a hearty long read

ROFL SO TRUE!!!!!!!!!!!! ANDDDDD, as someone said- If the Nat and Mila made a movie, it'd be "Black Swan II" HAHAH IRONYYYY

Anyways.

Hello everyone. I know that i've been totally MIA. I promised a blog post. I promised to keep up with my photo challenge but i've failed and i'm sorry. There's just been SOOO much going on and i feel like i have no time to do anything (aside from gymming. Seems like im there a lot eh).

Primarily im preoccupied with four things: Work (Freelance & Job Interviews), Arsenal Asia Tour & Transfer News, Comic Con planning and everything else that i will lump into MISCELLANEOUS.Thought i should do a quick rant while BLOG MODE is still on.

1. Work (Freelance & Job Interviews)

Before i head out to SanDiego, i really needed to finish up revisions if i want to be paid. Also, i've spent the past few days working on a design practical as part of a hiring process for another job interview that i got for ANOTHER company. Shit, doesn't it feel like something i've said before??? And to add onto that, about an hour ago i received a phone call to arrange a prelim phone interview with a second company this coming friday. This is getting a bit fucking ridiculous. Every time it SEEMS like i am getting close to a hire......something happens but NO FEAR, i have (yet) ANOTHER prospect lined-up. Clearly, im doing something right with my job-applying and its also very clear that its something that i am not doing or doing wrong during the final round of the interview process. I mean, i made it through first of all of them, you'd THINK i was doing something right. Apparently not. Ugh. #FML.

Wish me good luck though nonetheless! I gotta start prepping for it after finishing typing this up. Don't forget to send those prayers this way!!!!

2. Arsenal Asia Tour & Transfer News

You people will PROBABLY think this is silly. But no, this is not a laughing matter nor a matter to be taken lightly. Currently my team are in Malaysia and will be traveling to CHINA to play some friendlies with the teams there. Every day i busy myself with tweetpics and tweets of how theyre doing in asia and as well concerning myself with new players who might be joining the team and those who are leaving. It's extremely overwhelming and ive expressed this to people re: how its been effecting my mood. Twitter lately hasn't been a very good place to be lately for fans like myself. But seriously though, this consumes my life.

3. Comic-Con

Indeed we are in the final countdown days until i head to San Diego!!!! Not only are there up-to-date news almost every hour for me to stay on top of, there's also the scheduling that I am SO STRESSED OUT about. Its not even FUNNY how much i have to plan for.

Just to clarify what goes on at the convention. The San Diego Comic-Con (or #SDCC) is not just an enormous party where the participants are geeks, nerds and wizards. We don't just go there to read/buy/trade comic books, to dress-up, to get autographs from comic writers and illustrators and to have jedi, telekinesis mind-sex with the opposite sex. Sure all that STILL happens (ha ha) but there's more to it including something call PANELS. Panels are basically seminars/talks/presentations. It can be anything from: Obsession: How TV and Movies Go from Fascination to Phenomenon? to Oh, You Sexy Geek! to The Vampire Diaries Screening and Q&A.

In the recent years, the TV and Movie industry caught on, on this wicked-ass gathering and decided to use this event as a method of marketing whatever they wish to promote. So tv shows such as, Supernatural, Vampire Diaries, Dexter, Bones, Chuck, True Blood, Game of Thrones, Family Guy, Futurama, Big Bang Theory et more, were/are all present. CAST INCLUDED. In the past, movie previews inclded Alice in Wonderland, Sherlock Holmes, all the obvious superhero movies (X-Men, Ironman, Spiderman, Thor, etc), Tron, Twilight, Harry Potter, again, all present with the cast.


Overall its really just a huge event for geeks to unite. And lots of free swag.

Now that i've kind of explained comic con, Visual:

Yes, that is the schedule for the panels (which ive obviously shrunk to emphasize all the material im drowning in) that are available for the 3 days i am there (the convention is 4 days but im leaving that Sunday afternoon) and myyyyy task right now is to PLOW THROUGH THEM. Deciding what i REALLY want to see, what are my backups and of course, factoring in WAITING TIME for the bigger stuff i want to see. i.e. The Big Bang Theory panel which is currently more popular than the TWILIGHT panel #GEEKSUNITE.

i, repeat. i am SO stressed.

4. MISCELLANEOUS

And behold, the things i need to do and the faces i must see!

• Gym- I've been going at it pretty hardcore for the past 2 weeks. Doing two-three hour sessions, 4.5-6 times a week. Another thing that i've brought up amongst friends, is how unhappy i still am with the way i look. I'm unhappy because I know i can do better, i can look better than this. Why should i settle when i know that i am capable of achieving my ideal physique? That's what i tell myself anyways. Its a good thing that i love food way too much because I'm starting to sound like a Bulimic.
  
  
• Going out. Seeing people - No surprises here. There's peoples faces i want to see, birthdays to celebrate, catch-up that must occur. Enough said, those take up time. Not a complaint though.
  
  
• HARRY POTTER COUNTDOWN- The time has come. After ELEVEN years, it is FINALLY coming to an end, the Harry Potter movies. I have my tickets ready for Friday, I am ready to bawl my fucking eyes out, I am ready to say good bye to my childhood with twin beside me. It is going to be disgustingly epic. I'm going to type up a Harry Potter-related entry soon to commemorate friday. Await.

# # #

and just like that I ACTUALLY BLOGGED SOMETHING.

BOOOOO-YAH.

I MISS YOU BLOGGING

I really ought to start blogging again. I miss sharing my thoughts and randomness and i'm sure as hell you guys miss reading stuff from me. Shockingly, people STILL come by to see whether or not i've updated (thank you oh loyal stalker ones). I guess i owe you guys THATT much for sticking by me. I'm considering whether i should pick up where i ended that 10 day Tumblr Challenge that i NEVER actually finished. HA (You can go through them by clicking on the BLOG PROJECTS link on the side there or here) Or just completely start a new one. The idea of starting a new one is extremely tempting at the moment so i probably will do that. I will be starting another Project 30 Day (older one can be found here or the entire month of September 2010) aka. the Photo project that EVERYONE loved. I shall begin that next WEDNESDAY when i get my camera back from someone. cough. haha <3

So. What's new eh. AHHHHHHHHH

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Haha wow. I am SO terrible at this now i don't even know where to begin. ESPECIALLY because.....its almost 2am and i haven't updated in so long i don't remember what i have done anymore (happens with old age and lots of drinking) since my last, long word vomit entry. OKAY MAJORLY OFF. I FELL ASLEEP. ITS ACTUALLY 330 PM RIGHT NOW AS I'M TYPING THIS. I'M ALSO ROYALLY ANNOYED BUT THAT'S NOT THE POINT RIGHT NOW. Holey crap MAJOR DELAY.It is officially four days later since i STARTED this blog, i am DETERMINED to finish it TONIGHT. RWAR.

i digress. moving on-

I'm still in the middle of this finding a job crisis. I'm getting pretty nervous again. The place that called me back for a 2nd interview has "delayed" the hiring because of some internal crisis so now im just AWAITING for them to sort that crisis out and see if they remember to call me. I don't even know what to do. I'm still applying (DAILY) for positions but seriously.....Graphic Design is hard stuff. Looks like I have to start doing "cold" e-mailing. I kind of wish they can get it over with, and just reject me if they really aren't that interested in me so i can move on.

Other points of interest

• San Diego ish in LESS THAN A MONTH
  Indeed kids. I will be in San Diego for comic con next month. Its starting to REALLY hit me because schedules of panels are coming out, more things are confirmed to be at the convention. It will be absolutely EPIC. The boys and i just need to wrap up some loose ends and i shall be off, snogging Ian Somerhalder. Hopefully. hahah Unfortunately, I will be missing an epic Canoe Summerlicious Dinner date w/ zee girls. I am quite sadden that l'll be missing it but hopefully when i return we can have another nights out at Brants. I'll be adding onto this subject more and more as the day gets closer.
  
  
• Reading Percy Jackson series / a lil rant
  The other day at BMV i was able to find the ENTIRE Percy Jackson and the Olympian Gods boxed series in HARDCOVER for only 30 dollars which is a STEAL because each book usually costs about 25 dollars anyways (FYI. I try to buy only hardcovers, especially when it comes to series. I have a thing for hardcover books). 
• Been reading that and even though i'm only on book 3, i would have to put it as 4th on my "Favorite Book Series of all times" list. Extremely entertaining, but NO WHERE near Harry Potter (#1), Twilight or the Hunger Games (which fights for #2). 
• Also, don't judge me......because i read "childrens" books. These childrens books are GOOD. Ohkay. 
• Earlier I was part of a discussion re: Harry Potter vs. Twilight. People were comparing the two series. For someone like me who is a HUGE (and proud) obsessive fan of both series- i get majorly annoyed when that happens. Its like comparing apples and oranges, seriously, dont be stupid now. If ANYONE has any say on this, i would think id be the one that has the most legit argument. Ugh. // rant done.
• The Percy Jackson books also reminded how much i love Greek Mythology. I think if was rich and my family did not depend on me to bring home cash nor would i ever need to support myself in this lifetime, i would study Greek Mythology because its geniunely a subject that I've always enjoyed since i heard my first Greek Myth in grade 6. Too bad my life isn't that ideal.
  
  
• Freelance Work
  Been busy as hell with freelance work. Might have slightly mentioned this before in previous blog entries but A and I are going to tag team and come together to work on a special project. I'm pretty excited about that, i think things should be pretty awesome once we have something to show.
  
  
• Beastmode
  Since December i've put on a disgusting 10lbs. Fortunately for me, Combat and Weights HAVE paid off and i've lost 4lbs in the past 2 months (HUGE for me!). Just another 6 to go and l'll be back to how i was LAST August (which i considered to be the first time in my life where ive been the fittest AND skinniest ive ever been in my life).
• I do have a new goal though, which is to reach that DREAM weight and physique by my 25th birthday this year. Essentially November 2nd is my deadline. You know. Birthday and all. I like being monumental about certain occasions. 
• All my life i've been big (im serious) and i would REALLY like it, if by my quarter of a century i can finally reach that ideal physique so i can look at myself in the mirror and be proud of the way i look and not be ashamed as i have been all my life. Going to work really hard for that. 
  
  
• I MISS ARSENAL
  ENOUGH SAID. I MISS WATCHING ARSENAL PLAY SO MUCH AND GOING INSANE.
  

fjhskjskfkldsjfdlsk i think im done.

Damnit i REALLY am losing my touch. Must work hard. Don't want to lose that blogging momentum. EVER.

but ya. there u go. AN UPDATE.

TEEE SHIRT WEATHER

OK. HERE IT IS. UPDATE UPDATE.

[ The weekend is done again and i know i promised/sorta, an entry yesterday but i got lazy and procrastinated and the next thing you know its 1230am and i need to sleep to get up for 7am, for a 9am game at the pub. My apologies, sleep was definitely priority seeing i did not get much of it from the past weeeeek. ] <- As you can see i wrote this YESTERDAY. I was not lying.

So from my previous couple of entries, you kind of get the idea that i was so exhausted to a point of insanity. To recap, i had an interview with a really awesome company for a position that's pretty much "tailored" for me. I really did NOT think i had a chance even though i fit the description of the type of person they are looking for. Reason being is that i responded to it from seeing a posting on Monster and everybody knows, how many hits Monster gets- especially for design jobs. Anyways, didn't think i would be called back but they did. The catch here was that they called a day AFTER i took my laptop in for servicing. They listed a lot of specific things they wanted me to bring in as portfolio pieces and being the big fukken dumbass that i am- i have none of that backed up. It was ALL on that laptop that is in servicing, that won't be available for me until 2 weeks later. Thankfully after a rant with the cousin after i read the call-back e-mail, i somewhat formulated a game plan which was pretttttttttttty much to RECREATE several pieces and create a kick ass presentation. I had about 4.5 days to do all that. Even though it sounds like a lot of time, it actually wasn't. During those couple of days even though i managed to get in 6 hours of sleep, it was extremely mentally exhausting because i would get up at 8am to start working at it and literally grind at it until 2 am. I did 7 hour starbucks session, i also somehow managed to fit in an hour or two at the gym and obvs my downtime which included eating/crapping/showering.....QUICKLY. There were many, MANY instances where i started to doubt myself and wondered whether I was being a little bit too ambitious with what I was trying to achieve for this interview. At the end though, i ACTUALLY finished on schedule (surprisingly) and i personally thought i did an amazing job given the amount of time i had and the shitty slow old laptop i was using.

For anyone that cares- the interview went amazing. I hope i dont jinx myself by saying this but i am SO confident that i made the short-list for round 2. Okay maybe i shouldnt have said that because now i dont feel so confident no more after i typed it out. ah fakerys.

Moving on.

The other evening was also the night of the advanced screening of Something Borrowed that i won tix to (remember?!?!). The movie itself was absolutely fantastic. I LOVED it. Every minute. I loved it so so much i'm actually going to watch it again with K this week. As mentioned before, i am so in love with John Krasinski. After watching the movie i am even MORE in love with him. It is definitely time to download all seasons of the Office. And of course at the end of the movie, C and I managed to take a picture with the main actor. I'm totally taking this experience as practice to when i actually meet one of my Arsenal boys and i won't fan girl the fuck out in front of them. Thumbs Up and Big Grins.

Now, some quick point-form thoughts-

• E.I - So i've been informed that i will be not receiving employment insurance benefits as i thought i would be. This kind of spoils the summer in a way where i won't be able to patio as much, go out as much, go on certain camping trips and road trips, and obvs no new summer wardrobe. That said im hoping, hoping to be hired sooooon because i can't support this lifestyle of mine for very long on the savings i have. Wish me good luck kiddies.
• Beastmode- Since i'm unemployed and the gym is STILL taking money from my acct every month, i'm trying really hard to get fit and down to how i was last summer. I discovered the other week that i actually gained TEN pounds since December. Very, VERY bad. So beast mode totally on. That said, i think i am in the best shape i've ever been (not as good as last summer but close enough) health-wise. Like i've said many times before, i'm fueled by negative energy when i work out. Hence why i look like i am going to kill someone when im at the gym. I don't like people being in my way. I think that's the competitive nature side of me. I'm quite a competitive and jealous person by nature.
• HARRY POTTER- Had to add this. The trailer for the 2nd part of the 7th book aka 8th movie came out and as always- EPIC. EFFING EPIC. Watch watch watch.
• Osama Bin Laden's Death- For everyone's whos celebrating, i dont really think there's that much to celebrate for. I mean, even though the man is dead- his ideas and legacy isn't. And my thought was confirmed when Al Queda sent out that "chilling threat" on their website. Something along the lines of "Americans blood will mingle with our tears.....his death will be a curse to you americans and your agents......" x lovely. now they're upset. Definitely not something worth celebrating over, no?

Ok i've delayed with other work and posting this long enough.

Sorry kids if ive become boring.

White Mocha Americano Misto - ORDER. ITS GOOD.

Yesterday i woke up from what i think was only 6 hour of sleep (in which i was certain i woke up to puke once but it was very fuzzy)  and decided that i was going to go work out! With a hangover! Good thing i did because it was a really great workout and i didn't really feel my hangover until the abs track where i got a crazy nauseous, head rush when laying on my mat. I guess i didn't combat it away after all. Anyways, it was BEAUTIFUL outside today and I decided to nurse my hangover outdoors instead of staying in. I knew it was nice, but i didn't know that it was NINETEEN DEGREES NICE.

Thus began my journey downtown to the harbourfront to read. Yesh, i bussed my ass downtown to read at that man-made urban beach (HTO Park)

It was REALLY windy. I don't know why it was so shocking to me because it IS by the lake. Anyways, it was actually quite nice, where i sat. I had a starbucks, i had my book (now reading, Girl with a Dragon Tattoo...which is on hold now for me to finish Something Borrowed), my blackberry was away and ipod on. It was quite blissful for a good couple of hours sitting there and not really having a care in the world. When i look up the first thing i see is the water or sometimes there's a plane that flys by because Toronto Islands Airport is right there. I think this summer these solo trips will be frequent. I've gotten to enjoy spending time on my own- as lonely as that sounds.

Oh,

and i watched "Water for Elephants". The movie was surprisingly GOOD. Robert Pattinson....was....actually....a GOOD ACTOR!!! I KNOW, OMFGBBQ right??? I hope since he's a better actor now, he would be a really awesome Edward in the last twilight movie. I also was positively reminded of how hollywood handsome he is.

MMMM. YAR. I am totally up and all over the R.Patz alley again. Total fan-girl mode was on during the entire movie. No shame.

This was kind of a random post with no real purpose. Something for you guys to read i guess. Gotta start being productive this week. I had a good two weeks "off". Pressure on again.

Peace out.

"big" boned.

i guess ur allowed to say that when ur so rich.
but at the same time, very ballsy of her.

i owe you guys a nice lil read

This one is interesting!

Day 4- Seven things that cross your mind a lot.

1. MoneyThis is on my mind ALL. THE. TIME. But then i think its on everyone's mind because money IS everything. The people who say its NOT everything are people who clearly people who are delusional....and very not superficial. I'd rather not meet these people. That said, being newly unemployed (yet once again!) its time for me to be real cautious about my spending. But not even that, money has always been a huge ongoing issue for me. A lot of people may think that i have an excessive amount of dispoisable income but that's REALLLY not the case. I mean sure, i go to starbucks a lot but i actually order the cheapest thing on the menu (and also because i know some money saving tricks, it just seems like im ordering something delicious and expensive) and i save money on a lottttt of other stuff. I could probably save even more if i stopped drinking, but that's just me being unrealistic. I pay for a lot of stuff on my own, i don't ask for money and i also help my parents out with a very large expense that they carry on top of my OSAP debt that i owe the father (both my parents are unemployed at the moment 'mind you). So yeah, i'd say money is always on my mind especially when friends ask me to go out or to go out trips. I have to be very strategic about whom i can dine/lunch with. I can't always dine with one person and neglect another. I know, im terrible. I'm so sorry guys, i wish i can eat/go out/vacay/dine with ALL you guys :( but i know people are fairly understanding, so im very thankful for that.
2. Career Along with money, the thing that's im always fussing about - is what i want to do with my life. Where do i want to go, what do i want to do, what do i like doing, what CAN i do, what am i currently doing, etc. etc. I remember the cousin asked me what i was aiming to do/to be in 10 years and i really had zero idea. I mean i am barely getting by figuring out what i want to do a year from now (aside from wanting a stable, permanent, full-time job.....details are foggy) let a lone 10 years! That said this time around (being unemployed i mean) i really have to be more focused. I literally wasted a year and its not something i am too proud of.
3. BrotherMy brother's well-being, future, what he's up to, etc is ALWAYS on my mind but do i do anything about it? No. Simply said- i'm a bad sister and i am horribly ashamed and disappointed in myself. Sometimes i feel like, what right do i have to go trolling on him about what he's doing with his life when i barely know what i am doing with mine? Guilty as charged....sighs.
4. FamilyIt just might be the type of person I was brought up to be but i constantly think about my family and their future. I might not always show it but i always feel the need to have to take on the traditional eldest role and just take care of everything for my parents and of course, brother. I think this mentality is going to stick with me for life thus its very hard for me to, want to be ambitious in certain areas of my life because I will always want to be around to "take care" of them. In my mind, I'm not allowed to be selfish because i am the eldest.
5. The Way i lookThis sounds SO uber superficial of me but its true. My physical appearance is ALWAYS on my mind. Whether its my hair (which has to be straightened 80% of the time or i will not leave the house!) or my nails has to be nice (and not chipped/cracked) and obviously my weight. For someone who grew up always as the big girl (literally, in width AND height) in the group, people choosing to be your best girlfriends friend instead of yours because you're dorky looking and fat and wore bad clothes, or guys not giving you the time of the day because they judged you on your appearance - it kind of makes you superficial in that way.
6. Future Wedding Lame. I can't believe i am OPENLY admitting this on a public blog and it will probably incriminate me in the future (i guess l'll deal with it then) but i always find myself looking at wedding-related things and i would think "hey, i'd like that at my wedding" and save that inspiration in my ever-growing file of wedding inspirations. Hell, K even bought me a vintage typewriter (which i play to spraypaint white lol) for my birthday and its actually INTENDED for my future wedding. Fukked right? Yeah typing that out is actually a bit overwhelming lame. First off, i don't have a boyfriend and lets say if i ever do and it leads to you know, this actually happening....i'm hoping i can massage "him" into the plans i already have. HA. Lame once again. Can't help myself though.
7. PastWhat runs through my head a lot, are what if's. I linger and analyze details of the past a lot. I don't just think about recent things either. I still replay stuff that's happened 8 years ago. Perhaps this is my way of dealing with things but it happens a lot when I am alone. Sometimes i would replay it in my head over and over again, and look for those first signs of trouble. This might be why I am so analytical with my dreams and am so obsessed with the details. I find unspoken actions speaks volume as oppose to actual words being said. I wonder a lot, obsessed with alternate endings and scenarios. It's actually very unhealthy lol With that said, just because i think of the past a lot does not mean i linger. I sincerely believe what's meant to be will always find a way. At least i tell myself that otherwise l'm certain i will go insane with this unhealthyness haha.

That's that!

But because i owe you guys so much more to read, i'm going to KEEEEP on going haha.

Yesterday was my last day of my contract work on friday and it was pretty bittersweet. I did my rounds of goodbyes at the office and it was particularly hard with one of the ladies there because she was actually my "manager" when i worked there during highschool and she remembered me very well when i returned this time around. Saying a goodbye a second time around was a little sad. Since i'm unemployed again, three main things i need to concentrate on.

One- i need to go easy on the spendings. 
Because E.I this time around is not going to cut it. No more celebrity lifestyle for me yo. Expect to not see me that much people. Heads up now. 
Two- beast mode the shit outta my body.
Not only is it because it's summer, but because i know that i am capable of being "fit", i won't settle for less than that so going have to work harddddd alllll over again. Started jogging last night, it actually felt great. I think i'm going to start doing that.
Three- Work on finding a full-time job. 
Obvs, priority yo.

Ugh ugh i actually wanted to blog more buttttt because i am so "on top of things" today, will forego the stuff i wanted to rant about and do it another day.

Going to do nails, finish up "Unstoppable", read a bit more of "Catching Fire" (part of The Hunger Games trilogy aka THE BEST I'VE READ IN A VERY LONG TIME) and then sleep to wake for my 830 game tmr morning.

Hope that's enough of a read for now!

Durian stinking up mah house yo.

I know ive been totaly behind but bleh. I haven't really been home that much for the past week anyways. I've ALSO been like doubling my intake of calories for the past 4 days straight so im feeling very fatty again. As follows:

Wed: Drinking, Nachos & Yam fries for a late 10pm dinner
Thur: Drinking & butter chicken and poutine wings & creamy dips for fries
Fri: Filet Mignon, Disgustingly buttery Escargot and about 3000 calories in drinking
Sat: Buttery, Creamy, Garlic-y, Jap food. Oh and a delish starbucks and SB treat

Bahhhh. I need to work out every day this week yo.

Now, something for you all to read:

Day 2- Nine things about yourself.

1. I have a love for books. Specifically - hardcovers. I know a lot of people hate it because of the weight that comes with it but i adore them. I want to have my own library one day too. That said i also love book stores. I can spend hours by myself in Chapter or a 2nd hand book store. The smell and the coziness makes me feel safe, not sure why. Its kind of weird actually.
2. I have very, VERY sensitive skin. To a point where i break out in rashes and hives in other parts of my body too if my face has a reaction to a certain product. That goes with lip balm/lip gloss/lipstick too. Half of the lip balm available at shoppers, i cannot use (i have tried) because my lips swells up like sausages and become itchy like a bitch. Not a very pretty visual l'll tell you that.
3. You will never catch me without having my nails done. And if you do - its probably because i am deathly sick.
4. It takes me about an hour and a half....ish to straighten my hair. On contrary to the popular belief that it takes me FOUR hours to complete the task. haha
5. Red wine gives me the worst hangover out of all the alcohols. Red Wine and VODKA together just means death....and trouble.
6. My very first email address was astrobaby2000@yahoo, second e-mail was eatin_ricewitchopsticks@yahoo and my third and last retarded email is my current MSN one which i will not disclose here because i still use it lol. Lame eh.
7. That said my "social media" days started on Asianavenue as got_rice_angel to silent_serenity, which escalated to saymuidang on xanga, doing a last change to dorkus_x and finally here.
8. I'm actually not very open to different kind of music. Its either gotta be slow, emo, sappy and in Canto/Mando/English or its gotta be like, grinding music you'll hear at the club. There's rarely any in-betweens and when there is then its um, you know, rare.
9. i check out girls. all the time. its so perverted of me but i do it.

I feel like i've done so many of these, there's nothing left for me to share that you stalkers don't already know!! That's why it got kind of boring at the end because i really wanted to wrap this up lol I shouldddd be more on top of this soon though given that my contract is ending on Friday.

3rd last day of work tmr! Gotta straighten the hair now. HA. lol

Beast Mode: Spring & Summer Edition

Summer is quickly approaching and i REALLY need to buckle down and freaking get back into my beast mode regime that i started last summer that i sadly, failed to keep up as the winter months approached. I felt i could get away with wearing large shirts and black tights all season. Now the season to wear dresses and no tights is fast approaching thus the need to lose my huge middle area because face it- people judge you no matter what people say.

See. Gerard butler totally judging. lol TRUEEE SAYYYY.

Things to do and change up!

• Gym, gym, gyM
  A no brainer. Start up with weight training again, continue w/ combat, do more cardio inbetween, attend a new class and throw in kickboxing/Muay Thai again.
• Hot Yoga
  Cousin and i were discussing whether this actually helped or not. I was a bit on the fence but she was convinced that it did help with the toning and weight loss last summer. Perhaps its a placebo effect but im sold lol I want to start up again with the cheap classes. lol
• Drink water and green-tea like a fish
  Okay maybe not a fish because i don't know if fishes drink the water they swim in....bahahha. But the idea is there. 
• Eat out MAX, three times a week
  Not only am i noticing myself eating out ALOT, but it's also become expensive too. Since i am on a bit of a budget at the moment, this SHOULD help the wallet and waistline. 
• Drink three times a week
  This is a BIT harder because i drink......almost every other night (AT MOST, NOT EVERY WEEK). The fact that i dont really mind the taste of beer anymore (ewww yucky. i converted. sorta. i knowwwwww. bleh)....doesn't really help the cause. I also drink socially for futbol, dinners, parties and for no reason at all. Right.......so i'm going to try. Wish me good luck on this one. 
• Going to REALLY try it with the veggies this summer....
  Enough said. I should. Before i lose friends because i am such a weirdo.
• When at Starbucks-
• Allowed to have a yummy SB pastry only once a week 
• Allowed to have a relatively creamy-sb drink once every 2 weeks but stick to non-milk beverages. Avoid cream (liquid. Not whip. I've always said no to whip).

Moderation is key! I know i can do this because i did it last summer!!!

On a completely random note:
I am currently debating whether if i should spend a bit of my tax return money on an ipod that has more space (only 2 gigs), sync's (it just stopped one day), locks (because of the next point) and doesn't have a metal piece sticking out of the top (which interfers with where the lock button is). AKA, a new one.

errrrr i don't have 27 songs on the ipod. it's actually just a playlist that has 27 songs for those wondering lol

Absolute fail yo. In my own defense though..........i didddddd have it and used it religiously almost every day for the past 3.5 years. Okay fine, its still a fail. Along with the fact i accidentally swallowed some cleanser as i was washing my face earlier tonight. I'm uber cool aren't i.

A Reading Treat

i feel like i haven't blogged in SO long and its gotten to a point where i dont even know where i should start. i'm sorry. ive been so lazy and ive been out and abouts. Guilty as charged! My readers must be dropping like flies. Sobs. Please come back. I promise to update more!!!!! I am pretty disappointed in myself if that makes you guys come back. I will also try to be as entertaining as possible.

STATUS: Its currently 1110pm, and the weather in my room is COLD. My fingers are like icicles and im wearing a hoodie w/ the hood on. What happened to the "supposed" storm anyways? Oh and might i add- im hungee as a fat grizzly bear.

...............................

Okay that was a lame intro. Not at ALL up to my usual entertaining par. So here's something entertaining to read before i start.

 It's an actual kijiji ad that u can see here: source or click on the pic for a screen shot.

It says: Wanted: Male

Hey, I'm Emma Finlayson. I'm 17 years old and am looking for a attractive male student (ages 16-18) who would be willing to accompany me to my prom for a couple of hours to take pictures and pose as my prom date. No, I am not a creeper. My friend and I are doing this to prove how stupid prom is, and also need someone to stand next to without looking weird. You can contact me from my email address. Price is flexible
P.S.- A hockey player or someone who likes hockey is preferred.

ROFL x NO COMMENT

ANYWAYS. ahhaha. Actual content now.

January totally flew by didn't it? I'm trying to remember what i did but my head is drawing a blank. I do know i did plenty though. And plenty of movies. Ohmygee i watched ALOT of movies in the past month. The Fighter (Worth Seeing, Christian Bale is hilarious), True Grit (I seriously dont know what the hype is with this movie. It has a 98% rating but i thought it was so shitty and i couldnt wait for the movie to end), Black Swan (Disturbing. Loved it), Tangled (Had zero expectations for this movie. Gotta say the "romantic" scene has gots to be by far the most romantic disney scene ever) & Blue Valentine (Tragic. Wouldn't have survived if i watched it 9 months ago). 

Oh yes. I went snowboarding over the weekend @ Blue. And got totally trashed right after wards (as expected). It was totally epic because i actually did not even drink that much (comparatively to my past experiences....it seriously wasn't even much. i blame it ALL on the fact i didnt eat dinner....again) but got so trashed that everybody thought i was weak sauce and passed out at 1230am. UGH. Total fail.

On the subject of boarding though- J was extremely patient with me during the learning process (even though i was actually a lot shitter when he was around. go figure). M was even more patient with me. Even after i took her down with me 10 million times and wasted half her day on the Big Baby hill, she STILL stuck by me and held my hand the entire way. Note to self (NTS), I owe her a really awesome dinner. At the end of the day i think i did REALLY well in the 6 hours i had though. I completely skipped baby hill,  its moving carpet (lol) &&& the kids on the moving carpet and jumped immediately to the lifts- I think people ought to be proud of me. I was quite determined to learn it though- just for the sake that J is pro at this shit and well yeah, i suppose i gotta at least be able to balance myself to not embarrass him. sighs. I do wish i have the funds to do it again. I think if i am going to do it again though, it would be only to go with the cousin. Otherwise.....i am too poor b/c rentals is a bitch. And rentals hurt my toes. Sad face.

Prior to going boarding though- had a fabulous post-New Years (winterlicious) dinner with the boys. Over dinner, the boys and i have decided to go ahead with plans to head to San Diego for COMIC CON 2011. Not a whole lot of details on that except that its going to be in July, for about 5-6 days, celebrate Coco's birthday while being there and a whole shit load of blogging, exploring and 110% nerding it out!!!!!!!!!! Bahahah Going to be a trip of a life time if it works out. Crosses fingers.

So now. Present day February. It's Chinese New Years eve as of now. Its an hour since i started this entry and i am still not done (and i am still hungry). February is going to be a freakingggggg fast month (aside from the obvious fact that its shorten. duh).

Stuff im looking forward to this month  
(half of which i copied and pasted from A because our schedule is the same)

• The X and O Vday Partay 
• Vday
• FIFA Friendlies! France vs Brazil + Spain, Holland, Germany, England..<3
• UEFA Champions League - Arsenal vs. Barca (my teams!!!!!!! so torn)
• WEMBLEY! Arsenal is going to Wembley for the Carling Cup final (!!!)
• Family day weekend
• Futbol WAG Evenings w/ A
• One more Winterlicious Dinner

I actually cannot wait for March to come because of a certain FETE the cousin and lovely R are co-hosting once again. Ohmygod words cannot express the excitement i feel. Last year they held a Graffiti party and it was just insane. This year is going to be messier and bigger i swear. 

STAY TUNED ALERT: I have a whole blog entry im ready to write about for Chinese New Year. That will be for tomorrow. Just saying.

Oh my god i just learnt (from facebook haha) that a friend is engaged. Wow. That's two couples i learned in one night that's newly engaged. and theyre MY age. Dot dot dot. Isn't that so lovely. !@#$

Moving on.

I was reading my cousins blog earlier in the evening re: beast mode, losing weight and all that fun stuff and i'm pretty much on the same boat as she is. If people haven't noticed, but i haven't been loading pictures on facebook. Whenever i don't, it pretty much means that i look like shit and i don't want to display how i look, as selfish as it may sound. During the summer, i can honestly say i was in the best shape i have ever been in my entire life. I did kickboxing twice a week, combated on average 3.5 times a week, attended kettle bell warm-ups twice, hot yoga once a week and weight training 2 or 3 times a week. I was extremely hardcore and it showed in my clothes sizes and pictures. Now i'm back to the fat panda i always have been and it has really put a toll on my self-esteem (that i had very little to begin with) and ive gotten into the "i-only-wear-black" phase because of this recent weight re-gain. I am hungry all the time, especially at night before i sleep and i find myself eating constantly because im sure my stomach has enlarged again therefore it needs that extra food to fill it. Rolls are coming out and my face is as large as a pancake that can feed 4. It really sucks balls but my current work situation and the weather is NOT making it very easy for me to lose that weight again. That said though, i KNOW i can lose it.....but i just like ranting about it. Hopefully the cousin and i can work towards that goal of ours and be damn fit again when the weather gets hotter.

Another side note- I am quite thankful that I have my cousin as my motivational partner when it comes to wanting to lead a more "healthier" lifestyle. Our goals are pretty much the same, our social lifestyle is pretty much the same (we both do enjoy a shot or six) also. In terms of exercising, i find that we both are into high intensity workout regimes. We don't like pilates, we don't like regular yoga or jogging. We both like extreme bootcamp-like shit and i find she is the only person that is able to keep that same high intensity pace up whereas others slow down after half an hour or after 4 man push-ups. I absolutely love that about her (amongst other things of course). I realllllly hope she knows what a tough cookie she is. She's tough and she motivates the shit out of me. I love her for that.

Last but not least.

I forgot how hard it is, to start something new. I completely forgot and i feel myself making the same mistakes again. I don't entirely understand why i allow this to happen again, it just keeps on happening. and here i am, thinking i am so boss of my situation and i won't let it happen again. But the truth is, at the end of the day i'm just going to be that same person that gives too much, expects too much. No matter how much game i speak of, who it is. Clearly i turned out liking you, a lot more than i originally planned.

Okay sleep time. Manager gaves me the day off tmr because of the Snowpocolypse that's FINALLY occurring.

 Someone that took a pic of the storm DT and tweeted it as of 1:26am

Taking advantage of this by being productive, applying for jobs tomorrow morning, more blogging, figuring out which Arsenal jersey (finally!!!!!!!!!!!!!) i will be ordering while sipping on delish Korean Brown Rice Green tea, Forever nuts tea and chomping away on my Starbucks caramel macchiato biscottis that i purchased earlier tonight.

OUTS! Hope the read made up for the lack.

Ideal World

fffound.

In the most ideal world starting in October through to March:

I would

• still be doing my freelance work for Albie
• be working 2-3 times a week dt 
• use the remaining time and have a part-time Art internship
• continue with my beast mode/working out regime providing my "injuries" don't get too serious.
• i realize i have REALLY weak ankles. no wonder i can't balance myself. 
• no its not because i have small feet as someone has suggested before.
  
• be driving regularly because i passed my g2 in September.
• be doing great.

Yes that would be the MOST ideal scenario for me.

Wish me good luck in achieving those (especially point #3).

Finally

Things are FINALLY starting to look positive in life.

• Been driving
• Been working on jobs
• Been having fun
• Been working out
• Been applying for jobs

Huge rant coming up!

I want black handwraps

My palms are raw, hands are shaking, my thighs and quads are BURNING, my shoulders and biceps are sore, my arms smell from the sweaty pads that literally everyone shares, i smell like sweat in combination with odor de la skunk (from the drive home lol). On top of all, i got k/o'ed by a big black girl tonight.

But i am loving every damn minute of ittttt.

Must tell myself to keep this momentum up. Because hard work pays off.

Isn't that picture up there so efffing scary tho?!?!? (I guess only people who are into Sci-Fi or know the Aliens/Predator/AVP movies would know what i'm talking about) Its like a bodybuilder woman....but she's a BODY BUILDER-WOMAN-PREDATOR. Creeeepy.  hahaha Loves it ~ Though i would NOT want to see her at the gym.

Packed weekend! I am tres excited.

Jot-Down Thoughts

I suddenly feel like blogging but too lazy to write in paragraphs...& i'm also preoccupied by also doing my nails and having my weekly fix of True Blood all while having this blogging urge. So jot-down thoughts again.

• I will never, EVER order clothes from a China/Korean/Taiwan website AGAIN.
  The measurements are never correct. They LIEEEE. It says one thing, the article of clothing says something completely different. Sadly unlike all the petite China dolls (living in the Greater Toronto area) i am unable to fit mostly LENGTH-wise because i am taller than all of you pretty girls. My boob-area, is sadly your head. All your dresses are shirts for me and shirts becomes bras. Therefore- clothes made IN and being SOLD from a China-ran clothing website will never compliment me because i'm such a giant. Pouts. Being a tall Asian sucks. A 70 dollars lesson learnt. 
• Kickboxing, kickboxing, kickboxingAnybody interested in joining? Every referral i get this month (or something like that), i receive free boxing gloves!!! In return l'll take you out for dinner and you get a "healthy" lifestyle. Tonight's class was epic. I almost killed my cousin. ...............Hahah nah not even close (thnx god lol) My kicks are oh so weak and my left arm is even weaker. Must continue jabs tomorrow during combat. 
• Beast Mode
  Not much about it except keeping it up. Kettlebell, Kickboxing, Pump, Combat, Hot Yoga. Repeat. Hopefully l'll see results in a months time. I really just gotta find myself some post-workout snacks because i get so hungry afterwards. 
• Starbucks fix
  I am trying to cut back. Yeah...i know that's quite a bold statement to make. Coming from me. Wish me good luck.
• New Asian music
  This is the fob side of me talking. But i REALLY need some updated Chinese/Mando music. I'm getting really bored of my "on repeats" list that consists of just some "newer" TVB theme songs (which some don't even consider as music!!!). Help please someone.
• Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows
  In the midst of rereading the book again and honest to god....no book can ever take the place of Harry Potter. I think i want to be buried with my books. Its the 10th time? 12th time rereading it? It just keeps on exciting me beyond anything imaginable. I sound a little crazy. I blame the toxic fumes in my icebox room.
• Robbery
  Tomorrow marks the 3rd installment of 4 IOUs to my damn ortho office. Let me just say....that retainers are damn expensive and losing them 3 times is very unwise....and expensive. Especially when you're unemployed. I hate the dental industry. Jerks are robbing me poor. My kid is either going to grow up to be a futbol player or a dentist. Depending on the race obviously. ha ha ha ha.

Okay i would actually continue but the nail polish fumes is making my hurt a little.

Tomorrow shall be email people back/beastmode/fold & organize my clothes day.

Repeat phrase of the day: It is what it Is.

I want a cupcake

Ohkayyyy so apparently there was a 5.5 magnitude earthquake that hit Southern Ontario (aka TO, Scaborough, PARTS of Markham (i say parts because i was in Markham and felt jack squat), Sauga and i don't know about Richmond Hill) that i did not feel. i dooo feel kind of jipped (even though J was scared out of her wits!) because everyone I knew felt it. Not really the type of bandwagon you want to jump on but nonetheless it would have been "interesting" since Toronto doesn't experience earthquakes due to our "rigid" crust. The last one was recorded in 1998 (Mag 5.4) and 1986 (Mag 5.0). I got my findings here. So yeah. I was jipped. lol The best status change by far about the quake tho, was by TP

"Earthquake!! In my office toilet!!"

Hahah good job terry. Good jobbb. 

What was more interesting though, was my newly acquired friend at SB was telling me about there being Army Helicopters in the area (probably heading downtown) as he was walking down steeles & brimley. Man this G20 stuff is getting scaryyyyyy. I'm a LITTLE big frightened about going down there this Saturday. But not frightened enough to not go. haha

So what is a blog post without me ranting about football?!?! Here it is:

ENGLAND ADVANCES BITCHESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

That's a nice big IN YOUR FACES to all you haters. Though i might add that they will probably be murdered in round 2 if they were to face Germany. Actually, even Ghana. They would be frightened by their dark skins. And lets just say that they somehow miraculously beat the 2nd rounds and make it to Quarter finals, there is no chance in hell they can beat Argentina. By the way the brits are playing, they really are not that good (they keep on wasting their energy on CHASING the ball instead of playing it smart. by the time it gets to them, they're all outta breath!!!) That said now, it just means i gotta go get myself a Spain or Brazil Shirt.

Jot down thoughts-

• Went back to Goodlife for the first time in 3 months and it felt GREAT. i was THINKING of canceling my membership but i think if i can afford to maintain it i think i will because i really enjoy it. Even though Body Combat made me completely out of breath (absolute Cardio fail), i felt that wuzzy feeling that makes me feel like im doing some good to my body. Also after attending Kick Boxing, my "posture" during Body Combat is a lot more "correct" now haha Extra added bonus is i bumped into C and made a gym date for next week!!! Ah. <3
• I want to get more into cupcake baking and cupcake decorating. 
• I hope to see A & Spyo soooooon. July 3rd yes yes?
• R's Bday Bash @ Courthouse Saturday. Shall be exciting.
• Upcoming Brazil Vs. Portugal game. Watching it for the skills and tactics involved. Not for the hot men (b/c Kaka is suspended. SNIFF SNIFF & im not very fond of C.ronaldo and his abs. )
• Going through True Blood way too damn quickly. Vampires are so sexy.
• One week until ECLIPSE (3rd twilight movie)!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
• Summerlicious with the Girls? (Sorry everyone...i can only afford one summerlicious meal this summer and im going to reserve it for the girls..)
• The Last Airbender with the Boys is going to be so damn epic. The trailer is epic. The storyline is epic. It is going to be gooooooood.

Okay i guess thats all. Need to get bak working on portfolio stuff.

Completely random. But the Starbucks im at suddenly smells like Instant Noodles mixed with XO Sauce. HAHA maybe im just hungeeee.

你仍然是第一個我會想起當有大事情發生.

Yawns.

Just submitted my Employment Insurance application.

Please pray i get approved and receive decent "benefits" :((((

Making myself egg benedicts tomorrow because i'm too cheap to go to Milestones. And not desperate enough to go by myself. Only bEcause evrybody i know works full-time and can't have breakfast with me!!!! hahah

Random side note away from delicious eggs.

I attended my first "low intensity" Muaythai/Kickboxing class with the cousin. For a "low intensity" class tonight, it was pretty intense- which i loved. Kettlebell for half an hour tomorrow but i think im going to be pwned by that again like on Monday.

Overall I'm loving it! I feel so much power when i wrap my hands with those boxer hand wraps. GIGGLE GIGGLE.

Lets aim for that toned body for the August "Camping" Trip that is growing by the second!!!

But back to the original post. Please please please pray for meeee. LET THERE BE BENEFITS!!! SOBSX

i wanna nappp

....so badly but i have soo much to do. Blogging is actually one of my to dos so i thought l'll get it out of the way before i fall asleep at the keyboard.

As i mentioned in my last entry, there's lots of ummm i suppose "exciting" stuff going on. Lots of changes and things I am doing to keep myself busy.

First off yesterday, bright and early K came to get me so we can go meet S for her Florist consultation and then wedding dress hunting.

I like this pic of us

It was my first time going to any type of wedding-related appointments so for me being the obsessively weird- was completely ecstatic. I had a really good time and look forward to the weekend when she makes her final decision on the dress and cupcake testing. In the...7 hours (was it?) it was crazy how much i learned about what was involved in planning a wedding. I mean I knew that the amount of work and time that needs to be put into a wedding is outrageous but there was so much more to it. Mainly it was more like "industry" fyi-s that i picked it which was pretty awesome for what I am currently doing and deciding whether to pursue.

During the florist consultation, I was sitting there listening to S discuss what she wanted with the florist and as I sat watching the florist go through the details and her list of questions, i found myself completely submerged into the subject of weddings and inspired by the passion the florist women has for doing what she loves. This was also the same feeling I had when I was explaining how the "Invitation Design" process works for another girl.

I have always loved the subject of Weddings. I try not to bring that up to too many people (especially the male ones) because it scares potential mates (from experience). I think people can tell that I have a passion for this subject. Whether its for my own (even though whether if i am goinna get married is questionable and fuzzy at the moment lol) or others- I love everything about it including the mechanics and logistics involved in putting it all together. That said with no job lined up, lots of free time, two Wedding Invite jobs and a Wedding PLANNING job that I believe I am going to commit myself to....I think I am going to try and explore the Wedding Planning/Event Planning and Wedding Invitation route. Esthetically I believe I have the eye for pretty things, I have the interpersonal skills to work with people (im too nice and a big sap. brides love that), and i think i'm pretty organized and methodical to execute things...seeing im pretty anal when it comes to details and scheduling.

SOOOOOOO if i became a wedding planner/wedding invite designer- would you people refer me? lol

I have a zillion things to do for this. Aside from quoting these brides to-be, i have to get a site up so i can grab two more potential brides-to-be's attention. Then l'll be set for the summer until the fall. I'm praying to god that my application for E.I. will be approved because first, I need money. From now on i must be extremely conservative with my spendings. [ Went shopping yesterday. Terrible of me. ] because im still paying bills. Second if i do get approved, I'm going to save up to enroll in a winter course for Event Planning/Wedding Planning of some sort. I mean if I am going to be serious about it, i should put a little investment into getting certified and doing it the professional way. Basically E.I will be used for the following:

• More schooling (fak)
• Bills (Cell, Dad, Insurance, Gym)
• Savings
• Laser Printer/21"+ Monitor/New Laptop/Business-Related Equipment
• Whatever that is left is for the spending =[

On that note, i've also taken up a side creative project with Junior. (Yeah MORE things to do). Mostly I am doing this for him as a favor because he's like a little brother to me but also for the exposure and portfolio building experience that is involved. Won't get into details but those who knows should know that he's busy over his head and im proud that he's accomplished so much to date.

Anyways random thoughts:

• I'm getting pudgy again.
  The cousin has been on intense, hardcore Beast Mode for the past 2 weeks and i think it is time for me to rejoin her. I've been out of it for about 3 months now and i don't think my metabolism is holding up anymore. She's such a great source of motivation and so extremely informative (lol). We also have the same mentality on why we want to change our "lifestyle" and that's always good to have someone that is on the same mind set as you. At the very least she would understand what i am going through. That said, this week begins Kickboxing- two times a week. And its going to be the actual Muay Thai, wrapping your fingers and knuckles stuff. I don't believe its going to be anything like Body Combat. I wonder if my nails will get ruined in the process....haha. Less eating of course, Moderate eating on junk (as always....i don't believe in cutting stuff out. that's just lying to yourself) and start on my cup of oatmeal breakfasts again.
  - I think my goal is to trim to waist area by August (for CAMP MODE!!) and to be...possibly 1.5-2 sizes smaller by November. I'll consider that a birthday gift for myself lol Though im skeptical on that b/c im currently munching on fried yam cakes my mom made.
• Watched Splice last night
  That was the most fucked up movie i've EVER watched. Aside from the fact its my third weekend in a row that i've been supporting the Cinema Industry (argh)....i can't believe what happens in the movie. I don't even care if i spoil it for anyone but basically it involves a far too long scene of Hybrid Sex (erm like...Humans and Hybrid) and Hybrid RAPE (Hybrid on Human). Dot dot dot. Yeah. DISTURBED?!? I still am.
• Vampire Diaries Update
  To those that care haha I am on episode 18. I am four away from finishing Season 1 and have I mentioned....that I am completely, irresistibly in love with Damon Salvatore? Yeah. I want to box him, take him home and do things to him. mmmmmmmmm haha.
• Must make a trip downtown (sometime this week) to see J (for freebies) and J (for tablet).
• On Repeat: Lihium-Evanescence && Hey Daddy-Usher,
• World Cup, FIFA 2010
  I don't know if its the men, the sport (that i actually enjoyed playing when i was YOUNGER haaa), the excitement or all of the above- but i am freaking excited. Gotta make plans with Tall J to go watch it at a bar. We're really hoping for a ENG vs PORTUGAL game again. This time around she won't be half way around the world lol && we can excitedly watch it together over lots of alcohol. I'm also a huge England fan (like every other ASIAN). I remember that particular game 4 yrs ago (ENG vs PORTUGAL) i cried at the end of the game when they lost and couldn't make it to semi-finals. It's pretty sad but i am very loyal to them. haha
  
  
  
  
  
  I was/am absolutely in LOVE with Michael Owen (age 30 haha). I remember my obsession with the guy during FIFA 2006 and during one of the games (could have also been the Portugal/Eng game) 51 seconds into the game he gets taken out and i distinctively remember EVERYBODY on msn, messaging me telling me he's down. haha sighs. Its such a shame that him along with Beckham is not playing in the tournament this year. Here's a good article about their absence. Link
  
  Sighs England doesn't stand a chance.
  
  Ok one more time. I can't get enough of his face.
  
  
  
  
  
  GAH. <3!!!!!!!!!!! HEHEHEHEH
  

Damn i did well today (with the blogging).
Okkay. Time to do work and load CUBA PICS.!!!!!~

P90x

Maybe I am going way over my head on this one but i think i'm going to start up on doing P90x. Sure yeah its a huge diet/weight loss FAD but their marketing is SO awesome and i for one now appreciate GOOD marketing (Marketing/brand development is brutal.), so i must give into them especially when i see THIS (see below) this pretty face on every infomercial channel i flip by.

 See.

 How can you go wrong when a man name TONY (not Tim) Horton is going to be "training" you for the next 3 months!!!

I'm going through this crazy fitness phase where all i want to do is exercise but i am completely neglecting doing work (you know...the kind that allows me to put new clothes on my back and Starbucks in my hand) and everything else that i REALLY need to do. I'm actually very contradicting because i'm not exactly eating well so even if i do, do all this intense exercising....it would be equivalent to me doing nothing if im still putting spoons of Honey Green Tea ice cream into my mouth periodically through out the day. What can i say....i'm fat for a reason right lol.

Anyways i digress. Back to P90X.

So because of my lack of disposable income, i'm in no position to walk over to Walmart to buy the kit. i must resort to downloading all 40gigs of the training system. FYI: I only have 60 gigs worth of bandwidth each MONTH at home. How am i going to do it? Easy- Starbucks Wi-fi Abuse.

Thanks to Starbucks l'll soon have the P90X, or (Power 90 Extreme), vigorous-but-magical-hope-created-and-hopefully-wont-fail-on-me home training system in my possession! THNXXXX YOUUUU. Its no wonder i love you guys so much.

I don't think l'll start the actual 90 days right away (this mayyy includes the diet plan. But that's looking like a lost cause right now because nothing can make me give up french fries), my plans are to do it when i come back from Cuba. Or whenever i finish downloading them HAA. I did only half of the Ab Section (Ab Ripper X) today and i was already ko'ed on the floor. That said im doing it again tmr and im DETERMINED to at least get through til the end. Even if it means i gotta skip a rep or four.

I realize that i'm not really making sense (because i am SO tired right now from Hot Yoga) and im not even going to bother re-reading it until the morning. Or never. Because i'm lazy.

NIGHTS.

Ps. I miss the mister and his insane laughter. His SB schedule is so wooky.

Workout Schedule

BEAST MODE IS STILL ONNNN....at least the exercise portion. haha According to my brother ive been eating (dinner) since i came home from the gym at 730 and its been at least an hour and forty five minutes and im still going.....hahah so i cant really say much about my "diet" being very beast-mode ish.....maybe beast in a sense where im eating like a beast. Anyways with this extra time available to me, my workout schedule works out to the following:

Monday- [ Body Pump ] [ Body Steps ] [ Body Combat ]
Tuesday- [ Body Combat ]
Wednesday- [ Body Attack ] [ Hot Yoga ]
Thursday- [ Body Pump ] [ Body Combat ]
Friday- [ Body Pump ]

I think my body can only handle STEPS & ATTACK once a week. haha i don't want to be fit as hell but be paralyzed at the same time. Hopefully this will show a little results by Cuba (which is in approximately a month and two days!!!!!!!!!)

The cousin and i have always been interested in high intensity workouts and both of us have been wanting to do kickboxing for the longest time. I think i must've sparked much more interest when i brought it up to her again about wanting to try it out. It sparked so much interest that we are actually going to go check out a Kickboxing place this Wednesday before Hot Yoga. Hopefully they have drop-in classes and they won't cost me an arm and a leg.

Apparently kickboxing can help one

"....usually lose anywhere from 10-20lbs in the first month ! And that is WITH OUT a change in the Diet......"

That sounds too good to be true eh. Because if it is really true.....i really don't mind paying the cancellation penalty fee (at the gym) to attend these classes full time as oppose to going to goodlife.

We shall seeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
i need to buy more chocolate milks.

Changes

(via Source)

There has been many changes to my current work status as some of you may know. I was told that my Fridays would be cut from 2 weeks ago until the beginning of April and from there they would evaluate our "cash flow" status and see if this Fridays-off business would continue.

Then 2 weeks later, 2 days ago i was told that i will be working from HOME starting probably this coming Tuesday because they want to cut expenses by not needing to pay rent anymore...............yeah.

Now YESTERDAY i was told that they want to keep me on payroll but cut my cheques in HALF. Which pretty much means I will be working 16.5hours each week ~ equivalent to working 3.3 hours a day or smashing it all together- 2.2 full days a week.

I guess I am officially a PART-TIMER now?

*&&&& what are my thoughts on this?

Strangely, this is kind of a good thing for me. Now with an extra 16.5 hours (which are suppose to be *work* time) each week to myself, i am able to do ALOT of things that i was not able to do because there was simply not enough hours in the day. This including looking for a BETTER full-time job, working on existing contract work (also finding new ones), getting up my portfolio site, cleaning and organizing my room and going to the gym every afternoon.

Interesting change isn't it?

The best side is of course sleeping in until 9pm, working in PJs and they're letting me take the mac and monitor home. =D

But of course the downside is im going to be poor. With my excessive spendings.

Give or take- don't know what will come out of all these changes.

Spring/Summer

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Its 17 degrees today, 15 yesterday, 16 degrees for the next two days. Does this mean summer is coming at full speed!?!? (Probably not, flurries are expected next week. LAME.)

But this coming summer im expecting it to be explosive. Or at least i want to try to make it "productive" as much as i can. I'm really gonna try and make this summer count!! I'm starting it off by going to Cayo Coco, Cuba and hope in the middle of the summer head down to Jersey/NYC and possibly something else to end summer!?!?! Don't know yet lol. But the things I want to accomplish this spring/summer:

• Finish Room Reno
  Get the room painted, get the wardrobe in place and new bed sheets at the very least and I'll worry about decor and everything else later
• Portfolio Site, Twitter & Blog
  I really need to get my portfolio site up and going. Its so essential and is my "money" making tool yet I've completely put that last on my to-do list. I MUST get that up and going by June or July at the very latest. I can't enter a new season without being done. That said while I'm at it, give my twitter page and this blog a new look. That's always fun to do lol
• Business Card
  Can't skimp out on this (effort and money). Just tonight a random stranger the mister and i met at Starbucks and was interested in getting our contacts to potentially do contract work for him but it looked so bad because....WE HAD NO BUSINESS CARDS. SIGHSx.
  
• Bikini Body
  Well not so much a BIKINI bod because that's like impossible for my size but at the very least i really want to slim down and trim my pear-shaped body. I am approximately 8lbs away!!! I just have to keep on gymming 3-4 times a week, hot yoga and eat in moderation and i shall be good!!!
  
• Outdoors Paintball with the kids & Outdoor Volleyball with the kids
  Major negligence right there. I am guilty of all charges of not setting up something. I'm sorry guys.
  
• Movies i need to download *ahem* see
  Includes: Clash of the Titans, Wall Street 2: Money Never Sleeps, Iron Man 2, Robin Hood, Sex& the City 2, Avatar: Last Air Bender, Eclipse and Inception
  
• Explore Toronto & the Eats with boyfriend
  Cuz we are fattys that wanna be artsy. haha

Okay lets hope i still have a JOB at the end of the summer to support all my plans.

*crosses fingers*