently debating whether if i should spend a bit of my tax return money on an ipod that has more space (only 2 gigs), sync's (it just stopped one day), locks (because of the next point) and doesn't have a metal piece sticking out of the top (which interfers with where the lock button is). AKA, a new one.

errrrr i don't have 27 songs on the ipod. it's actually just a playlist that has 27 songs for those wondering lol

Absolute fail yo. In my own defense though..........i didddddd have it and used it religiously almost every day for the past 3.5 years. Okay fine, its still a fail. Along with the fact i accidentally swallowed some cleanser as i was washing my face earlier tonight. I'm uber cool aren't i.

zucchini and asparagus

New (but short) week begins! I'm going to attempt to start eating healthy-ishly and bring lunch every single day since ive discovered that i can eat zucchini and asparagus!!!! :)))) (credit ALLLL goes to the cousin)

Package

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I did it. I mailed my broken hair straightener to the manufacturer out in Denton, TEXAS.

I had the option to mail it

A. via Regular Post and it will arrive in 6-10 business days - Cost: $4.56 ish
B. via Expedited Post and it will arrive in about 4-6 days- Cost: $14 ish
C. via Xpresspost Post and it will arrive in 3 days- Cost: $23 bucks ish

With maybe half a hesitation i told him to XPRESS THAT PIECE OF JUNK FOR ME because i need my replacement ASAPPPPPP.

And that's how i spent 23 dollars on a promise that my straightener will be safe and sound on a plane to Texas hopefully as we speak.

Pray that it makes it there quickly and safely please. I'd appreciate it lol : )

Now...the real countdown begins on when i get it back.

Review

Okay straight up. I'm no pro when it comes to make-up. In fact i'm pretty far from it. I simply want to share my opinion on a product that i think is worth blogging about and sharing my experience with it. In no way am i going to start taking pics and being all hardcore (awesome) like xteener, michellephan, iamgrape, etc. Anyways, i thought l'll write a small disclaimer before i proceed onto my "review" of MakeUpForever's Aqua Eye Liner.

I guess most people know that i'm going to to Cuba in April and the first thing i started looking into was water/sweat/weather-proof eyeliner. One thing with me is I absolutely will not go out in public without drawing a dark, thick, curved line on my eyelids. (&& under eye concealer. But i dont want to get into that in this post). I told myself- okay, Concealer or eyeliner. I gotta ditch one and can't wear both to the beach. I decided that i needed the liner more because i didnt want to have any sort of "cover up" on my skin that will be fried by the sun.

I soon realized I had a problem at hand because i will be entering a country that is practically a sauna and most of the eyeliner i use are not exactly err smudge or waterproof. (I use only gel liners and pencil during workouts.....Yeah see what i mean. Who the hell wears liner when they workout!?!?). Now seeing how i don't go out in public without liner, but i dont want to look like an emo goth girl on the beach either.....it doesnt work out very well for me because i am not paying almost a grand to stay indoors (which will probably be just as hot and my sweat will melt the liner!!!). I also refuse to spend 30ish bucks on the GEISHA brand liquid pen liner that my cousin bought because i'm poor- though it would have been the most ideal product to use because shes gone swimming in it (i think ha ha) and it stayed onnnnnn. Anyways after my readings of 10 billion reviews online, i went ahead and bought MakeUpForever's Aqua Eye Liner in Light Brown.

 I decided on brown instead of my usual dark, granite black because i wanted something more natural looking for the beach but i kind of contradict myself because there's really nothing natural about wearing makeup....on the beach. haha So after buying it, i thought to myself how was i going to figure out whether its CUBA-PROOF before im actually in Cuba.

That's when my brilliant mind told me to wear it to Hot Yoga last night. =D

I put it on an hour before heading out to the studio and then went through about an hour-ish of Hot Yoga before coming home to check whether it stayed on. During that hour, i sweated more than a pig, i drenched my undergarments and clothes (you know that you've insanely sweated when you wore a black tank and when upon taking it off you notice its one shade darker), and i also wiped my face with a towel (deliberately wiping directly around the eye area) several times during the hour. Since this isn't a pro review, i'm not going to upload any actual photographs. i thought illustrations will do just as good of a job showing the before and after.

As you can see, before hot yoga the color was like a light-ish brown. After all the sweat and heat, i noticed that it simply faded to a even lighter brown and the curve and line was still in-tact. I couldn't really tell if it "smudged" under my eye or in the crease because it was so light that it might have blended in with my skin (my eye area is much darker than other areas of my face). That or it actually didn't smudge at all. I wouldn't know unless i try it out with a black or bright blue/purple color.

All in all, this eyeliner COMPLETELY exceeds my expectations of a heat-enduring and sweat-proof product and i REALLLLY wanted to share that. As i mentioned before my main concern was smudging and to me i didnt notice any. To me this is 80% Cuba-proof and was such a great purchase. I think i'm actually going to go buy the black colored one now because it glides on so nicely and i can use it as a "grab and draw" on the go liner when im in a rush instead of taking my sweet ass time finding my fluidline and its accompanying angle liner brush. I think it'll be a great lower-eye liner too since they don't recommend using gel/liquid for lowerlash line drawings.

That said though, there probably will be variations and hits & misses because according to twin, this doesnt work for her but liquid liner stays on like a tattoo...soo its hard to say for each person.

Today i put it on and putting it to a test again and see if it can last a 8 hour work day and also a session at the gym. We'll see how that goes but i doubt there will be any surprises.

Yay! i lurve finding new workable makeup! =D

Machine Gun Typing Update

Hot Yoga

I tried it again with the cousin last Friday. This time i was smart and took a "Karma" class (these are the $5 dollars/donation classes) versus the normal 17dollars class that pretty much tainted my first impression of hot yoga (can be read here). This time around the instructor was much more funnier, friendlier and helpful than the bitch we had last time. I suppose gay men are a lot friendlier than petite Asian chicks. I also don't know if it might be the fact that ive been working out my arms a lot more and it could have contributed to the "ease"-ness of this experience........

Either way my mind is still pretty set on the fact that we had a shitty instructor the first time around though. Now that i'm pro-hot yoga (i wasn't angry when i went to sleep that night!)!! I definitely want to incorporate it into my "fitness" lifestyle at least once a week so the heat can melt away the fatttttt in time for my trip!

Dominican Trip

That said- i am finally going on my first out of the continent trip in approximately 2 months-ish with a bunch of girls whom ive known for half a decade. Plans so far is doing the oh-so-popular all inclusive trip to the Dominican Republic for a week. It is going to be so effing awesome because it means dressing up and drinking every night. Both activities i enjoy very, VERY much. I'm also hoping MY COUSIN (u broke mine and K's heart by DECLINING THE INVITE SO QUICKLY sobs.) will come join because it would be even more fabulous if she did. Also its an OPEN INVITATION to the other girls (Katie, Re & Lil) if MizTran is able to (find time and money haha) come!!!!! Honestly if you girls can come, words cannot describe how unbelievably EPIC this can be. Ahhhh. lol The mister said he'll sponsor me if i want but i dont have the heart to ask me to buy me more clothes when now looking at it i actually have a lot more than i need. His sponsorship will probably go towards paying for Phone Cards since that's one of the conditions the mommy laid out. I would probably have to call home almost every day to let her know that i haven't been eaten by a shark or mugged by the locals. I am tres tres excited because the last time i went on a trip with K and S, the trip was fcuking AWESOME and that was within the province so i can only imagine how awesome this will be. Also its my 2nd time on the plane. PWAHHAH #NOOBFAIL. No further comments to that haha.

The only things that are in my way is:

• the Rat (might not let me take that many days off) APPROVED
  
• My (lack of) passport status
• Fat body (meaning Gym time is gonna have to be intense for the next 2 months so i can achieve that no-rolls belly)...kinda not really in my way cause l'll still GO.

My budget for this trip is $1200 bucks. That's including pre-shopping, trip fee (plane & accomendations & food), entertainment, passport fee and other necessities.  I am absolutely determined to stay under....wish me goodluck! lol More updates on the trip later!

Chinese New Years & Valentines Day

Chinese New Years is fast approaching and i always feel extra festive when it does. Its probably an AZN PRYDE thing. Hopefully the food wont overwhelm me and make me gain weight. Going to spend time with the family and then im actually allowed to spend VDAY with the mister...surprisingly. Its going to be a funnnnn weekend. =]]] <3 I'm also hoping i get my requested day off, to do all my errands and make it a FOUR day weekend lol

My DIY gift to the mister is slowly making progress. I'm waiting on my manager to obtain the essential "material" for me. Now if she fails, then i fail too and i am gonna end up with a failed DIY project and he'll end up with no Vday gift.

dot dot dot dot

dear god i cross my fingers and toes and hope she doesnt forget haha

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Why are people so damn innovative??? After all these years with being partially handicapped when it comes to opening the damn packets, they've finally found a way to make me not look so stupid!!!!! Wahahaha.

Fourth Attempt @ Avatar in IMAX 3D

Heading says it all lol I think the mister and i are going to attempt it again tomorrow evening. Come on, who goes to the movies on Wednesday nights at 10:30.....aside from us. haha so lets all hope that we are able to see it even though I will probably be mad tired the next day. He has openly volunteered to drive me to work the next day (by staying over at my place) so i can sleep in for an hour more. Very sweet of him, i think l'll take him up on that offer.

ARGHHH I HOPE WE GET TO SEEE ITTTTTTT.



DONE AND DONE. !! Must do work now.

im boring

Does anyone else find me boring nowadays?

Anyways, saw these! && wondered why i didnt pursue Fashion Communications.....and why im not rich and pretty. SIGHS.

Valentino Spring 2010

Emilio Pucci ready-to-wear spring summer 2010

Purdy isnt it? Makes me want to shop (Zara = huge sale = me going crazy) !!!  Suddenly my new favorite store is Zara......on sale. Nonetheless their stuff is stylish but not so Forever21 price range for me lol Maybe its just me but i haven't seen any of Zara's Headband collection in their stores? Or is it just a States (argh no fair) thing? I'm lacking headbands (like how im lacking scarves....).

On another note, I REALLLLLLLLLY need to get a move on my much delayed/procrastinated Room Reno that I declared back in July09 (ish). I mean, even lx is starting up with his and we havnt even finished with mine. Argh argh! Things i NEED to accomplish:

• Go grab the wardrobe from K!!!!!
• Wallpaper my closet door
• Buy fabric for my DIY projects (for the room & K's belated Christmas Present)
• Patterned Wrapping Paper/Stock to cover bookends
• Buy: Bookends, file storage, binders, large black stylish storage boxes, large laundry hamper, wooden clothes hangers, bed/bomforter linen
  
• Paint Room (the minute its warm enough to keep windows open all night)

I feel like i am repeating this list over and over again with nothing crossed off.

& it is probably the case too. =___=*

Anywaysssss. I'm so so looking forward to the weekend! Like i mentioned before double Winterlicious!! @ Fred's Not Here & Oliver and Bonacinii because we are poor but want relatively decent lunch food. Its just gonna suck a tiny bit because of the super cold wave that's coming this weekend which means i'll have to bundle up and not allowed to look pretty because little bundled up eskimos aren't pretty.

I'm also feeling lucky. Maybe the mister and i should try Avatar IMAX again? haha

best 10 dollars EVER spent.

on Matte Nail Polish. Dark, sexy Russian Navy Blue ; ))))))

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!

Will blog soon with pictures!

Oink

I've been at it like a pig for the past 3 months. I've totally wasted three months worth of gym membership when i had to continue paying even though im not actually going. Gah. Ninty-ish dollars gone. Let's hope starting next week i can get back into it. Feeling like poo, physically. My chub is exploding again. I really should do something about it instead of just whining.

Anyways it started to snow today and i was in a way kind of happy because this means the Christmas spirit in me is coming back soon!!! Even with the Eaton Centre decorated with its Swarovski Tree and Starbucks and their Red Cups, I am not even close to feeling the Christmas spirit. I completely forgot that the Cavalcade of Lights existed and didnt even realize it until GlobalTv did a feature. I felt rather numb watching the pretty fireworks go at it at Nathan Phillip Square when normally i would feel all warm and bubbly when i see pretty lights and fireworks...it was actually really depressing lol. Hopefully, i can see the boys on Saturday for our overdue date and then sneak in skating with the mister at night to bring some Christmas cheer back into our lives lol I also have to start Christmas shopping for the family, Lx's family and close friends. I crossed the biggest one off my list today (being no-good) and that's always a good thing because i always stress about what to get him every year.

Also praying that the MINUS degrees weather isnt going to hit before my new jacket comes from BC!!!!!! I havnt bought anything BIG in a long time so this is reallly exciting for me. lol I am also going to conclude that there is absolutely no UGGs in my future because the only ones i want have officially been discontinued and i have no desire in wanting any others. I must find a different way to keep my feet warm. lol And can someone pwleaseeeeeee let me know when pretty bedsheets go on sale? I'm having no luck with these : ((

I foresee in the near future.....

• A really big reno job in both my room and Karyn's haha
• A trip to the dermatologist
• Possibly two secret santa's
• Skating @ Nathan Phillip Square
• Three months over-due Movie/Starbucks Date with the Boys
• Dinner with the Cousin
• Gossip Girl & House Catch-Up Drama Night
  
• Annual Christmas Cookie Baking for the Mister

Ok suddenly this turns into a random word vomit because my blogging mode switched on. Since ive gone past my bedtime im going to have to cut short and cheat with point-form.

• Songs on Repeat: Lady Gaga- Bad Romance and Jason Derulo- Whatcha Say. Both were heavily influenced by Gossip Girl.
• The Victoria Secret Fashion Show was pretty good this year minus that whole reality-hunt-for-the-next VS Angel thing. i really despise the winner, she was cocky and couldnt walk but thats just my opinion. i lovee lovee the Black Eye Peas and Fergie's thunder thighs. i really didnt like their song Meet me Halfway at first but again, under the influence of hot half-naked chicks that song is on repeat too. 
• Obsessed with organizing/labeling/filtering/categorizing my e-mails in GMAIL. i really do have some sort of OCD (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder). 
• I find myself getting my nails done every 2-3 weeks or so. It is the most princess-thing i can do but there's honestly something about having someone shape and buff your nails for you that's just so satisfying....even though i technically can do it myself. I think its one of those things i would skimp out on a lunch just to save enough to go to a nail bar/salon. 
  
• Matte Nail Polish: you are mine soon.  
• Last night i dreamt i was part of the TWILIGHT/NEW MOON/ECLIPSE movie and i was with the "Wolf" Gang (sadly Taylor Lautner was NOT in my dream) but regardless the wolf guys were REALLLLLY sexy in my dream hahaha. ^______^
  
• Have a new found love for Vitamin Water. I downed a whole bottle and a half tonight. It was delicious. I kept on wanting more. I dont know if this is normal.
• Met up with the kids this past weekend and gamed it up til 4:30am. I was completely dead the next day.
• Successfully planned another Birthday Surprise that worked out beautifully. I still haven't lost my touch : ) It reminded me of why im always the planner for events. Seeing people happy made the stress completely worth it at the end. 
• Twin tried hot yoga for the first time yesterday and reported it back to me on a one on one basis and basically: I AM SOLD. J and/or Cousin, we must go soon. lol
  
• i heart mister. he makes me laugh.
  

GOODNIGGTHS. . 

Victoria Secret Christmas Fashion Show

Every year I torture myself by watching the Victoria Secret Fashion show in December. I always look forward to it because it always means Christmas is around the corner and also, there is something so satisfying about watching those girls walk the runway with their cleavage and buttocks swinging by in those gorgeous shows. heh. The best show to date is the year they had J.Timberlake as guest performer!!!! I thought the show that year was unbelievably hotttttt. i hope this year they got Lady gaga or someone like her to guest perform!!!! Btw. I am so Team "Alessandra Ambrosio". The girl is HAWT. I hope shes still in the show this year and hasn't retired like Giselle.

I hope I don't miss it tonight! Tonight is date night with mister.

Catch-Up

I feel like i havnt really "blogged" in weeks, due to the past 2 weeks being horribly stressful and mentally/physically exhausting. I worked over 75 hours (didnt make 100! but sure feels like it) in the past 2 weeks on coordinating and setting up my company's 10ftx25ft booth at Graphics Canada (Canada's largest Printing and Graphic Arts Trade Show). Along with that, i was in charge of creating, branding and designing my company's "new" product's corporate image and its accompanying literature that needed to be printed for the show. That said, i pretty much solo-ed everything and was in sweats, hoodies and runners for 2 weeks everyday at the office.

Thank god its all over now thus the need to catch-up on blogging.

Everyone pretty much know about how stressed and tired i was and i just commented on that so theres no need to go on anymore in risk of repeating myself. Graphics Canada 09, the mother of all trade shows that occur every 2 year officially marked its end yesterday at 4pm. As much as i bitched and complained about the WORK involved in making the show a success, i honestly loved and was excited to be part of it this year. I love Print as much as i say i hate it. I think what made it really successful to me, was the fact that i got to see old classmates and also the family when they came by. Yesterday, the mister and almost everyone in the fam dropped by and pretty much hung around my booth for a good hour. I think that to me was the best part of my 3 days at the show. I havnt seen the kids in so so long and seeing them yesterday made me realize (again) how much i miss them and how much we must work at staying in touch because what we have is a fortunate blessing. It was also really nice to see the mister, all this working has made phone time and going out time very limited if not non-existing. He really didn't have to come because he wants to derive away from Print (haha) but he did anyways and wore an embarrassing visitors badge that had a silly made-up company name i made up for him. haha The fam and i then all drove 20 minutes to the west and had Goat while FB-ing and comparing pics of hot girls from GCM, it was so completely random but so completely us. Hope to see everyone very very soooooooon. =]

Oh yeah im goin back to GCM to be a "guest" lecturer on Tuesday..... Isnt that hilarious? Im going back as one of the people i use to hate listening to a year ago. lol sighs, oh the irony!

Moving on. i received my first official birthday cake last night and its my first since...2nd year when the girls surprised me with a McCain chocolate cake in the lab lol all thanks to Karyn. You're amazing my dear, it was so thoughtful and i was seriously SO surprised, i thought the 2nd box had "ET"'s body and was an extension of his head haha thank u again and lots of lurve =]

Btw, i dont like celebrating my birthday hence the lack of thoughts on it.

Today was suppose to go dress shopping with the cousin but i was forced to stay home to do budgeting and activity logging for 3 months worth of work. It was a complete fail. I did it for like...40 minutes and somehow ended up on my bed and was knocked out until dinner time. I'm sorry about bailing out so last minute! i hope u found your dress though.

On the subject of dresses and shopping, i was lucky (well not really sure if its considered "lucky" lol) and was able to hit CB&UB for their 50% family&friends sale at the mall yesterday morning while waiting for my manager to come get me. Holyshit did i do damage on my visa. I bought the most GORGEOUS dress in the world. Its soooo gorgeous and it reminds me of something Serena (from Gossip Girl) would wear. Midnight blue, rhinestones, one shoulder. I wish Syl's wedding is next month because i want to wear it RIGHT AWAY. HEART HEART HEART. Also with that, a dashinggggggggg fire red one shoulder (again with the one shoulder) with a crazy drape-like side. Erm, the only problem with these dresses is i can't really wear them right now because my body isn't exactly catered to the dresses but i bought them anyways because i feel like i can work on my body to fit into these dresses. It also means even though i have new dresses, its equivalent to not having any new dresses in the first place because i can't wear them out right away. I know, i don't know why i do that either. I am still dress-less for the upcoming few events i've "Accepted" to. Big Boourns.

Ah, i guess thats it.

Now, catching up with Gossip Girl and dreading the work week =[

OH OH, and NEW MOON in five days. I am SOOOO excited. Jacob Black..i am ready for you. pwahahhaha

the most wonderful time of the year

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Yes, Starbuck's Red Cups are back!!!!!
&& that also means the pastry that ive been waiting for oh so patiently all year has returned!!!!! 3 words: Cranberry. Bliss, Bars. ^_____^ I don't know why but Starbucks during Christmas means a great deal to me. A gloomy cold day can be cheered up and warmed up by some heavenly goodness in the red cup. I heart so so much. Can't wait to head over to a SB with lx.

Anyways, thanks everyone for all the birthday wishes and gifts! Yes, i totally suck for not doing anything (again) this year. I'm just a big emo-burger when it comes to celebrating my birthday. I'd honestly rather go, dress up, by a new dress and celebrate other's birthdays : )

However i do foresee the following for the month of November:
- a much overdue movie/dinner/starbucks combo session with the boys
- ET's Hot Pot Dinner
- Graphics Canada
- Ernie's Birthday Event
- My Italian dinner date with K
- Drinks&Music with the Girls for my Birthday
- Cousin's Annual Spectacular Birthday
- virtually no gymming = more weight gain
- lots of money spending : (

I am completely restraining myself from spending money. It's really hard because i have this new princess-complex where i can't wear the same dress twice if the clubbing/party/dinner event has cameras (which is 100% of the time b/c im the camera keeper) and i have like four of those to go to this month......Yes. i completely agree how terribly rotten i am. I have no conclusion to this thought aside from that lol

I do however am craving for a new messenger-like bag to carry my laptop. I've been bringing my laptop to work and it sits so uncomfortably in my current bags during my 20minute travel (haha) and i fear the discomfort will kill me when it snows. I've been eyeing this white vintage-style adidas bag and i can get it for 35% off (because VisaPerks! ^^) which comes out to $49.48 (incld. shipping&taxes..) versus it being 59.99 in stores. Shall i? It would look great with the new winter jacket, glasses and uggs i plan to purchase come-winter?

Hmmm i sound so much like a spoiled princess that needs her shopping-fix, in the past 2 paragraphs. :S



i swear im not.



bye!

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Pretty Picture of the day ( via Source )

Actually more like, pretty girl of the day. Notice the hot voluminous hair, perfect hollow cheekbones, slender neck, mole above lip, big pretty smokey eyes. Sighs. lol.

double fffound

D&G Dolce&Gabbana Black Lace Bow Peeptoe Pumps
1950's glamour, 4.5" Black patent peeptoe with cream satin and black lace bow detail.

Happiness for only $470 CND!


And on the subject of shoes and shopping:

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Christina Aguilera's actual closet. Messed! That's ridiculously hot. She's ridiculously hot in that outfit too. Her kid kind of looks neglected there though. With all those shoes you would think she can afford some pants for her baby lol

This is what i do when i'm sad- look at other people's rich lives and expensive sexy shoes lol

October

Hmm, i know i've already posted twice today already (about twilight ^^) but suddenly my blogging mode switched on and because work tomorrow (frowns and sobs) is going to be stressful and frustrating i probably won't have anytime to blog from work like i normally do which is why i'm going to start word vomiting right now

It's Thanksgiving Monday and my family attempted to be festive but failed miserably and we ended up with salty turkey. I don't know why but the entire day i was really bitter and grouchy and i feel terrible for it, but every little thing somehow managed to annoy the crap out of me. I feel sorry for acting out this way, i guess i should try to make it up on another day. I blame the weather, for being so crappy and gloomy. & Rainy for the rest of the week. I can already foreshadow how grouchy l'll be for the coming week.

It's already the middle of October and i've been really disappointed up to this point so far. My life has been put on hold for almost two weeks because of this rash i got. I missed Nuit Blanche which to me was one of the bigger disappointments (again, will blog about that later), canceled several outings including my nails evening with C. Stopped gyming in fear my swollen face and neck would alarm people. I''ve gone to work with icepacks (3x) and replace them bi-hourly to ease the itch and my days and nights has gone by with an icepack to my neck, face and hands.

The only GOOD i can see that came from this rash, is a second chance at beautiful skin!! Haha as corny as that sounds, lx and i found the rash might have killed all the acne on my face and under advice from the dermatologist, my face is on its way to clear skin!!!!

Yes, the only good thing and now back to bad things.

Work has definitely gotten much more stressful and i dread going to work tomorrow to face the pile of codes i have to understand and sort through. Its been almost half a year since i've started to work here and i think it has gotten to a point where i'm so sick of being unappreciated and most importantly, being overworked and not being compensated for it. I can deal with the non-appreciative part, but the not being compensated (in wage or benefits) for my work has really begun to bother me. I'll leave it at that.

Anyways, i'm looking foward to the rest of October and hope only good things come out of it. My 30 month with LX next week (we're not celebrating it, i just like bringing it up lol), S's engagement dinner, L & LX's Bday and most importantly, Halloween. =D

My nails also need to grow faster b/c i have been manicure-deprived. On the subject of nails, i am waiting patiently for the new month to come so i can buy either that new MATTE nail polish @ Sephora or Dry Martini from Mac. I told myself that i'm only allowed one new color per month and since i used up this month's quota for Sephora's Dark Room (It's suppose to be dark Green but it actually looks black. I was very disappointed because i don't want another black polish and wished i bought Mac's Beyond Jealous instead), I'm not allowed to get anything else until November.

Moving onto shopping. I have told myself that i must really stop buying little things immediately because i need to save up for four larger purchases.

1. Insurance/Driving School
   I've come to realization that i only have 2 years to get my G and i am royally fukked hence the need to speed up the process and pray that it will come easy to me. I've been procrastinating since 2007 lol
   
2. Passport
   I have all my forms filled, i just need to go take that photo and head over to the passport office @ STC to get this over with lol This too, I've been procrastinating since 2007.
3. Winter Jacket
   Whether it be a TNA Jacket, a CND Goose, or some other brand one. I really would like to have a new one. I told myself since year 3, my graduate year WILL be the year i get a TNA jacket but i'm very hesitant because this year for some lame reason they only have the jackets made in Black, and i think either Brown or Green. All of which is not what i wanted because my heart was set out on purchasing the dark Navy blue one, and my second choice would have been the gray. Now since both my first (kind of my only choice) and second (passable) choice are not even MADE this year, i really don't want to even get it because everyone has the black one and the other two colors don't appeal to me. Thinking back, the one jacket i am literally HUNTING for is this gorgeous Zoo York one that i saw back in 07. Think TNA jacket but dark navy blue and red plaided-insides. Absolutely gorgeous and unfortunately i let that one slip by for only $225-ish. That's my winter jacket tale. 
4. New Glasses
   Fairly straight-forward, i'm tired of my current D&G ones, they've been horribly scratched up, abused and bent by me and i want to discard them for a pair of black Roberto Cavailli's that i've seen once make a special appearance on Sex & the City. i doubt l can find the same ones but l'll settle for anything similar.
5. MAYBE MAYBE- Uggs
   Alright i know the mister AND my cousin are intensely against me buying it (lol) and becoming a bear but i noticed the three boots i bought during my little insane spree are not really....erm warm and comfortable per say.... I know i totally deserve losing a toe or two for spending so much money on 3 pairs of Gossip Girl-like styled boots but i really need something comfortable for work......which is where Uggs come in!!!!! A pair of Classic Mini's in either Chestnut or Chocolate isn't asking for too much.....!!??? This of course is not a priority,which would let me of the hook for a bit.

That summarizes up the four (and one maybe) large purchases that i want to make and it's definitely going to be costly and be paid entirely by only yours truly. Yes even the glasses because i have no benefits!!!!!!!! Sighs.

Ah, i think i might have wanted to type more but its 10pm and i need sleep to face the day tomorrow. No Body Pump for me tmr because i pretty certain i'm staying late again.

Maybe l'll walk that extra 20 minutes to get myself a Starbucks tmr. Hmmmmmmmmmmm

Day6: Life with a Hair Straightener

I picked up a Hair Straighter at some Beauty Supply Store by the misters this weekend and to my surprise i didn't spend as much as i thought i was going to. Anyways, l'll like to express (here, i already expressed my feelings on twitter) how surprised i am..actually more like shock, on how i was able to go through life without a hair straightener. Seriously guys, i thought we were friends? Why'd you people let me live life with bush-like hair? haha Shame on all of you. Honestly i am still in disbelief how different my hair looks once its straightened. It seriously is one of the greatest invention EVER (@ what jennut's tweet said lol) Also as twin once said to me (and she is always, ALWAYS righ)

"...do it (buy the straightener). It will change your life. Like how Harry Potter and Twilight did."

YES! INDEED! I no longer look like a lion!!!!


Moving on.
Hmmm I havn't word vomited in a while, so here goes all my randomness.

I actually wrote this entry a couple of days ago but didn't get a chance to complete it so some of the material is pretty old and lame. The most exciting recent news is i broke out in nasty red rashes all over my face. I'm not exaggerating about my face being very red, bumpy, swollen and itchy all over (even on my eyelids) and has kind of spread onto my neck. I'm currently typing with an cold compressor pack thing on my face. sobs. Not good at all. I went to work today with a cap on and my scarf shielding my face completely (only my eyes showed). I wish i took a picture of the bus driver man's face when i first got on the bus. It was so priceless because his face expression changed so fast in matters of seconds!! I'm sure he was scared (that i might bomb the bus), curious (what is this girl trying to hide) and freaked (because i might also be carrying the H1N1 virus). I think i'm gonna dress the same way tmr night, i hope i don't scare people at Nuit Blanche.

Next! A large congrats to S on her engagement!!!!! I'm glad shes allowing me the great pleasure to help you create your engagement dinner invites and letting me use my "expertise" in finding you a printer lol that is indeed what i am good for. Four years of GCM is NOT going to waste!!!! Weddings + Printing = Me, a Happy Panda. Yay! She's my first friend that's getting married, and alrwdy, its so so different from a RELATIVE getting married. K and i are having a blast already with our bbm pre-proposal, post-proposal and pre-wedding chats. haha <3 Cannot wait for the engagement dinnnah coming up very soooon.

On other side notes, i was reading up on some gossip-related news and found out that the show, Jon and Kate plus 8 will no longer be called that but changing to "Kate plus Eight". Hmmm. How very weird. I wonder are they going to make the kids say "NOW HERE'S A NEW EPISODE OF KATE PLUS EIGHT"......i can imagine it being awkward already since typing it was already pretty strange lol that would be pretty sad if they said that. I'm sure the babies will question where did daddy Jon go and then grow up blaming themselves for their daddy's departure when its really daddy douchebag's fault and i'm not going to get into that heh.

AND AND on Gossip Girl, they announced recently that Kevin Zegers is going to be on a "cycle" of episodes. To those who don't know who he is, he's this really hot guy who looks like Chase Crawford and Leonardo DiCaprio (the titanic days) combined into one. I am tres tres excited that such delicious eye candy will be joining an already exciting cast. HHEHEHE

Ok i wanted to a lot type more but my face is irritating me so must stop here and probably head to bed


again, excuse the broken english. i really should put more effort into my typing.



In the near future i foresee:
- a trip to the dermatologist
- an engagement dinner @ baton rouge
- a pedicure date with C @ 10spot
- a rush at work
- more time spent at the gym
- a movie (maybe), dinner, starbucks session with the boys
- 30month anniversary with the mister

Jumble of Thoughts

This picture makes me feel so so sad.

Maybe because long hair means a lot to me and I currently miss mine terribly. (God what was i thinking when i cut the four inches long. Did i forget how freaking long it takes for my hair to grow?! Gahhhhh) OR because there's like a couple of thousand things going through my mind and i just want to go body combat all of it out of my head. Since my thoughts aren't exactly too organized right now, l'll start type-jotting things again.

So why are there a couple of thousand things going through my mind right now. Last night the mister left my place well after midnight (and that's REALLY late b/c i'm normally in my bed and under my covers by 10:30pm) because we spent the night talking (about pretty much everything) and he left me with a lot of questions and a lot of things to think about.

That's the thing i absolutely love about Lx, is his objective perspective. There's that saying/quote or whatever that says "You should think outside of the Box"- i personally feel that he is able to do everything that quote asks for and more. I find its very hard to take a step back and be objective when there are a million monkeys (metaphorically speaking) surrounding you with chatter and as a result you become trapped in this so called "box". I am glad he is able to step out of that. That said, being someone that thinks with their mind but act on their heart, it's very hard for me to be objective when 101% of the time i am influenced by my emotions or the emotions of others (and how they would feel if i make a certain decision). Having him explain and share his perspective not only helps me become stronger (if not immediately) but also makes me consider a lot of things, which brings me to present-day and my essay-like typing for the past twenty minutes.

Sorry to bore. That's the end of that rant.

Next. I love the gym, it makes me feel wonderful but i'm not seeing results and its discouraging me. It kind of sucks because my main motivation was to look fantastic for Halloween (notice i said Halloween and not my birthday. I love Halloween way more than my own birth-day so lets not disappoint the dork this year!)

And this ice coffee isn't perking me up either.

I need a higher paying job too.

& a hair straightener. Yeah. I got my hair trimmed with twin last weekend @ a small Korean place and the results was fantastic. Straightened, thinned, styled, 20 bucks!!! I heart. But it becomes a bush again after a wash so all that is kind of useless if i go back looking like Aslan the lion. Any suggestions on where and what brand/kind i should get since im kinda a hair-straightener noob? i will luv you forever and thanks.

I still need to go stalk the other BMV locations. Alice in Wonderland is really dry.

OMG it just hit me. I just had a total EUREKA moment. I know EXACTLY what i can get Tall Jenn for her Birthday and she would absolutely LOVE IT. My only dilemma is, i HAVE to go to Urban Outfitters ASAP before it sold out. My vague memory reminds me i only saw two left at the store and its sold out all over America and apparently Vancouver. SHit shit shit shit.

Oh and this made me feel uber great:


That's my popularity at its all time highest over at Tumblr. I feel special. ('Mind you that its normally at ZERO). Yeah...i should stop spending time on the internet and do some REAL LIFE EXCITING ACTIVITIES!!!! Note: the sarcasm.

Nuit Blanche next week! I am tres excited because i consider the free 'contemporary arts night' to be something special between lx and i but since we both are so boring now (haha), we don't mind going with other people. I also miss coco and albie. The other night i spent half an hour on the phone with coco and we both agreed that we need to do something in the near 2-weeks future because we've been deprived of each others company. I do hope i get to see them both soon.

Lastly, I apologize again for the lack of structure and sense in this rant. & i did not realize this would turn into a word vomit. And and! Even though i sound so terribly depressed, frustrated and upset- i'm feeling actually quite fine but just a little tired (from lack of sleep). That would explain the lack of my usual bubbly (online) presence.

Good day.

there are some things worth dying for

These are one of the many things. (Click to enlarge)

I am so willing to lose a couple of toes in the process of learning how to walk and function in these babies. I mean, who needs all ten toes anyways. I can do without one or two. Or three.
I am in lurveeeee!!! And they're also the closest pair of imitations to the 1500 dollars Givenchy ones ive talked about on my Xanga.
I am counting down the days until i get them.....even though i haven't tried them on, don't know the price and don't know which CBX stores in Toronto carries them. ohmegee i need to go to a mall SOON.

Genius!

Haha whoever thought of that is a genius! as a starbucks addict, i love seeing things like that lol
Been a quiet long weekend so far. Did nails again, got my first pedicure. Embarassed myself as i was getting my pedicure. It was such a kay-leena thing to do haha but both pedi and french mani was SO cheap, i think i shall frequent this place from now on.

i also really wanna shop. i actually refrained myself from going to fairview the other day because i know that l'll go insane with all the shit im going to get....i really need to go with someone thats money conservative to make me feel guilty when i want to spend money on something unnecessary i.e. another scarf.............unless its really cheap and reallllllllly purdy.

Anyways tomorrow should be explosive. 930am body pump class and following in the evening, Girls Night at the Howard Johnson and Cabana. Lets hope i dont get too trashed lol

Going to settle in for the night and continue to read the Lovely Bones~
Perhaps lll mega blog on monday.

Hermit-Mode

I was looking through some of my pictures on facebook during my "break" today and noticed how much nicer my skin was a year or two ago. It was literally pimple-free, pores looked minimized and blemish-free, hmm maybe a few freckles here and there- something i can totally cope with. Today, my face is oily, blotchy, red, full of pimples and worst of all- scars and blemishes all over my cheeks. I am not exaggerating either (seeing i have a tendency to) but i'm almost confident that people do notice a change but are just polite and not bring it up in fear it might hurt my feelings (it probably will, so please don't mention it because i don't like it when people state the obvious).

The other day when i was spending time with my lonesome self, i decided to go and get a "Deep Cleansing Facial" at a spa. I've never been one to actively suggest going to get a facial or anything like that but i don't know what got into me and thought why not....i'm bored, LX was on-call for cooking and doing chores (while his parents partied lol) and i had a couple of bucks to spare.

Anyways so i got that, and kind of regret it the moment i looked in the mirror. The lady didn't exactly "explain" to me what she was going to do to my face but rather just emphasized the benefits of getting it. Clearly i was sold thus i told her to go ahead. She did the usual cleansing, steaming, exfoliation, EXTRACTION and so on. Yeah, um i forgot to ask exactly what was a facial "extraction" until she began poking and probing my face with her "Pimple-Killing" tools which consisted of a pimple-poking needle and some other smaller contraption that was used to push against my skin until the "stuff" from underneath my skin would explode onto the surface. It was the most painful thing my face has ever endured to a point i wanted to cry but i told myself- this will work, this will "help" clear my face. In the middle of the extraction she mentioned that my face will be pretty "Swollen" and "Red" but that's normal after the extraction/facial. Okay, as if the red warning flags weren't waving frantically and my inner minions weren't screaming CAUTION already- i told myself that it will be okay, i just need to live through this and i can have clear skin b/c I am pretty desperate right now. No doubt after the facial was complete my skin was SUPER smooth and soft but the red, blotchy spots were just TERRIBLE and alarming. Its only been a couple a days and it has SOMEWHAT calmed down, but the spots are still there. I am PRAYING to the higher being that this will really work and it will all be "calmed down" by next week.

I guess what this whole bitch rant/whine comes down to is, people (whether guys or girls) really shouldn't take "good" skin for-granted. Through highschool (aside from the early adolescent years) and the first few years of university, i thought i was blessed with good skin. Good skin that didn't need all that cleansing shit and lotion, and such good skin, friends would tell me i have "perfect" skin and i should shut my trap whenever i complained about a pimple on my chin. I took it for-granted and now its taken away from me due to my lack of "gratitude" i guess, lack of maintenance and pure carelessness. I feel nasty, i'm horribly disgusted with the state my skin is in, i feel fat, i feel ugly.

It's one of those life lessons and mistakes where i'm not going to allow my future daughter to make. I swear the minute she turns 10, im going to make her start cleansing her face for the rest of her life. It is absolutely something that i regret not doing and now it's really too late.

I've been meaning to call a couple of friends to get together since i've been lazy and neglected ALOT of people, and also call out the GCM girls b/c i miss them. But with this skin problem that has become much more severe lately, i'm quite hesitate in going anywhere in general because i don't like leaving the house feeling and looking like shit. I don't want to cover it up with foundation/powder because i feel like im just suffocating my skin with more stuff hence i go to work looking like crap. but nobody cares at work so its okay (thank god). I mean unless its absolutely necessary, i will cover it up. But then l'll just feel like 2 weeks worth of eating/drinking healthy, doing home masks and sleeping early will go to waste. The mister has been quite supportive and helping me research articles on the net on tips and remedies i can do to help improve the state my skin is in. Other than that, i'm not really feeling too great at the moment.

IN CONCLUSION, all this just means i will be in hiding until my face clears up/is presentable. This sentence is pretty vague because one might ask- what if your skin never clears up? Yeah, that willl become quite a problem wouldn't it, hm I will figure it out once i get to that point. This would also explain my absence on MSN (also because MSN STILL doesn't work on my laptop and logging in onto MEEBO is a drag.) and my lack of social updates on facebook because i have truly turned into a hermit once again.

Good night to you all.

i miss blogging

I was doing my usual stalkings through facebook during work just now and I somehow stumbled across pictures of a wedding my friend attended. I think I officially found the place where I want to have my wedding reception at. TEHEHEHEHE I wonder if people are willing to drive to Woodbridge for my wedding? TEHEHEHEHE

P.S I haven't been blogging much and i truly miss blogging but i find it so hard to drag myself to the computer to type something when all i do now during my evenings is taking care of my skin and teeth (haha) or reading (the Time Traveler's Wife) or both! That or i am out and i come back home exhausted and want to crawl into my big comfy bed.

Couple of random thoughts since I'm here.

• Last weekend i got smashed at a Boat Cruise Birthday Party. It was so awesome because it was not the type where i had to hold my hair back and puke in the toilet that leads to a massive hangover the next day, but rather the type where i was on such a great buzz and was extremely loud and rowdy.
• I loved my dress and again, i think i pulled it off with the make-up....i THINK i am improving. But i still need someone to show me how to actually put on bronzer and someone to actually give me some critique on my "techniques"....or at least give me an honest opinion on how i look.
• The moment i saw the boat (AURORA BOREALIS) on the dock i knew it was going to be a great night because there was a live steel drum band playing like Calypso music, or at least thats what it sounded like.
  
• The night was absolutely terrific except for the part where i missed dessert (cupcakes and cake!!!!!!)
• The music was too west indie for me as much as i enjoy old school soca...but perfect for everyone else who was there haha
  
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• Got my nails done with my cousin over the weekend too. Brunch @ a Greek Restaurant and then fast nails @ Urban Nails on the danforth
  
  
  
• As ghetto, simple and unorthodox as it is- i LOVE it =D (My boss gave me the i am weird-look when i explained to him why only the tips are black)
  
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• It was my cousin T's wedding this weekend over in Edmonton. I wish i was able to go but financials have me stuck in Toronto so congratulations to him and my new cousin-in-law. Hopefully i can see them soon b/c i owe him a lot for driving me around Edmonton (to get to bars and bbt shops) when i last visited.
• More and more in love with the NEW MOON movie as i watch more trailers and videos of the cast (in particular Jacob Black...wow <3333>
• I am in total fall-shopping mode. Someone's gotta hold me back
• The mister is still sick...and that makes me sad because i cant bring him food : (
  

Okay back to work. pwahha