Torn.

All my life there has always been one person that i have always looked out for, cared about, been supportive of and placed them as number 1 in my life. They are so important in my life that no boyfriend or friends can take their place because they are family to me. Someone i refuse to give up on no matter what situation, how grim and negative things are because i see the best in them. I see that small light that is blocked my all sorts of shadows in their lives and choose to give all the faith and support i can offer.

But when they go against all and betrays the trust you put in them, it makes you question whether you should give second chances or give up hope completely when they clearly took the trust you had for them and used it to their own advantage.

im torn. hurt and disappointed.

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&& it was such a shitty day at the gym today. almost freaking broke my ankle b/c i was so unfocused.
Bright side. Dimsum tmr with my fave bb guru person in the whole wide world before he leaves for HK!

Brother Sister

It's so nice to have like a friend that is like your younger brother to be around when you have no one else to talk to, and turn to. Especially one that you've known since you were five.

It's like having TWO younger brothers (one by default...i mean blood haha and one by choice) !

Thnx Junior for always listening to me rant and proving time after time that maybe you should be the older sibling lol because you are clearly much more mature, methodical and smarter than i am & seems like you are the one looking out for me! Thnx thnx.

LOL

Twin says:
 buffy the vamp slayer is on tv and angel is evil
 Mmmmmmmmmmm evil mmmmmm
 ooops wrong person HAHAHAHA
 carry on
Twin says: i was suppose to send this to U but i ended up sending it to colin
Me: HAHAHHAHAHAH

oh how you can make me laugh....at any time.

Why is it so Cold Outside?

Suddenly caught a blogging bug. Going to be jumping all over the place.

This morning i woke up and as usual i would turn on my laptop and logged into facebook/twitter/blog/gmail. After all these years i am still such an addict and stalker. I guess its just my "curious" nature heh. Anyhoo, the first thing i saw was an acquaintance (i can't really call her a friend and the word acquaintance seems so distant but there is no other word to describe how i know her lol) changed her relationship status to Engaged! Immediately i felt extremely happy for her because i know that shes been with her now-fiancee for a long time and they seem to be very in love. I don't really know much about the boyfriend but lx has talked to him once and from what i heard, hes a very good and hardworking guy that works like three jobs to save for their future. Things like that validate the relationship even more when both parties work hard together for a better future. It is not an off balance relationship where the girl is giving more or not giving at all which is why seeing this news makes me very happy. Even though i do not know her very well, i would say i know her close friends more and they are all ecstatic for her. All the best to her and her fiancee.

So the next thing i normally do after Facebook, is to proceed onto "decoding" my dreams. I've been doing that almost every single morning because i am trying to find some sort of meaning . I don't want to sound spiritual or anything like that but since i am completely confused with everything when im conscious, i would think its safe to trust that my subconscious might have picked up something when my thick-head conscious doesn't.

To see a waterfall in your dream, is symbolic of letting go. You are releasing all those pent up emotions and negative feelings. The dream may also represent your goals and desires.

Hm. Interesting. Beaches, Ice & Waterfalls. I sense a theme.

& now after calming down....time to clean up room, do laundry and bill the fucking rat so i can get the hell out.

Happy Mommy's Day everyone.

 Me Mommy & i

Even though my mom will never read this...i hope she knows that i love her very much and one day i will make up for all the worrying i have caused, especially this year's Mothers Day when it should be a day about her...not worry about me. My mom is a simple woman. I think the majority of the time i am very frustrated with how simple she sees life because in this day and age, nothing is ever simple. At the same time some time i wish i can be that simple. Wish that life can be that simple, the world can be simple. She's not extraordinary when it comes to anything but her life goal is simply to take care of my brother and i, and our dad. Nothing more, nothing less. Our happiness and health is her main concern. I'm very thankful for that because i know that my mom would give up anything for us. Now with this happening, i know it pains her very very much and i am sorry for having to put her through all this. I can only hope she knows how much she means to me and us. I thought a small dedication was the least i can do for her today. (She's probably wondering what i am doing in my room as i type..). Love!

Also, i know i owe everyone an awesome Cuba-related post and i have yet to load my pics. That's still coming because i have still yet to steal all of K's and also i know that there's about 150 more pics and maybe 10 vids that she has yet to load. They are coming and once they're here l'll get a move on the entry and loading em on facebook.

Outs for now.

Art Show

Today my cousin accompanied me in going to the OCAD Art Show and we both were failed to be informed that it seemed to be the GRADUATE (master degree) design show instead of undergrads (the advertising/graphic design/packaging majors anyways)...which made things all the more depressing because you see all these awesome Thesis projects, a girl that has worked with corporate companies (i.e. Sobeys, la Vie en Rose, etc.) to do branding and some other pretty awesome stuff that i feel like i can never do. I guess it might have been my mood, the weather and the lack of food but it just made the future looked all the more gloomy when the cousin asked me what was my "ultimate" goal in 10-15 years. What did i want to retire as? I really didn't know how to answer her (& i told her that) because i don't even know what area i want to end up in. That's something i still have to figure out....which sucks.

Jumping back to the grad show.

1. OCAD is apparently now calling themselves OCAD U(niversity) which i think is so damn lame because the word COLLEGE is still in their name but whatever. 
2. From a GCM standpoint, these "Master" graduates does not have a single idea how to print things. Wow business cards were so poorly printed, low resolutions in huge 40" posters, terrible finishing and cutting, rough edges, bad choice of stock, bad readability- i disapproved almost 70% of the printed pieces that was displayed. 
3. In my opinion- the York/Sheridan Design Show is better aka. the York/Sheridan Design Students are better at what they do. I recall at their last 2 Grad Shows, i was honestly swept away by the talent i saw and i also swept away MANY business cards (i only took about 5 or 6 for STOCK sample purposes from this show...not really for design inspiration) heh. What was really sad about THIS show was there was probably only about five Masters (not Undergrad like York/Sheridan) students that stood out from what i think is maybe a class of 80-100 or even more. The ones that were VERY GOOD, were VERY GOOD (lol)....the others kinda bored me....but that's just an opinion coming from someone who claims shes a designer but cannot draw a school bus.

The show lost our interest after checking out Industrial & Environmental Design. We half-assed the Drawing & Painting floor because i don't understand fine art and the cousin did not enjoy ANY of the pieces on display. I am clearly more blunt and to-the-point and all about visual appeal than being conceptual and profound. I rmb in highschool i dreaded doing Sketchbook ISUs and tried to scam my way out of it. Not b/c i was lazy but because i needed to hide the fact that i cannot draw....sighs. i am such a fraud. And then we didn't even bothered with Photography, integrated media, print making and sculptures. Yawn.

Thanks for going down with me today dear....it means a lot. I'm sorry about the absence of my usual energetic and cheerful self. 

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Just came home with the family for an early mothers day dinner. I think my performance was passable. I think today was the first time i laughed in front of them when my dad started slurping his crab legs...im sadden that i worry them. Hopefully with today seeing me at least speaking a bit and snorting it would make them feel better.

Oh and the sudden snow is really shitty. brrrr.

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今晚將是一個星期...希望不會太痛...

Appreciation

Thanks to those who's been the reason why i've survived the past few days.
The ones that's taking shifts to see if i'm okay. The ones that are putting up with my selfishness.
The ones that sends me daily tweets and txts to remind me they love me.
The ones that knows when to sugar coat things and the ones that puts me back into reality.
That small handful of you.....you know who you are.
Thank you.

我相信還有希望.

Cousin-ly & Hubby Love

I love how my cousin would randomly call me with contract work available for either me or the mister.

Its nice to know that we're on your mind!! Honestly though, I love her and her boyfriend lots. They are the most generous, loyal and sincere people i know and it makes me very happy and fortunate knowing that they're there for us- drunk and sober. haha! Its a shame that we do not get to see each other (as four) as much as i want to. Hopefully in the near future when we're all financially stable we can head out on a trip together! Either somewhere that's all inclusive, SNOWBOARDING in BC, NYC/LA, or HK : )))

They're sooooooo cute. My favorite, most-down-to-earth couple. Heart heart heart. So after looking really hard for pictures of us four i realized that we have none so i settled for the next most decent and nice looking pic of you guys that i could find (in your album) haha Food court date soon? This time YOU guys can be the tour guides and maybe Poker & Big2 again. lolll

I felt like dedicating this entry to you.

Gotta get back to illustrating tho. Poos.

PS. I hope you don't mind me loading a picture of you guys.

PPS. If you do mind, l'll just hafta stick in Pikachu's face again somewhere. lol

fffound

9 Years Old Emma Watson vs. 19 Years Old Emma Watson
(via Source)

Holyyyyshiet. Talk about growing up and filling in NICELY. Hard to believe its been 11 years since the first Harry Potter movie came out. I AM SO OLD. xxx!!!



Anyways i had quite an enjoyable weekend. I shopped til i dropped and stumbled into a Nail Salon on Saturday with K&J and then spent my evening at SB (my previous post details the fatty evening) and had a super fatty late night dinner at midnight. The mister took my family out for dimsum on Sunday morning and that's always nice because i think my parents really enjoy it. The day flies by with a super-long unplanned nap that goes into the evening and i FINALLY got around to wallpapering my closet doors (thnx u lx). I'm so proud of the way it looooooks. Yays. =]  I'm not loading any pics of it though, until more of my TO-DOs has been completed.

Oh i also got my shots for the trip. Shit who the hell knew it would cost SO MUCH to protect ourselves from Hepatitis???? Argh. Must pay again for Part II of the vaccination in 6 months.


I foreshadow in the near future:

• More hot yoga sessions pwlease.
• National Home Show (Scored free passes!) with mister
• Shutter Island & Alice in Wonderland in 3D yooo
• Just4fun Fete (aka Graffiti Partay)
• Longer work-out sessions
• Twin's Birthday
• Booking, Confirming & Cuba Trip (I really REALLY hope the girls can come!!!)
• Busy and long work days

Back to work!

Fail Blog

[[ Before reading- you gotta watch this video to understand what im talking about. ]]

Just now my brother and i attempt to show a Fail Blog video to my dad. Specifically, its the one that K loaded on her FB about PARKING FAIL (can be watched here).When my brother and i watched it again, we laughed so so hardddd. We start it and as the video played, the brother and i started to giggle again and we turned to see our dad's reaction and you see a COMPLETELY STRAIGHT face, not even a smirk! And we thought oh maybe he's not getting it and we proceeded on explaining as the video is at its 35 second mark. After explaining it instead of the GIGGGLINGGGG we were expecting from the beginning, we get a "Actually, that's not an easy parking spot to get into because that other car is in its way."


Dot dot dot


We reach the part the guy comes out of the car and parks for the girl.

STILL NO REACTION from our dad.

The video ends. And it was complete silence.

Crickets Chirping kind of silence.

&& our dad's facial expression echoed the words "WTF. im tired. you made me stand to watch this NON-Comedy!?!" then he walks away.


............my brother and i concluded that our dad's reaction was a complete FAILLLLLLLLLLLL. hahahahhaha

Spring

(via Source)

I am completely intoxicated with the thoughts of pastels, tights, dresses, blazers, shorts, light scarves and over-sized sweaters. I am SO SO ready for you Spring. Please come sooooon.

My deepest and most sincere condolences to my friends and their families whom has lost someone recently. I'm utterly shocked at how close these incidents are to each other but it only shows how life is too short. Life should be extravagant and to think too much and not enjoy it defeats the purpose of living. We should not take for granted and appreciate those who means the most to us and not hold regrets.

My Mommy Said

Last night my mommy told me that i had a big butt. And since i agree with her, i think another new goal for me is to work towards having magnificent buttocks too.

Thought i'll share.

Bandwidth

There's two days left in the month and my brother and i are surviving on THREE GIGS of bandwidth at home. We've been monitoring our net since the 2nd week in October and have been very generous with our downloads and streamings and limited ourselves to using only 1.5gigs (TOTAL, not each) per day. Regardless though, we are so so so screwed hahaha Pray that we can make it!!!!

October

Hmm, i know i've already posted twice today already (about twilight ^^) but suddenly my blogging mode switched on and because work tomorrow (frowns and sobs) is going to be stressful and frustrating i probably won't have anytime to blog from work like i normally do which is why i'm going to start word vomiting right now

It's Thanksgiving Monday and my family attempted to be festive but failed miserably and we ended up with salty turkey. I don't know why but the entire day i was really bitter and grouchy and i feel terrible for it, but every little thing somehow managed to annoy the crap out of me. I feel sorry for acting out this way, i guess i should try to make it up on another day. I blame the weather, for being so crappy and gloomy. & Rainy for the rest of the week. I can already foreshadow how grouchy l'll be for the coming week.

It's already the middle of October and i've been really disappointed up to this point so far. My life has been put on hold for almost two weeks because of this rash i got. I missed Nuit Blanche which to me was one of the bigger disappointments (again, will blog about that later), canceled several outings including my nails evening with C. Stopped gyming in fear my swollen face and neck would alarm people. I''ve gone to work with icepacks (3x) and replace them bi-hourly to ease the itch and my days and nights has gone by with an icepack to my neck, face and hands.

The only GOOD i can see that came from this rash, is a second chance at beautiful skin!! Haha as corny as that sounds, lx and i found the rash might have killed all the acne on my face and under advice from the dermatologist, my face is on its way to clear skin!!!!

Yes, the only good thing and now back to bad things.

Work has definitely gotten much more stressful and i dread going to work tomorrow to face the pile of codes i have to understand and sort through. Its been almost half a year since i've started to work here and i think it has gotten to a point where i'm so sick of being unappreciated and most importantly, being overworked and not being compensated for it. I can deal with the non-appreciative part, but the not being compensated (in wage or benefits) for my work has really begun to bother me. I'll leave it at that.

Anyways, i'm looking foward to the rest of October and hope only good things come out of it. My 30 month with LX next week (we're not celebrating it, i just like bringing it up lol), S's engagement dinner, L & LX's Bday and most importantly, Halloween. =D

My nails also need to grow faster b/c i have been manicure-deprived. On the subject of nails, i am waiting patiently for the new month to come so i can buy either that new MATTE nail polish @ Sephora or Dry Martini from Mac. I told myself that i'm only allowed one new color per month and since i used up this month's quota for Sephora's Dark Room (It's suppose to be dark Green but it actually looks black. I was very disappointed because i don't want another black polish and wished i bought Mac's Beyond Jealous instead), I'm not allowed to get anything else until November.

Moving onto shopping. I have told myself that i must really stop buying little things immediately because i need to save up for four larger purchases.

1. Insurance/Driving School
   I've come to realization that i only have 2 years to get my G and i am royally fukked hence the need to speed up the process and pray that it will come easy to me. I've been procrastinating since 2007 lol
   
2. Passport
   I have all my forms filled, i just need to go take that photo and head over to the passport office @ STC to get this over with lol This too, I've been procrastinating since 2007.
3. Winter Jacket
   Whether it be a TNA Jacket, a CND Goose, or some other brand one. I really would like to have a new one. I told myself since year 3, my graduate year WILL be the year i get a TNA jacket but i'm very hesitant because this year for some lame reason they only have the jackets made in Black, and i think either Brown or Green. All of which is not what i wanted because my heart was set out on purchasing the dark Navy blue one, and my second choice would have been the gray. Now since both my first (kind of my only choice) and second (passable) choice are not even MADE this year, i really don't want to even get it because everyone has the black one and the other two colors don't appeal to me. Thinking back, the one jacket i am literally HUNTING for is this gorgeous Zoo York one that i saw back in 07. Think TNA jacket but dark navy blue and red plaided-insides. Absolutely gorgeous and unfortunately i let that one slip by for only $225-ish. That's my winter jacket tale. 
4. New Glasses
   Fairly straight-forward, i'm tired of my current D&G ones, they've been horribly scratched up, abused and bent by me and i want to discard them for a pair of black Roberto Cavailli's that i've seen once make a special appearance on Sex & the City. i doubt l can find the same ones but l'll settle for anything similar.
5. MAYBE MAYBE- Uggs
   Alright i know the mister AND my cousin are intensely against me buying it (lol) and becoming a bear but i noticed the three boots i bought during my little insane spree are not really....erm warm and comfortable per say.... I know i totally deserve losing a toe or two for spending so much money on 3 pairs of Gossip Girl-like styled boots but i really need something comfortable for work......which is where Uggs come in!!!!! A pair of Classic Mini's in either Chestnut or Chocolate isn't asking for too much.....!!??? This of course is not a priority,which would let me of the hook for a bit.

That summarizes up the four (and one maybe) large purchases that i want to make and it's definitely going to be costly and be paid entirely by only yours truly. Yes even the glasses because i have no benefits!!!!!!!! Sighs.

Ah, i think i might have wanted to type more but its 10pm and i need sleep to face the day tomorrow. No Body Pump for me tmr because i pretty certain i'm staying late again.

Maybe l'll walk that extra 20 minutes to get myself a Starbucks tmr. Hmmmmmmmmmmm

A Writer's Craft

I really should be heading to sleep but i have like a gazillion things i want to blog about. It's also hot like a sauna in my room and its discouraging me from sleep. I really need to get that fan that ET has (or use to have, no clue if its still there lol) in his room, i remember it being super cold and nifty because it had a remote....haha

Anyways, so ever since ive gotten my new bed i haven't been really doing anything aside from sleeping in it with my laptop. It's actually very terrible and so lazy of me because im neglecting all the other trillion things i have to do but instead i've been watching Young and Dangerous on Youtube.

I'm also in total facebook uploading-picture mode but i think i am going to hold off for a bit more.

Earlier this evening while (still!!!) cleaning my room, i came across my familiar cardboard box filled with highschool things. Mainly, it was homework, assignments and projects which i kept after all these years because i thought they would somehow come in handy one day (i finally threw them out tonight). I came across one thing that i am definitely going to keep, and its my Writers Craft binder. Writers Craft in HS was a course that allowed students to explore different styles of writing, and this ranged from writing screenplays, children's literature, to poems and journalism. I was particularly fond of this class because of the English teacher that taught the course. She was one of those teachers that you know she really cares about her students and really loves English. It was also great, how she would casually intertwine how much she loves drinking beer and Mel Gibson in the middle of her lessons.

Anyways, one of the things we had to do at the beginning of every class was to write in our journal. We had to choose a topic from this long list of different ideas of what to write about. The catch here was for us to write non-stop for like, five-ten minutes or something and we cannot stop, our pens/pencils have to keep on moving as we basically word vomit on paper. I looked through every entry that i wrote for that class and i completely forgot i wrote any of the stuff i was reading. A couple of lines i wanted to point out that stood out to me as i went through my notebook of scribbles.

In our first entry, we were told to write "a letter to yourself in January"(it was September), then we had to staple it and cannot look at it until January. Some stuff i wrote:

"I want the January-you, to be happy. I hope by January, you and 6453 are together. If not, i know it will be painful but i know you will survive. You have friends that will help you through it. i repeat, you will be okay"

"Remember your pact with C. He wants you to have inspiration back in your life"

- Holy crap, thats some crazy, intense emo stuff i wrote to myself there.

In another entry, i had to write about the people i love most in my life and i wrote,

"My brother, is someone whom i cannot live without for one second in my waking life"

- That hit me really hard, because as much as i fight with him, screamed at him, and in some ways we have grown apart in the past couple of years- i haven't once slowed down to tell and remind myself, how important my brother is to me. This shows how FAST my life has been moving for the past five years. Its absolutely unbelievable. There was a lot more stuff that stood out but too lazy to retype.

In general, after finish going through the entire notebook, it makes me really want to get back into reading and writing. I should make a habit to start doing these writing exercises where instead of typing, i should WRITE in a notebook and just do a crazy word vomit. I just read one of the article assignments that i wrote and damn it was well-written. I am SO impressed with myself Haha lol When i was a kid for like a good period i wanted to be a writer when i grew up. Pwahah i remembered the exact moments when i told myself i COULDN'T be a writer, i was pretty sad, yet it was a realistic decision at the age of ten. lol

In another one of the entries, i wrote:

"Reading makes me who i am. I have always been proud to be the one that read the most out of everybody as i was growing up."

I am almost ashamed of reading and retyping that because i have honestly just stopped reading over the years when it was such an important part of my life as i was growing up (Twilight and Harry Potter doesn't count). Growing up with English as a second language was brutally painful. My parents did not know a word of English, let alone teaching me the basics of the language. Whenever i needed help, i was to call my older cousins (probably at the time in middle-highschool) for help. I guess as a child i've always been very "proud" and did not like calling and asking for help because i wanted to do things on my own (actually i am still like that). Because of that, i learned everything on my own. I read twice as much as the Caucasian kids in the class and brought home more books than any of the kids because i refused to be in ESL with the other minority-race kids. I even began to ask my parents to buy me as much books as they can afford so i can learn and be "good" at English. It did pay off though, as i began to win awards and was recognized for being a "top" reader in my class. As I got older, i started to read less and it got to a point where i just stopped but I picked it up again last summer. Then I totally stopped again when school started.

I'm disappointed in myself, as to why i would let something that was so important to me slip away like that. The consequence of that is my now- shitty-English that i get criticized for at work.

Yeah, i am so going to start ordering from Amazon right now.
BUT, sleeep first.


Outs.
pS. Excuse the grammer & typo.

Post-Graduate-Post & Other Meaningful Thoughts

I'll be back later to type something because i am actually currently getting ready for work.... but yes! I am finally an undergraduate! Pictures to come.

As of now though bear with me with a teaser! ^^


I did it! ^^


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Back!

I am back now with I guess my last "GCM"-related post EVER because as of yesterday, GCM is literally only memories and can only be proven with the gazillion stalker pictures that ive taken over the past four years and that 25,000 paper that i almost lost....haha

The day started out super early with me getting up at 5:30am to put on my makeup and do my hair. It was kinda blurry that chunk of the morning, i only recall Vo msn-ing me saying she didnt know what to wear haha it felt like an exam morning where she didnt know which class room we were suppose to go to. hehe i going to miss that : ) At around 7:15, LX came to get me and "surprised" me with flowers even though i asked for them a couple of months ealrier.....heh im glad you remembered B.

Our Classic Lurve in the Car Pic

His Purdy Urple Roses : )

So even though we were suppose to be down there at 7:30am, we ended up being fifteen minutes late anyways and enjoyed every minute of it because its OUR DAYYYY.....until i saw A, E and Jennut come out with their gowns on. haha Thats when i began to "run" aka "power jog" in shoes ive worn for about half an hour.

The period between us entering the theatre to be awarded our degrees and lining up in depressing Kerr Hall East was way too long. To past time, we all became each others mirrors and helped each other pin our parachutes (that sash thing) to our bodies and straighten it for each other : )
When the time did come, we did our walk around this giant field then entered the theatre and the ceremony began. Basically it went on for two hours, and the first hour and forty five minutes were boring. It literally took only fifteen minutes to hand out all the degrees to all the GCMers. I tried my best to cheer for all the kids but it was really awakard screaming for you guys from the side and while im walking back to my seat. So i TOTALLY missed seeing my own boyfriend get his award, same with a few other people too. argh. However though, im glad one of our friends (J) got the loudest appaluse from all the asian kids because he was last to go and i think we all secretly love him the most haha

Another thing that i did because i am the biggest dork in the world, was to take pictures WHILE i was recieving my handshakes and awards. haha While everybody was enjoying their moment in the spotlight, you see ME, the dork holding up her camera and taking pics from my perspective. I actually wanted to take a picture with the chinese chancellor man but i actually got REALLY nervous as i crossed the stage so i chickened out last minute............otherwise i would have SO DONE IT and lagged up the line. haha

Yes, I was the loser with the camera

heh heh toooo bad. It would have been THE final act to signify what a big cam whore and freak i am. Once the ceremony was over, we all went outside to take pictures and thats when i fulfilled my own facebook event and gather all the kids together to take a nice large group picture =D Unfortunately i realized that we were missing Khalid and Cowan....but i can always photoshop them in there : ) There was honestly way too many things going on at once after the ceremony.

My GCM family

Even though in my facebook event, i said that my dream picture was to take it with ALL the kids- that was kinda a lie to get everyone together lollllllll NOT, that the group picture was any less important- but the main picture that ive wanted to take ever since year one was with the girls. I think, from the moment we took our first photobooth pictures- i think i knew that l'll be graduating, linking arms and making funny faces we the four girls. It was just something so weird that tied all of us together, different personalities, different background- all brought together to create priceless memories. I think l'll blog more in-depthly about how much i love them in my next post lol.

My Girls <3

Just a side dork story-
After we came out, we all are pretty hyped up about taking pictures and running around all care-free. That was when i realized i did have my degree certificate. You know that piece of paper that costs $20,000????? Yeah i didnt have a clue where it was and that was when i practically yelled- OMG I DONT KNOW WHERE MY DEGREE WENT. Not a good idea because the reactions i received ranged from my brother yelling- YOU IDIOT in his very mean voice, to my parents frowning, i think Albert's parents frowned too haha, to nearby GCMers smirked, to other grads and their families gave me the STUPID GIRL glare, i think Jo said Epic Fail haha and lastly Albert simply said- be glad Coco isnt here because he would have been very angry with you. LOL I mustve been the only grad to have misplaced their degree certificate, half an hour into recieving it. THEN, it hit me that LX had it and that was the end of that. HEH. Only dorky, would lose the one thing you cannot lose. heh lolll


Ok back on track lol
My parents and my brother came to see me on this "big" day and i was very grateful and very happy that they showed up. i realized how very frustrating and hassle-ish the day was for them; but they showed up anyways just to see me in my ugly ryerson blue gown and to take pictures with me. Its one of those things where i cant thank them enough in words but can only show my appreciation through many actions in years to come.

My Parents, Baby Brother and I :)))))))

& the topic of that many have asked me. How was the parents meeting. Ha ha ha. lolllll From a personal standpoint, i thought it was a lil weirdddd....i mean....its parents meeting parents.....not significant other meeting parents.....Otherwise it went well overall haha i dreamt it was much worst to be honest. The thing that made me exceptionally happy was the mister did the introductions. For the longest time i thought i was going to have to do it, I recall telling my cousin about it too. I dont know how to explain it, but it really just made everything even more better by him doing that. It means a lot to me, and i think he probably felt it and knew it even though i didnt say anything. Another item which i need to add to my invisible list of meaningful things he has done for me lol

heart heart smiles im so proud of you<3

Overall i think that was my convocation summarized up? lollllllllllll


Couple of Regrets though.

• i did not take enough pictures. in general. i was aiming for 200, but i came out short with 94.
• i didnt take pics with some people because i couldnt keep track!! im sorry annnh,ernie,jin,khalid, jo,denis,cristal,cowan,denise,ashZ&clearly there were more but i forgot. im sorry :(
• i didnt spend enough time taking pics of the mister. that makes me even more sad
• i didnt take a picture with raymond chang (the chancellor) when i was shaking his hand on stage.
• i didnt get to take a picture with my dream team boys that consists of Chocolate, Junior and the mister : (((
• i didnt take a picture of the GCM building
• i left my camera home when we went for karoke

& i dont remember the others. boooooos. >.<


I was going to write my last GCM-related post, but i am mentally and physically exhausted (which would explain all the grammatical errors) due to lack of sleep, but majority because today work treated me like shit. The day was long and extremely brutal. I've never been this upset on the job before and honestly if it wasnt for LX coming to get/see me after work, and then later in the evening ranting to chocolate and twin- i think i really would have cried myself to sleep.

Because of this reason l'll do that post another time.

Goodnights and outsssss