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First Day. Untanned.

7 days, 12 mosquito bites, 300+ photos and a peeling tan-later


i come home to:

93 unread e-mails

• - 200ish-tho Facebook Updates
• - 300+ Unread Tweets
• - Brand new Gossip Girl, Criminal minds and Law&OrderSVU episodes to catch up on
• - Starbucks

A newly painted room

Will blog with more details about the trip!!!!

3 Years

Just like that. 

1095 days and counting. Even though we make each other soooooo mad sometimes. There's nothing a smile and the sound of laughter that can't cure at the end of the day.

In case i haven't told you lately- You are doing a great job being the amazing boyfriend you are. 

YAY. HAHA!

Weekends don't belong to me

I've been in a REALLY foul mood all day today and i think i know why.

Its because i'm doing work for the rat....on a Saturday. More specifically, on my 3-Years Anni-with-the-mister weekend ALSO my last weekend before my trip There's pretty much a deadline this Wednesday and the stuff needs to be completed/tested by Tuesday afternoon. That said the work load is not simply something that can be completed all in 2 days. Its more like four, FULL 8-hour work days worth of time that is needed but im squeezing it all into my weekend + Mon and Tuesday. Suddenly my "part-time" status has turned into hell.

• - I am UNPACKED
• - I don't have my room cleared so the mister can paint it when im away. This itself is a DAYS activity
• - I'm UNPAID
• - I haven't gymmed in 2 weeks & i feel sooo flabbby. I was in A-SHAPE 2 weeks ago now imback to ground zero
• - i need new flats b/c my mutant toes punctured holes through my current flats trying to be freed

On the bright side though,

• - lx bought me Converses because he felt like i had no "shoes" i can wear and abuse
• - There are packages in the mail coming my way
• - Cuba in 7 days!!!!!!!!!!
• - 3 Years Anniversary with the mister come Monday
• - GCM Girls Dim Sum Morning tomorrow morning
• - Daddy's Birthday dinner AFTER dimsum = day of weight gain

Yeah thats it. im going to go back to being bitter now.
Actually you think im in a foul mood. the fat bitch beside me needs to fucking lighten up. so freaking ass rude yo. My only conclusion is she must work for a BIGGER rat.

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9 Years Old Emma Watson vs. 19 Years Old Emma Watson
(via Source)

Holyyyyshiet. Talk about growing up and filling in NICELY. Hard to believe its been 11 years since the first Harry Potter movie came out. I AM SO OLD. xxx!!!



Anyways i had quite an enjoyable weekend. I shopped til i dropped and stumbled into a Nail Salon on Saturday with K&J and then spent my evening at SB (my previous post details the fatty evening) and had a super fatty late night dinner at midnight. The mister took my family out for dimsum on Sunday morning and that's always nice because i think my parents really enjoy it. The day flies by with a super-long unplanned nap that goes into the evening and i FINALLY got around to wallpapering my closet doors (thnx u lx). I'm so proud of the way it looooooks. Yays. =]  I'm not loading any pics of it though, until more of my TO-DOs has been completed.

Oh i also got my shots for the trip. Shit who the hell knew it would cost SO MUCH to protect ourselves from Hepatitis???? Argh. Must pay again for Part II of the vaccination in 6 months.


I foreshadow in the near future:

• More hot yoga sessions pwlease.
• National Home Show (Scored free passes!) with mister
• Shutter Island & Alice in Wonderland in 3D yooo
• Just4fun Fete (aka Graffiti Partay)
• Longer work-out sessions
• Twin's Birthday
• Booking, Confirming & Cuba Trip (I really REALLY hope the girls can come!!!)
• Busy and long work days

Back to work!

Be Warned This is LONG

So here i am, a brand new year begins in the Chinese Lunar Calendar and i owe so many days worth of blogging to people whom has express their dislike in my lack-of posts and essentially laziness which cause them great inconvenience aka boredom. hahaha my bad =]

(I don't even know how i am going to do this because i have 2 entries saved up and about six other points of blog worthy things i wanna rant about.........yeah no idea. Its going to be maddd chopppy and tenses jumping all over the place.)

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There's been so much shit happening with the TTC and they're virtually under the eyes (and cameras) of every rider. I actually wrote this entry up a couple of days ago but didn't publish it b/c it was half written. Then my cousin coincidentally wrote about the ttc too (Read here) and I was completely inspired to finish it because her thoughts on political and media issues are so welll written : )

Anyways i spend a major of my time on the internet (a commmon fact) and one day it was like the hit of a plague, the topics "#TTC" and "#TTCFails" begins trending on my tumblr (Toronto sector) and Twitter. It was all because of that unfortunate picture of the ttc man asleep at his post. Since that day, everyone's been constantly questioning why our municipal taxes are being spent on naps and inefficiency.

I take the TTC far more than some of my friends because of my handicap (lack of license) so i would think i am able to share some opinions because i have had my share of both good and bad experiences. There's been mad shit ones where i recall the time when i had to ask the entire bus for change because the busdriver man didnt bother looking at how much change i put in and didnt believe me. Or when it was what felt like -50 outside and TWO EMPTY bus drove right past me and i got on the third bus and totally bitched out the driver for his colleagues douche-bagness. At the same time i give MAD MAD respect to those bus drivers that drive the highschool routes. The bullshit they take from students is unbelievable and i remember very well a couple that were beyond cheerful and polite.

That said, um I think the situation has become very unfair for the drivers now that the younger generation (b/c we are the ones with the blueberries and iphones) has begun "stalking" their drivers every move. Its like people are completely expecting there to be more screw-ups. I feel like the busdriver can't even pick his nose on the job because then his one hand will be off the steering wheel and then the WHOAAA HE JUST PICKED HIS NOSE-pic will appear on the net and the public frowns on people that picks their nose. Seriously. Is that necessary?  BOOHOO. GET OVER IT PEOPLE.

I am completely bored and annoyed by this comedy. 

My past block of text may seem like I am completely pro-giving our taxes to people to nap on the job but that isn't the actual issue I'm describing. That incident was separate, unfortunate and stupid.

We all know it happens. It happens in every work environment. But nothing has ever been documented to give pressure to the TTC to "do" something about it. Its a good idea for the TTC to "tighten their belts" with their employees but at the same time people really need to stop it with the whole freaking-out-over-a-bathroom-break comedy or verbally harassing employees on the job (calling them useless and lazy, etc.).

We all need the TTC, regardless of the basketful of rotten, bitter employees. But why must harass the ones that ARE doing their jobs and minding their own business? Must we REALLY make the rest rotten and bitter for the mistake of those others? Shit without them driving our ass around we go NO WHERE BIATCHESSSS.

Just a thought. Stop being mean people.

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The other night the mister and i SUCCESSFULLY watched Avatar Holymamas. After THREE attempts, this being our fourth were able to watch it in IMAX3D &&& was first in line and we got the sweeeetest seats in the entire theatre and chomped away on super awesome sneaked-in Chinese chips. lol We were actually in line for a good 2 hours ish and spent that hour watching The Hangover on lx's iPhone. It was such an ingenious move because our 2 hours did not feel like it.


Side note: Hangover is SUCH a wicked-ass movie. I cannot get over how freaking funny it was. I swear its the first comedy since the Wedding Crashers where i've laughed my ass off like that. Nothing else compared in between!!!! (Except maybe Tropic Thunder...that was disgustingly funny hahah). I think there's going to be a 2nd one and hopefully its going to be just as great. Zach Galifianakis (Alan) for the WINNNNN haha!!!!

So the movie situation was almost perfect- us being first in line, we have a great movie playing, snacks hidden away in my hobo bag, Starbucks on the side. An absolute WIN until- i had to pee. I was hoping i can hold it until i was in the theater, dropped off my shit and then come out and let it roll......but that did not happen because it was 10 minutes before the movie started and i told myself l'll take the chance and make a dash. I took my dash to come back and discovered they started to let people in. But the messed up part was i had to line up at the END OF THE LINE. OMGGGG. The thought did not AT ALL occur to me that i had to RE-LINE up because people arent going to let me butt in just because "my boyfriend is already inside". So yeah having to wait ten minutes to get to my sweet ass seats was kinda a waste of time haha

Again, the too perfect situation had to be spoiled by the HORRIBLE embarrassment of the ASIAN race by this family who sat next to us. I swear, every damn thing you AREN'T suppose to do at the theatre- THEY DID and they had to do it LOUDLY and in CHINESE. holyfaks. Kids, at the movies you are not suppose to:

• Run into the theatres when there is CLEARLY a lineup of PEOPLE waiting to go inside 
• Spill your JUMBO undrank soft drink on the carpet and leave it there
• Literally SCREAM at the top of your lungs everytime an animal attack scene comes on the screen (even the 4 yr old daughter did not scream HALF as loud as the mama)
• Leave your phone on NORMAL and let your phone ring for a good 30 seconds
• AND THEN discuss in chinese LOUDLY with your spouse about whether to call the person back
• AND AFTER THAT decides to call the person back and SPEAK CHINESE IN FULL VOLUME

Dot dot dot. ARGH I wanted to shoot them. These are the type of people that you hate because they TAINT the image of Asians.

Otherwise though the movie was pretty good haha. The plot was interesting, the world was interesting. At the same time though i think if i was to watch it in 2D i would be completely bored so big ups to IMAX3D lol It was worth staying out until 130am on a week night lol

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For the rest of the other week nights - i completely went off of my BEAST MODE and went into EATING mode and have been eating way to effing much again which is NOT GOOD for the upcoming CUBA trip. Sobs. Now that CYN is over and the feasts has gone by i can focus on being a dieting machine again. On a shopping note I really want these shoes (not necessarily for the trip, just in general) lol

Beautiful. I agree.

My original thought before getting into shoes- was for half of the week i was working on the mister's Valentine's Day present. This year he decided on our behalf that we're going to craft/make something for each other instead of buying something. I guess since we both are very hands-on this is always "fun" and challenging. It's also great because we save a bundle lol. Since VDAY is over, its safe for me to load pictures of my DIY project that i was ranting about working late nights on for the past week on MSN.

That my friends, is a MOCK-UP of my vision. What i wanted to create was something for the mister to put in his room because he's currently dong his reno. I also didnt want to create something that he won't display and ends up under his bed so whatever i needed to come up with has to be CHIC and display-worthy. In the end i came up with doing Wine Bottles with Customized Labels.

That is the final product!!!

Basically what i did was i pretty much stole the artwork and textures from an existing wine company and just photoshop-ed and added in my own quotes. Since i am not SELLING these and they are for PERSONAL use, i'm in no way exploiting nor infringing on any copyright legal boundaries nor am i taking ANY credit for the work of the illustrations and patterns. Aside from all the legal mumbo jumbo i had to write there in case someone who is all too serious and decides to sue me i have to cover my ass somehow.................the project turned out pretty nicely doesnt it!!!! I wrote three letters and theyre all to be opened on Valentines Day this year, 2011 and 2012. i glued/sealed the 2011 and 2012 bottles so the mister can't go in and PEEEK. mwahah. Clever arent i.

I hope he likes them. Even though it aint no-

"manga-inspired graphic design on a Starbucks coffee cup featuring a photograph of Megan fox on SNL inside a professionally interior designed room with jazz music playing in the background wearing urban outfitter-like clothing eating rocky road ice cream with bacon bits sprinkled on top while playing a marvel video game that consists of a character who's wearing a star wars shirt who's just finished a filet o fish and now is napping and dreaming about DOTA characters frying chickens." 

(i quote Mr.J word for word LOLOL). i think my gift is very cute and pretty. haha

VDAY itself last night was pleasant even though there was its bumps but nothing that i won't get over. We went for a nice dinner down by the King Street West strip of Restaurants that lx and i frequent. I think we're going to make it a goal to try every single one of those restaurants on that street. Anyways we go to the one that he liked the most and again he always chooses the best dishes to eat and i always gets stuck with the mediocre one. The night had to end very early because he has to work today at 8am :(( Not before i get my crafted/DIY gift though- HOMEMADE CRANBERRY BLISS BARS baby!!!!! The STARBUCKS KIND. (FYI: My all-time favorite Pastry)

VS

Okay they seriously taste like 95% identical to the ones they have at Starbucks so i freaking hit the jackpot. I am going to be fattttttttttt by Wednesday because i already ate 2.5 bars today. I'M AN ADDICT HELP ME SOMEONE. Thnx Mister!!!! Lurveeeee <333 Maybe next year he can duplicate the Red Velvet Cupcakes ^^ haha!

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 (via Source)

HAHAH omg i absolutely had to share this because the picture reminds me SO SO SSO much of lx and i. Me being the super fatty girl and whining about him not telling me he loves me enough while hes just freaking shaking his head and wondering how the hell did he put himself in this predicament ahahhaha ohmygod i love him so much. ai.

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Oh i HAVE to make a special mention to the delightfully, romantically pretty A whom (i assumed) sent out a HANDCRAFTED Valentines Day card to all the GCM girls. My dear you are perhaps one of the romantic girls i know. Please do keep it up because it makes me feel special knowing i am still in your heart. =]]]]

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A super ghetto shoutz filled with love goez outz to my home girl K for being my lover and calling me out to have a crazy rendevous with EJS after the mister dropped me off on VDAY night.

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Still here? I'm almost done i swear.
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Now we're kind of back to the beginning, Chinese New Years festivities been going on the past weekend. Which also means Chinese People EVERYWHERE. I swear if it wasn't for the fact it is the New Years there would have been RED spilling everywhere because there was SO many idiots roaming the streets/markets/temple. Thinking about it makes me so angry!!! i.e. the lady i yelled at who tried to push her shopping cart out the ENTER door when there EXIT door was COMPLETELY FREAKING EMPTY!!! OMGG Who does that!!! Or the people at the temple who begins PUSHING you even though there is half of Markham's population of Asians in one room. PEOPLE- you're lucky you all have little torches (the lighted incense) in your hands or else you would have gotten a nice verbal beating from my brother and i.

I really shouldn't be so bitter for the new years. i need more hot yoga in my life haha.

So Year of the Tiger is unbelievably depressing for us big Orange Cats of 86'. My dad was just reading my horoscope to me and it kept on getting more and more glooomy. From terrible CAREER to big changes to RELATIONSHIPs (thats freaking the shit out of moi) to poor HEALTH and lack of MONEY. What the eff man. There was NO sunshine, not even a PEEK in the three articles he read to me first and i re-examined second. Nopes. No hope.

There you have it Tigers (majority of my friends)- this is the year of being patient, calm, rational and no attitude because that attracts trouble, doom and poorness. Basically dont act like a psycho bitch and you'll be fine. Bright side though, all you Oxs and Roosters are good! haha.

A Grand Happy Chinese New Years to allllllllllllllllllll =D

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So before i end what i think might be the LONGEST entry i have every freaking typed in my history of blogging, i thought l'll share that i dreamt of Robert Downey Jr. last night and the first thing i did this morning was wake up to download Sherlock Holmes to watch again.................... Go freaking figure!!!! I don't even remember talking about the actor/ironman. Me and my celebrity dreams eh!!!!!

That said thought he is quite an attractive forty-five year old man. Who wouldn't wanna tap that? HAHA Okay I am a freak.


i swear i won't ever make anyone read through all that shit at once. I promise more periodic updates.

BYE!

Machine Gun Typing Update

Hot Yoga

I tried it again with the cousin last Friday. This time i was smart and took a "Karma" class (these are the $5 dollars/donation classes) versus the normal 17dollars class that pretty much tainted my first impression of hot yoga (can be read here). This time around the instructor was much more funnier, friendlier and helpful than the bitch we had last time. I suppose gay men are a lot friendlier than petite Asian chicks. I also don't know if it might be the fact that ive been working out my arms a lot more and it could have contributed to the "ease"-ness of this experience........

Either way my mind is still pretty set on the fact that we had a shitty instructor the first time around though. Now that i'm pro-hot yoga (i wasn't angry when i went to sleep that night!)!! I definitely want to incorporate it into my "fitness" lifestyle at least once a week so the heat can melt away the fatttttt in time for my trip!

Dominican Trip

That said- i am finally going on my first out of the continent trip in approximately 2 months-ish with a bunch of girls whom ive known for half a decade. Plans so far is doing the oh-so-popular all inclusive trip to the Dominican Republic for a week. It is going to be so effing awesome because it means dressing up and drinking every night. Both activities i enjoy very, VERY much. I'm also hoping MY COUSIN (u broke mine and K's heart by DECLINING THE INVITE SO QUICKLY sobs.) will come join because it would be even more fabulous if she did. Also its an OPEN INVITATION to the other girls (Katie, Re & Lil) if MizTran is able to (find time and money haha) come!!!!! Honestly if you girls can come, words cannot describe how unbelievably EPIC this can be. Ahhhh. lol The mister said he'll sponsor me if i want but i dont have the heart to ask me to buy me more clothes when now looking at it i actually have a lot more than i need. His sponsorship will probably go towards paying for Phone Cards since that's one of the conditions the mommy laid out. I would probably have to call home almost every day to let her know that i haven't been eaten by a shark or mugged by the locals. I am tres tres excited because the last time i went on a trip with K and S, the trip was fcuking AWESOME and that was within the province so i can only imagine how awesome this will be. Also its my 2nd time on the plane. PWAHHAH #NOOBFAIL. No further comments to that haha.

The only things that are in my way is:

• the Rat (might not let me take that many days off) APPROVED
  
• My (lack of) passport status
• Fat body (meaning Gym time is gonna have to be intense for the next 2 months so i can achieve that no-rolls belly)...kinda not really in my way cause l'll still GO.

My budget for this trip is $1200 bucks. That's including pre-shopping, trip fee (plane & accomendations & food), entertainment, passport fee and other necessities.  I am absolutely determined to stay under....wish me goodluck! lol More updates on the trip later!

Chinese New Years & Valentines Day

Chinese New Years is fast approaching and i always feel extra festive when it does. Its probably an AZN PRYDE thing. Hopefully the food wont overwhelm me and make me gain weight. Going to spend time with the family and then im actually allowed to spend VDAY with the mister...surprisingly. Its going to be a funnnnn weekend. =]]] <3 I'm also hoping i get my requested day off, to do all my errands and make it a FOUR day weekend lol

My DIY gift to the mister is slowly making progress. I'm waiting on my manager to obtain the essential "material" for me. Now if she fails, then i fail too and i am gonna end up with a failed DIY project and he'll end up with no Vday gift.

dot dot dot dot

dear god i cross my fingers and toes and hope she doesnt forget haha

fffound

(via Source)

Why are people so damn innovative??? After all these years with being partially handicapped when it comes to opening the damn packets, they've finally found a way to make me not look so stupid!!!!! Wahahaha.

Fourth Attempt @ Avatar in IMAX 3D

Heading says it all lol I think the mister and i are going to attempt it again tomorrow evening. Come on, who goes to the movies on Wednesday nights at 10:30.....aside from us. haha so lets all hope that we are able to see it even though I will probably be mad tired the next day. He has openly volunteered to drive me to work the next day (by staying over at my place) so i can sleep in for an hour more. Very sweet of him, i think l'll take him up on that offer.

ARGHHH I HOPE WE GET TO SEEE ITTTTTTT.



DONE AND DONE. !! Must do work now.

I choo-choo- CHOOSE you.

What do you get a guy that is into Design, Photography, Star Wars, Urban Outfitter-like Clothing, Interior Design, Bacon, Video Games, Reading, Fried Chicken, SNL, DOTA, Jazz Music, Napping, Rocky Road Ice Cream, Starbucks, Megan Fox, Filet-o-Fish, Manga, Marvel..........for Valentines Day????

For a guy who has a million interests, this should be easy!!!
Omg i am stumppped.

Hot Yoga made me sick

The other night my cousin, K and myself went and tried out Hot Yoga because it seems to be the "fad" thing to do with your girlfriends on a work evening. I really wanted to see what the hype was about and also sites were saying you can "trim CMs off of ur waist" if you incorporate hot yoga into your fitness regime and i think that pretty much sold me.

We went to Moksha Yoga Markham to discover you gotta take off your shoes/socks when you enter. It was a real bitch already b/c the room wasnt even properly carpeted and clearly wasnt big enough for everyone to take off their boots. Im sure its not problem during the summer but it was so nasty yesterday. Wet stinky feet much? The "Express" class we took was 17 bucks and i refrained from buying their 300 dollars 20 class package to see how i liked it first and im really glad i didnt because i came out of the class feeling nauseous and STRESSED. Honestly, who feels stress after YOGA? Uhhhhhh i did.

On their website, they had nooo warning whatsoever about participants needing to have STRONG endurance. Nor do they caution you to take a 60 minute class versus a 90 minute class if its your fist time because the heat was seriously overwhelming. I didn't even factor in that possibility when i went in the sauna-like room until we started doing the warm-up and i felt like i was going to die. There were two possibilities that could have happened. One, i pass out and totally embarrass K and my cousin (not very ideal). Or two, die in that room from the heat (Not the most ideal one either)!!! I swear the entire time in my head i thought i kept on thinking, the last thing i am going to be doing before i die is this stupid doggy hot yoga move with this bitch (the instructor)'s voice ringing in my ear. Just utterly wonderful.

Obviously i survived to tell my horrid tale.

So afterwards, we're about to leave the place we walk past the snooty instructor girl and out of courtesy (because i am so polite and nice) i thanked her for the class. She then begins to speak in a way where she was pretty much making fun of me and "teaching me" what i should do in life. I was so dumbstruck that i just walked away completely shocked at how bitchy and rude she was. I think if we walked any slower (or if she talked any faster) i think K would have punched her nose or something. She was extremely rude and to me, not instructor-worthy at all comparatively to all the instructors i've had at Goodlife. She was far from being friendly, thoughtful and informative about Yoga. I understand that you must be at a pace where the regulars won't be bored with your class but at the same time i would think a YOGA instructor should be very understanding and shouldn't judge whether you can complete her routine or not.

That said, today i had to leave work early because staring at the computer screen made me dizzy (reading gossip just wasn't at its usual height today) and the heavy feeling and stabbing pain in the head did not help at all. After my three hour nap my head still feels rather stabby. I suspect it was the heat that really hit me hard because i did two power-combat&pump classes prior to hot yoga (all in 5 hours) and i completely overworked myself. Conclusion to that is, i won't be returning to any of those classes that are taught by that bitch and i am either gonna try out Yoga Tree that is by the misters or Moksha Yoga Richmond hill which is ALSO by the mister lol. If i'm gonna return to the Markham location, its gonna be when i have much better endurance. I guess the whole "hot yoga twice a week" as a new years resolution is a big complete fail for me. And it hasnt even been two weeks into 2010!!!!!! !@#$!!!!

But seriously. Who gets angry after Hot Yoga? Isn't it all about the zen and tranquility!!!?? Gah It probably is just a kay thing, i have opposite reactions to everything i swear.

On another note. I'm also glad ur joining Goodlife jennut :  ) Ill see you next week!

Ooooookies. im done with my bitch rant. 

I also would like to announce a life goal of mine. Which is to find this hoodie:

A Bape DC Comics Superheroes White hoodie w/ a Batman, Wonder Woman, Flash Gordan and Superman print!!!!!!!!!!!!! (WITH SEWN ON EARS!!) Isn't it SO SO cute?!?! Even if it costs me two-three bills. And perhaps maybe travelling to either HK, JAP, LA, and/or NYC to get it- I willllllllllll buy it for LX....... so i can wear too.


WIN!

Felix Felicis

Can someone tell me where to go find some Felix Felicis aka Liquid Luck. Or some sort of good luck charm or something to rub off of?!?! Because the mister really needs it. = [

2009 Wrap-Up - Long and Boring

I know l'll be writing this post in pieces, hopefully it won't be too too choppy. At first I As tradition goes, ever since December 31st, 2005 over at dorkus_x@xanga, i've been typing up my reflections on my year and what i have learned in that year. Half a decade has past since then and now here I am typing up my first new years wrapup on blogspot. I was really debating how i should type this up but i think for the sake of my disorganized blogging tendencies i think l'll just do sections versus something else I had in mind.

On an overall note, i felt like 2009 was the year that I learned the most about myself and also the year that opened my mind up the most. I would say it was a good year- though i do hope very much that 2010 would be better for me financially and physically. As I get older, I don’t expect much so as the same as 2009, I don’t expect very much from 2010 because we are all going downhill. Haha

That said, 2010 marks a new decade. Ten whole years since 2000 when i was fourteen-ish and we all prepared for the MILLENNIUM. I can't even recall half the things i did and experienced in all that time. As sad as this may sound, but i doubt l'll ever experience the same excitement and drama that i went through in the past ten years in the coming ten years. I guess it will be different experiences but surely it won't be the same as highschool, GRADUATING from highschool (the worst commencement ever. i deliberately missed mine), my drunken drinking machine youth, entering GCM, graduating university, all the people i have met, wanted to kill, loved, meeting the mister, first graduate job, etc. In the next ten years i can only see bills and more bills for me haha.

And just a random FYI. 2010 was also the year Lisa Simpson got married in the 1995 episode.

ISNT THAT SO SO WEIRD!!!!!!....We’re SOOOO OLDDD.
Haha. Thought I would share that interesting point. Lol

Anyways now the fun stuff. I spent NYE with the mister’s sister and his brother-in-law and their cousins/brothers/friends, playing poker. It was a little weird at first because they're all MARRIED but thnx god they're fun people and didn’t make a big deal at the fact that I was the youngest, non-married person there. The original plan was to go watch Avatar in IMAX 3D but due to ridiculous circumstances we opted out for last minute poker instead lol I am having GREAT feelings about 2010 though because that same day (on NYE) I found 15 bucks cash at loblaws while shopping with the mister’s sister and won the bigger portion of the pot at Poker (it was my first time playing on my own with MINIMAL assistance from lx) and it was SUCH an awesome way to end 2009 and start 2010. Lets hope this lucky streak continues for the rest of the year.

Here are some of the New Years Resolutions that I realllllly hope to keep (again) but are most likely doomed according to statistics.


Career/Design
All my life I have always been the one that believes in working hard for a salary and coming home with stable income. This was very much heavily influenced by my dad whom I believe is the most hard working man I know. Nobody works harder than him to provide income for the family. This year because of the recession and the automotive industry downfall, both my parents lost their job and money definitely became a number 1 concern for all of us. I have seen him work labour intensive jobs over the past half year, watch him come home with sore knuckles and knees, putting his hands in medicine water in the evening to prevent shaking and to only watch him repeat all of that the next day because he refuses to put the burden on anyone else. I won’t talk about my job situation here in risk of compromising my current role but those whom ive talked to should understand why I need to stay even though....i should really leave. At the same time of course, after briefly sharing why I believe in working hard for a stable income, this year also made me realized how important it is to be ambitious and how critical it is to have passion in the work you are doing. Since I’m a heavy believer in just “making money”, I never really shared the same vision as the mister did when it came to “starting my own business”, or waiting out for the job that gives you “the” drive. I confess that for the longest time i’ve always felt like he was wasting his time when I believed making mediocore money is more practical than dreaming of big money. I am guilty of being complete narrow-minded (please forgive me!!!!!) until one morning when I woke up to go to work I felt no drive. I felt empty and the worst part was, I couldn’t design anything decent anymore. That scared me a lot because design to me is everything in my life. And then everything somehow clicked one night when lx and I talked well past 2am about what was really bothering me and what was making me change. All the past discussions lx and I had on goals, money and career, all the stuff that never got through to me somehow just made complete sense. I finally understand that it really isnt all about the money. Its about fulfilling yourself and doing what you love and for me its design...anddddd some other stuff that im not going to bring up. Most importantly though, I finally understood where he was coming from, why he has these plans and why he believes so strongly in certain things. I think its really hard for people to understand which is why I don’t expect anyone to. As long as I am able to understand myself, I believe the path would be a lot more clear......not to sound religious or anything like that.

In conclusion for 2010,

• I got to get my website up and going (I totally ditched that)
• Really reflect and figure out what I want to do in life and find direction
  Because its not even about money anymore...even though it probably is but for the sake of sounding less greedy, lets say its not.
  
• Find a more steady job
• Start financing, build a portfolio and save up for my dream.

Physical/Fitness/Appearance
This is on every girls’ resolution list and most of us fall off of it in the second day haha That said though I still gotta try and at least blog it down to remind myself that I did at the very least attempted to begin a more healthy lifestyle. I joined Goodlife fitness in July/August-ish and was doing rather great until I fell sick, and got my hives (TWICE) and work became insane and that’s when I stopped for three months. Gonna start up again with the following resolutionsssss:

• Find a sport that the mister and I can play and not be lazy about it
• Grow my hair longgggg.
  I am 4.5” away from my goal.
• Take care of my skin
  Meaning no picking at pimples, lots and lots of green tea and water to keep myself hydrated)
• Lose weight
  No number in mind. Just an overall difference and so I don’t feel so ugly in pics (noticed I don’t load pics anymore cuz I tend to go on a pics hiatus when im fat) and i also have five dresses i bought that i cannot wear with my current body size.
  
• Get back into my fitness regime
  Working out 3 times a week, strength train, cardio and hot yoga twice a week. any1 care to join me let me know!!! K and i are on this regime until S's wedding haha
  
• Go get my Physical test that ive over-procrastinate about
• Eat more fruits and make an effort to make sure every cooked meal has some kind of vegetable I can eat (even if it means yams everyday)

THINGS I WANNA DO/ACCOMPLISH/LEARN THIS YEAR:

• G2 G2 G2 G2 G2 G2
• PASSPORT PASSPORT PASSPORT
• Indoor Volleyball with the kids
• Outdoor Paintballing with the kids
• Cottege Cottege
• NYC NYC NYC
• Learn how to contour my face (haha sounds wrong) & how to use bronzer PROPERLY 
  
• Bake more
• Complete my DIY Projects
  
• Get my Full Set of Contacts for the year
  
• SWIMMING SWIMMING
• SNOWBOARD SNOWBOARD (not this season but the upcoming winter season cuz I don’t have gear and the mister and i r gonna go hunting for CHEAP CHEAP gear once the season is over in March-ish.)
• Finish my room reno by Summer 2010

I started this entry at work a few weeks before Christmas time, then christmas came and this completely went cold. Then I started up again at Starbucks while the mister is working but that failed on me too because I was in a really comfortable sofa chair and watching dramas while sipping on a nice grande Caramel Apple Spice (with whip and explosion of caramel sauce) and seemed more like the appropriate thing to do than to blog. Finally now im back and finishing this up at work.....heh. I guess that’s all? I KNOW I will be triple editing/adding onto this through-out the day.

Happy New Years to the people that come by my blog. Lots of thanks =] and wishing you guys the best of everything.

One Day

Disneyland Resort Paris, Marne la Vallée, France (via source)

I hope the mister can take me here one day. Or Disney World during Christmas to see Cinderella's castle covered in "ice" lighting.

we like to be silly

Today marks our 2.5 years.

Yeahhhhhhhhh that's it : ))))))

Economical Decisions

Last night after dinner with his parents, LX and i were completely clueless on what to do. We were too poor to call people to come out.... actually we didn't want to go out in general because going out requires money but we didn't want to be boring either. In the end, we decided that we wanted to watch a movie and/or go for ice cream floats @ Demetres. That's when our thinking caps turned on and came up with this:

Movie => Wanting to watch an older movie to save money on the ticket => Me suggesting we go rent one @ Blockbuster => Lx propose that we DOWNLOAD it instead => Saw V DVD Ripped in less than half an hour.

What would cost: $ 21.00 ==> Now costed: $ 0 [ SAVINGS OF $21.00 ]

Dessert @ Demetres => Ice Cream on Sale @ Shoppers Drug Mart => Coke at my house => Us Preparing => Homemade Ice Cream floats

What would cost: $ 4.99 (x2) + tax&tips = $12.59 ==> Now costed: $ 2.99 [ SAVINGS OF $9.54 ]

Aren't we so smart? I feel like we are ^^


Random:

I am so proud of my creation!! Ah, i keep on looking at it and love it more and more haha. A large congrats again to Sylvia and her fiancee. =]

3:30am

Its early in the morning. I'm laying in bed, blogging on my blueberry and still stressed to the max. Even though I have a million and one negative things going through my head, there's one thing that literally gives me the strength to face those million and one things.
That said I want to tell the world how much I love Lx. Thank you for putting up with me.
Okay done.
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October

Hmm, i know i've already posted twice today already (about twilight ^^) but suddenly my blogging mode switched on and because work tomorrow (frowns and sobs) is going to be stressful and frustrating i probably won't have anytime to blog from work like i normally do which is why i'm going to start word vomiting right now

It's Thanksgiving Monday and my family attempted to be festive but failed miserably and we ended up with salty turkey. I don't know why but the entire day i was really bitter and grouchy and i feel terrible for it, but every little thing somehow managed to annoy the crap out of me. I feel sorry for acting out this way, i guess i should try to make it up on another day. I blame the weather, for being so crappy and gloomy. & Rainy for the rest of the week. I can already foreshadow how grouchy l'll be for the coming week.

It's already the middle of October and i've been really disappointed up to this point so far. My life has been put on hold for almost two weeks because of this rash i got. I missed Nuit Blanche which to me was one of the bigger disappointments (again, will blog about that later), canceled several outings including my nails evening with C. Stopped gyming in fear my swollen face and neck would alarm people. I''ve gone to work with icepacks (3x) and replace them bi-hourly to ease the itch and my days and nights has gone by with an icepack to my neck, face and hands.

The only GOOD i can see that came from this rash, is a second chance at beautiful skin!! Haha as corny as that sounds, lx and i found the rash might have killed all the acne on my face and under advice from the dermatologist, my face is on its way to clear skin!!!!

Yes, the only good thing and now back to bad things.

Work has definitely gotten much more stressful and i dread going to work tomorrow to face the pile of codes i have to understand and sort through. Its been almost half a year since i've started to work here and i think it has gotten to a point where i'm so sick of being unappreciated and most importantly, being overworked and not being compensated for it. I can deal with the non-appreciative part, but the not being compensated (in wage or benefits) for my work has really begun to bother me. I'll leave it at that.

Anyways, i'm looking foward to the rest of October and hope only good things come out of it. My 30 month with LX next week (we're not celebrating it, i just like bringing it up lol), S's engagement dinner, L & LX's Bday and most importantly, Halloween. =D

My nails also need to grow faster b/c i have been manicure-deprived. On the subject of nails, i am waiting patiently for the new month to come so i can buy either that new MATTE nail polish @ Sephora or Dry Martini from Mac. I told myself that i'm only allowed one new color per month and since i used up this month's quota for Sephora's Dark Room (It's suppose to be dark Green but it actually looks black. I was very disappointed because i don't want another black polish and wished i bought Mac's Beyond Jealous instead), I'm not allowed to get anything else until November.

Moving onto shopping. I have told myself that i must really stop buying little things immediately because i need to save up for four larger purchases.

1. Insurance/Driving School
   I've come to realization that i only have 2 years to get my G and i am royally fukked hence the need to speed up the process and pray that it will come easy to me. I've been procrastinating since 2007 lol
   
2. Passport
   I have all my forms filled, i just need to go take that photo and head over to the passport office @ STC to get this over with lol This too, I've been procrastinating since 2007.
3. Winter Jacket
   Whether it be a TNA Jacket, a CND Goose, or some other brand one. I really would like to have a new one. I told myself since year 3, my graduate year WILL be the year i get a TNA jacket but i'm very hesitant because this year for some lame reason they only have the jackets made in Black, and i think either Brown or Green. All of which is not what i wanted because my heart was set out on purchasing the dark Navy blue one, and my second choice would have been the gray. Now since both my first (kind of my only choice) and second (passable) choice are not even MADE this year, i really don't want to even get it because everyone has the black one and the other two colors don't appeal to me. Thinking back, the one jacket i am literally HUNTING for is this gorgeous Zoo York one that i saw back in 07. Think TNA jacket but dark navy blue and red plaided-insides. Absolutely gorgeous and unfortunately i let that one slip by for only $225-ish. That's my winter jacket tale. 
4. New Glasses
   Fairly straight-forward, i'm tired of my current D&G ones, they've been horribly scratched up, abused and bent by me and i want to discard them for a pair of black Roberto Cavailli's that i've seen once make a special appearance on Sex & the City. i doubt l can find the same ones but l'll settle for anything similar.
5. MAYBE MAYBE- Uggs
   Alright i know the mister AND my cousin are intensely against me buying it (lol) and becoming a bear but i noticed the three boots i bought during my little insane spree are not really....erm warm and comfortable per say.... I know i totally deserve losing a toe or two for spending so much money on 3 pairs of Gossip Girl-like styled boots but i really need something comfortable for work......which is where Uggs come in!!!!! A pair of Classic Mini's in either Chestnut or Chocolate isn't asking for too much.....!!??? This of course is not a priority,which would let me of the hook for a bit.

That summarizes up the four (and one maybe) large purchases that i want to make and it's definitely going to be costly and be paid entirely by only yours truly. Yes even the glasses because i have no benefits!!!!!!!! Sighs.

Ah, i think i might have wanted to type more but its 10pm and i need sleep to face the day tomorrow. No Body Pump for me tmr because i pretty certain i'm staying late again.

Maybe l'll walk that extra 20 minutes to get myself a Starbucks tmr. Hmmmmmmmmmmm

10 Things Men don't like about Women

1. QUESTIONS - A man hates when a woman starts asking questions about everything, they dont go to the point, they like to play around with questions, to see if they can get you to confess something you did, its often known as trick questions, and only a few man know their way out of a non-stop questionaire of a woman.
2. TAKING FOREVER TO GET READY - Is there a thing a guy hates is waiting, guys have no patience what so ever, especially when is time to go out and a woman spends hours changing clothes and trying different stuff, a man hates when a woman takes time for every little action they take.
3. EMOTIONAL SHOULDER - Men dont like when woman treat them as another girlfriend or talk about feelings with them, men dont like to be treated as emotional support.
4. OPINIONS - Guys dont like when a women ask them for opinions especially when is girl related, examples are DO I LOOK FAT IN THIS? SHOULD I WEAR THIS ONE OR THIS ONE? and those are the most commons and most hated ask questions from women to men.
5. SEX WEAPON - Men hate when a women uses sex as a weapon, when they want to get something out of the man, or use excuses to punish a man by not having sex, that is one of the most hated it things known to men.
6. SHOPPING - Shopping with a girl has to be one of the worst punishments a guy could get, they simply cannot decide for anything, and they have to try every single piece to see if they like it, men do not have the patience for this and we including me know that 24 hours is not enough for a woman to go out and buy a pair of panties.
7. TALKING - Women are natural talkers, they can spend hours and hours talking non-stop about the same thing, and men hate this, they simply cannot stand a woman go on and on and on about something, specially when they talk about themselves.
8. CRITICISM - Men don’t like a woman criticizing or judging another woman, we think is unnecessary and treat other women as rivals or criticize other women’s clothes, shoes and pretty much anything they dont like on them.
9. SILENT TREATMENT - This another most hated things from women known to men, the silent treatment is a stage a girl uses to not talk or even look at you while you try to talk or explain something to them, its like a man doesnt exist to them and it could go on for days.
10. GOOD MEMORY - Is there one thing we men hate is the women’s good memory to bring back past mistakes we men made, they can remember the details and every time a discussion happens they bring it up to make you miserable and make you remember every mistake you have done in the past year.
    
    (via source)
    

Really? Does guys really hate all this? I'm guilty of pretty much all of that haha and even worst i think i do #1,3, 4 and 8 excessively. Dear gawd the mister must hate me so so much hahaha

Starbucks Addict

Gah and here you people think i am a Starbucks freak, always hanging around there lol. I'm a noob compared to this guy! Bringing his mini mac and his 15" monitor with the keyboard and the works!

Quick update.

i missed Nuit Blanche yesterday night (will write an more in-depth blog entry on my feelings on that) because the mister assessed my face and felt like i was in no shape to leave the house, let alone walk around Toronto until sunrise. So, i stayed home and was bitter (because he made me chop my nails) while watching Legend of the Condor Heroes 94 (the one with Chi Lam!) until 3am.

Face is slightly better today, but probably only due to the fact that i have an icepack/cold compressor bag stuck to my face every waking AND sleeping second. Hopefully a right can come out of this mess of wrongs. What i mean is hopefully this rash on my face can lead to my face clearing up. I also need to really buckle down and start detox-ing my system and begin a meal plan for the next few months. I need to start watching and taking care of my health because indirectly that will affect my weight and appearance of my skin in a positive light. I'm fairly confident i can do it, the only obstacle is making the time, or rather setting a time aside for me to plan for it all and of course, discipline above all. If lx can quit smoking for me (and of course himself), i know i would be able to do this for him and myself.

Yeah that's about it.

Jumble of Thoughts

This picture makes me feel so so sad.

Maybe because long hair means a lot to me and I currently miss mine terribly. (God what was i thinking when i cut the four inches long. Did i forget how freaking long it takes for my hair to grow?! Gahhhhh) OR because there's like a couple of thousand things going through my mind and i just want to go body combat all of it out of my head. Since my thoughts aren't exactly too organized right now, l'll start type-jotting things again.

So why are there a couple of thousand things going through my mind right now. Last night the mister left my place well after midnight (and that's REALLY late b/c i'm normally in my bed and under my covers by 10:30pm) because we spent the night talking (about pretty much everything) and he left me with a lot of questions and a lot of things to think about.

That's the thing i absolutely love about Lx, is his objective perspective. There's that saying/quote or whatever that says "You should think outside of the Box"- i personally feel that he is able to do everything that quote asks for and more. I find its very hard to take a step back and be objective when there are a million monkeys (metaphorically speaking) surrounding you with chatter and as a result you become trapped in this so called "box". I am glad he is able to step out of that. That said, being someone that thinks with their mind but act on their heart, it's very hard for me to be objective when 101% of the time i am influenced by my emotions or the emotions of others (and how they would feel if i make a certain decision). Having him explain and share his perspective not only helps me become stronger (if not immediately) but also makes me consider a lot of things, which brings me to present-day and my essay-like typing for the past twenty minutes.

Sorry to bore. That's the end of that rant.

Next. I love the gym, it makes me feel wonderful but i'm not seeing results and its discouraging me. It kind of sucks because my main motivation was to look fantastic for Halloween (notice i said Halloween and not my birthday. I love Halloween way more than my own birth-day so lets not disappoint the dork this year!)

And this ice coffee isn't perking me up either.

I need a higher paying job too.

& a hair straightener. Yeah. I got my hair trimmed with twin last weekend @ a small Korean place and the results was fantastic. Straightened, thinned, styled, 20 bucks!!! I heart. But it becomes a bush again after a wash so all that is kind of useless if i go back looking like Aslan the lion. Any suggestions on where and what brand/kind i should get since im kinda a hair-straightener noob? i will luv you forever and thanks.

I still need to go stalk the other BMV locations. Alice in Wonderland is really dry.

OMG it just hit me. I just had a total EUREKA moment. I know EXACTLY what i can get Tall Jenn for her Birthday and she would absolutely LOVE IT. My only dilemma is, i HAVE to go to Urban Outfitters ASAP before it sold out. My vague memory reminds me i only saw two left at the store and its sold out all over America and apparently Vancouver. SHit shit shit shit.

Oh and this made me feel uber great:


That's my popularity at its all time highest over at Tumblr. I feel special. ('Mind you that its normally at ZERO). Yeah...i should stop spending time on the internet and do some REAL LIFE EXCITING ACTIVITIES!!!! Note: the sarcasm.

Nuit Blanche next week! I am tres excited because i consider the free 'contemporary arts night' to be something special between lx and i but since we both are so boring now (haha), we don't mind going with other people. I also miss coco and albie. The other night i spent half an hour on the phone with coco and we both agreed that we need to do something in the near 2-weeks future because we've been deprived of each others company. I do hope i get to see them both soon.

Lastly, I apologize again for the lack of structure and sense in this rant. & i did not realize this would turn into a word vomit. And and! Even though i sound so terribly depressed, frustrated and upset- i'm feeling actually quite fine but just a little tired (from lack of sleep). That would explain the lack of my usual bubbly (online) presence.

Good day.

"i thought we agreed on celebrating our anniversary, ANNUALly"

Getting sick.

I can so feel it.

Tense/aching jaw, stuffy nose, heavy head, semi sore-throat, pashmina scarf not sheltering me enough and clearly not enough warm green tea.

Sighs.

But a big Happy 29months and two days to the mister and i ! Despite him not counting months but rather years, i still do it anyways! I count both years and months. And days. When i'm really bored.

Bye!

extreme withdraw

title says it all. ahhhhhh