& we begin....with my lil blog exercise.

The person i like and why i like them.

Erm. This topic is a bit flawed because i don't like anyone right now. Something that is terribly SHOCKING because for anyone who has known me for a long time would know that i always gotta have a crush (Crush. Not boyfriend. Two very different things) and then i would have back-up crushes and back-up for my back-up crushes haha Or at least that was how it was in high school. But now, absolutely nothing.

It would be nice though, to have a crush. Someone that would make me nervous and give me butterflies. Dressing up for myself is never as satisfying as dressing up for someone else.

With that said, its probably not a good idea for me to have a crush right now. Don't want to involve a 2nd party into my stress and issues. They would probably turn around and leave, as they all do.

STORY OF MY LIFE.

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Going to go back to looking for these Scarlett Johannson nudie pics. I dont like being left out.

Lets do this again. BLOG PROJECT.

So i haven't "typed" anything of my own in an EXTREMELY long time. I think i really need to get back into it because i feel like ive losted a lot of that "spark" and that "edge" when it comes to blogging. For one thing, i'm not even too sure of who even comes around here anymore to read my crap. Or if anyone does for that matter. (Ahhhh well i know for sure that K does. Cousin does. C does. And i suspect so do you JL lol) Other than that i have no idea. Anyways since i dont want to lose that blogging spark COMPLETELY, i am going to have to start one of these WRITTEN (not picture) blog projects to force myself to type something daily. I've always told people blogging is like anything else, its a skill (plus motivation & inspiration of course) and through repetition you would only get better at it and it will gradually become easier.

So here it is. Zee list. Exciting isn't it. Stuff that i actually want to write about!

• The person i like and why i like them. 
• A famous person i’ve been compared to.
• 5 things that irritate me about the same sex/opposite sex.
• The best thing that has happened to me this week.
• Weird things i do when i’m alone.
• How i’d spend ten thousand bucks.
• Things i like and things i don’t like about the way i look.
• My last night out in detail.
• Something that makes me sad when i think about it.
• Something i’ve lied about.
• Would i rather be stranded on a desert island with someone i love for ten years or someone i hate for a month? explain why.
• Something i’m currently worrying about.
• One person from tumblr i’d throw off a cliff, one i’d marry and one i’d fuck.
• Something i do without realising. 
• Lyrics that apply to my current situation/mood.
• A drunken story.
• Something i regret.
• Post a picture of myself.
• My longest relationship and who it was with.
• Press ctrl v and post.
• Post a bit of my last IM convo.
• 5 things i want to change.
• My view on being tumblr famous.
• Someone i’d like to be for a day and why.
• 5 things within touching distance.
• Story of my first kiss.

Will start tomorrow. Along with other stuff.

Project 30 Days V2.0 - Day 6

6. A picture of you making a goofy face at the camera.

Project 30 Days V2.0 - Day 5

5. A picture of you in your favorite outfit.

I wanted to get a full pic of the dress. My face isn't all that exciting anyways. But yes, loves this dress (even though the topic calls for an "outfit"). Its like being wrapped in a blanket. Very cozy like warm oatmeal cookies. Not so good on a 38 degrees Celsius day though.

Project 30 Days V2.0 - Day 3 and 4

Even though i'm mad busy this weekend i still prepped material ahead of time for u kids. Love me, i know u want to.

3. A picture of you on your birthday.

My Birthday last year. Hands down, the most amazing, heartwrenching, beautiful one.

4. The youngest picture you can find of yourself.

Mommy said i was a GIGANTIC baby with crazy troll hair. It makes SO much sense now looking at pictures. That might have been me at half a year old. HA.

Hope you all are enjoying this beautiful long weekend!

Project 30 Days- V2.0

HA. Even though i was out all evening i did not forget!

1. A picture of you in your room

Ignore the mess.

2. A picture of you on your favorite holiday.

Halloween. Hands-down. Fave holiday. More than my own birthday

Since its 2am right now, i figured i would load Day 2 as well because i'm just THAT on top of the game.

Its going to be double beast mode day tomorrow to make up for all the cotton candy i ate today (i mean yesterday.....).

Outs.

Project 30 Day- Version 2

Yeah yeah. New blog project except of blogging l'll be using pictures. Its a whole less time consuming and a bit more entertaining on all your parts i suppose. As like the last Project 30 Day (which was highly successful according to some feedback i got from people) l will be loading a new picture every day pertaining to the topic. The only catch this time is that l'll be editing it so it would look like an instagram. Yesh, this would be the only time where i really wish i had an iphone or an itouch so i can use the Instagram app to take pics (but otherwise its still Blueberries for the win!). I was inspired by one of the guys i follow on twitter who's a photographer. He's taken some pretty awesome pictures and i thought his instagram collection was pretty neat.

So that's that. This time around will try to take ALL the pics myself and/or pictures i've taken in the past that fits the topic.

1. A picture of you in your room
2. A picture of you on your favorite holiday.
3. A picture of you on your birthday or favorite holiday.
4. The youngest picture you can find of yourself.
5. A picture of you in your favorite outfit.
6. A picture of you making a goofy face at the camera.
7. A picture you miiiiiiiiight have edited to make yourself more attractive.
8. A picture of you on a night you regret.
9. A picture of you truly being yourself.
10. The most recent picture of you.
11. A picture of you being absolutely ridiculous.
12. A picture of a time in your life that’s over, but you wish wasn’t.
13. A picture of your life that’s over, and you couldn’t be more thankful that it is.
14. A picture when you were anything but happy.
15. A picture when you where nothing but happy.
16. A picture of you when you were a different person than you are now.
17. A picture with someone you love.
18. A picture of how you would like the world to see you.
19. A picture of how you would like to spend everyday
20. A picture of a time when everything was changing.
21. A picture that makes your heart hurt.
22. A picture that makes your heart smile.
23. A picture of one of the best days/nights of your life.
24. A picture of your past.
25. A picture of your present.
26. A picture you just couldn’t leave out.
27. Your favorite picture of yourself
28. A picture of yourself in the place you feel safest
29. A picture of you being silly
30. A picture of just you.

I'm going to be starting this on Wednesday (after i get my cam back tmr). I think some of them will be pretty interesting to see what i load, don't you think?

Enjoy~

i owe you guys a nice lil read

This one is interesting!

Day 4- Seven things that cross your mind a lot.

1. MoneyThis is on my mind ALL. THE. TIME. But then i think its on everyone's mind because money IS everything. The people who say its NOT everything are people who clearly people who are delusional....and very not superficial. I'd rather not meet these people. That said, being newly unemployed (yet once again!) its time for me to be real cautious about my spending. But not even that, money has always been a huge ongoing issue for me. A lot of people may think that i have an excessive amount of dispoisable income but that's REALLLY not the case. I mean sure, i go to starbucks a lot but i actually order the cheapest thing on the menu (and also because i know some money saving tricks, it just seems like im ordering something delicious and expensive) and i save money on a lottttt of other stuff. I could probably save even more if i stopped drinking, but that's just me being unrealistic. I pay for a lot of stuff on my own, i don't ask for money and i also help my parents out with a very large expense that they carry on top of my OSAP debt that i owe the father (both my parents are unemployed at the moment 'mind you). So yeah, i'd say money is always on my mind especially when friends ask me to go out or to go out trips. I have to be very strategic about whom i can dine/lunch with. I can't always dine with one person and neglect another. I know, im terrible. I'm so sorry guys, i wish i can eat/go out/vacay/dine with ALL you guys :( but i know people are fairly understanding, so im very thankful for that.
2. Career Along with money, the thing that's im always fussing about - is what i want to do with my life. Where do i want to go, what do i want to do, what do i like doing, what CAN i do, what am i currently doing, etc. etc. I remember the cousin asked me what i was aiming to do/to be in 10 years and i really had zero idea. I mean i am barely getting by figuring out what i want to do a year from now (aside from wanting a stable, permanent, full-time job.....details are foggy) let a lone 10 years! That said this time around (being unemployed i mean) i really have to be more focused. I literally wasted a year and its not something i am too proud of.
3. BrotherMy brother's well-being, future, what he's up to, etc is ALWAYS on my mind but do i do anything about it? No. Simply said- i'm a bad sister and i am horribly ashamed and disappointed in myself. Sometimes i feel like, what right do i have to go trolling on him about what he's doing with his life when i barely know what i am doing with mine? Guilty as charged....sighs.
4. FamilyIt just might be the type of person I was brought up to be but i constantly think about my family and their future. I might not always show it but i always feel the need to have to take on the traditional eldest role and just take care of everything for my parents and of course, brother. I think this mentality is going to stick with me for life thus its very hard for me to, want to be ambitious in certain areas of my life because I will always want to be around to "take care" of them. In my mind, I'm not allowed to be selfish because i am the eldest.
5. The Way i lookThis sounds SO uber superficial of me but its true. My physical appearance is ALWAYS on my mind. Whether its my hair (which has to be straightened 80% of the time or i will not leave the house!) or my nails has to be nice (and not chipped/cracked) and obviously my weight. For someone who grew up always as the big girl (literally, in width AND height) in the group, people choosing to be your best girlfriends friend instead of yours because you're dorky looking and fat and wore bad clothes, or guys not giving you the time of the day because they judged you on your appearance - it kind of makes you superficial in that way.
6. Future Wedding Lame. I can't believe i am OPENLY admitting this on a public blog and it will probably incriminate me in the future (i guess l'll deal with it then) but i always find myself looking at wedding-related things and i would think "hey, i'd like that at my wedding" and save that inspiration in my ever-growing file of wedding inspirations. Hell, K even bought me a vintage typewriter (which i play to spraypaint white lol) for my birthday and its actually INTENDED for my future wedding. Fukked right? Yeah typing that out is actually a bit overwhelming lame. First off, i don't have a boyfriend and lets say if i ever do and it leads to you know, this actually happening....i'm hoping i can massage "him" into the plans i already have. HA. Lame once again. Can't help myself though.
7. PastWhat runs through my head a lot, are what if's. I linger and analyze details of the past a lot. I don't just think about recent things either. I still replay stuff that's happened 8 years ago. Perhaps this is my way of dealing with things but it happens a lot when I am alone. Sometimes i would replay it in my head over and over again, and look for those first signs of trouble. This might be why I am so analytical with my dreams and am so obsessed with the details. I find unspoken actions speaks volume as oppose to actual words being said. I wonder a lot, obsessed with alternate endings and scenarios. It's actually very unhealthy lol With that said, just because i think of the past a lot does not mean i linger. I sincerely believe what's meant to be will always find a way. At least i tell myself that otherwise l'm certain i will go insane with this unhealthyness haha.

That's that!

But because i owe you guys so much more to read, i'm going to KEEEEP on going haha.

Yesterday was my last day of my contract work on friday and it was pretty bittersweet. I did my rounds of goodbyes at the office and it was particularly hard with one of the ladies there because she was actually my "manager" when i worked there during highschool and she remembered me very well when i returned this time around. Saying a goodbye a second time around was a little sad. Since i'm unemployed again, three main things i need to concentrate on.

One- i need to go easy on the spendings. 
Because E.I this time around is not going to cut it. No more celebrity lifestyle for me yo. Expect to not see me that much people. Heads up now. 
Two- beast mode the shit outta my body.
Not only is it because it's summer, but because i know that i am capable of being "fit", i won't settle for less than that so going have to work harddddd alllll over again. Started jogging last night, it actually felt great. I think i'm going to start doing that.
Three- Work on finding a full-time job. 
Obvs, priority yo.

Ugh ugh i actually wanted to blog more buttttt because i am so "on top of things" today, will forego the stuff i wanted to rant about and do it another day.

Going to do nails, finish up "Unstoppable", read a bit more of "Catching Fire" (part of The Hunger Games trilogy aka THE BEST I'VE READ IN A VERY LONG TIME) and then sleep to wake for my 830 game tmr morning.

Hope that's enough of a read for now!

Eight ways to win your heart

This one is interesting!

Day 3- Eight ways to win your heart

1. Be a Gooner - I think that's pretty simple right? YOU"D THINK. It's NOT. Not in TORONTO anyways. If you're into soccer or more specifically, an ARSENAL fan, you've won half of my heart already. After meeting a couple of people who are in fact soccer (and Arsenal fans/gooners), I can conclude that knowing what you are talking (you gotta AT LEAST know what happened at Ansfield in 1989) about and sharing the same love and passion as me would definitely win you brownie points- or in this case my heart. haha
2. Likes to read - He would have to know how to settle down with a book and enjoys spending time in book stores. Having a book in his hand will win my heart for sure.
3. Dress properly- Not necessarily "stylish" but be proper. If he dresses like a hobo or are mismatching - i'm sorry it will never work lol
4. Enjoys/have a good laugh - I don't mean be obnoxious about it but don't judge if i do/say something stupid. Also if he can make me laugh, always a plus.
5. Be turdy - Huge. Turds and dorks are winners.
6. Have good conversation - Everyone knows how chatty and vocal I am so seeing the other person be just as chatty is always great. If he can motivate me to be better,  constantly challenge me and not afraid to disagree with me (better be a damn good reason), i choose that comfort-ness over a lot of things.
7. If you can talk nerd, but not look like a nerd - WIN!
   
8. Just be tall, charming and cute - because at the end of the day i am superficial like that.
   

I haven't been home much peeps. Bear with me! Work tmr then MWDC~

Durian stinking up mah house yo.

I know ive been totaly behind but bleh. I haven't really been home that much for the past week anyways. I've ALSO been like doubling my intake of calories for the past 4 days straight so im feeling very fatty again. As follows:

Wed: Drinking, Nachos & Yam fries for a late 10pm dinner
Thur: Drinking & butter chicken and poutine wings & creamy dips for fries
Fri: Filet Mignon, Disgustingly buttery Escargot and about 3000 calories in drinking
Sat: Buttery, Creamy, Garlic-y, Jap food. Oh and a delish starbucks and SB treat

Bahhhh. I need to work out every day this week yo.

Now, something for you all to read:

Day 2- Nine things about yourself.

1. I have a love for books. Specifically - hardcovers. I know a lot of people hate it because of the weight that comes with it but i adore them. I want to have my own library one day too. That said i also love book stores. I can spend hours by myself in Chapter or a 2nd hand book store. The smell and the coziness makes me feel safe, not sure why. Its kind of weird actually.
2. I have very, VERY sensitive skin. To a point where i break out in rashes and hives in other parts of my body too if my face has a reaction to a certain product. That goes with lip balm/lip gloss/lipstick too. Half of the lip balm available at shoppers, i cannot use (i have tried) because my lips swells up like sausages and become itchy like a bitch. Not a very pretty visual l'll tell you that.
3. You will never catch me without having my nails done. And if you do - its probably because i am deathly sick.
4. It takes me about an hour and a half....ish to straighten my hair. On contrary to the popular belief that it takes me FOUR hours to complete the task. haha
5. Red wine gives me the worst hangover out of all the alcohols. Red Wine and VODKA together just means death....and trouble.
6. My very first email address was astrobaby2000@yahoo, second e-mail was eatin_ricewitchopsticks@yahoo and my third and last retarded email is my current MSN one which i will not disclose here because i still use it lol. Lame eh.
7. That said my "social media" days started on Asianavenue as got_rice_angel to silent_serenity, which escalated to saymuidang on xanga, doing a last change to dorkus_x and finally here.
8. I'm actually not very open to different kind of music. Its either gotta be slow, emo, sappy and in Canto/Mando/English or its gotta be like, grinding music you'll hear at the club. There's rarely any in-betweens and when there is then its um, you know, rare.
9. i check out girls. all the time. its so perverted of me but i do it.

I feel like i've done so many of these, there's nothing left for me to share that you stalkers don't already know!! That's why it got kind of boring at the end because i really wanted to wrap this up lol I shouldddd be more on top of this soon though given that my contract is ending on Friday.

3rd last day of work tmr! Gotta straighten the hair now. HA. lol

10 day -you- challenge

Bad picture. But the best ur gonna get lol

That's the end of THISSSS challenge! A new one to come!

Another 10 Day Challenge!

In my other post the other day i mentioned that i needed to hunt for a new challenge to do. Karlaantonette answered my prayers and suggested this one! (Thnx u mah dear- i do love your commenting very much. As should ALL YOU PEOPLE WHO COME BY SHOULD DO TOO. UGH UHGH UGHHHH) So here it is, another 10 day challenge (ignore the tumblr part. im too lazy to edit it). I think after this one i am going to start up a 30 day one again because a, my contract is ending therefore more time on my hand, b, the blogging mode is starting to come back a bit now. Like anything else, blogging requires you to do it consistently (practice) for it to be easy. I'm hoping after two, 10 day challenges, it should be easier. Of course it depends on the topics too, some are just a drag to rant about. Anyways, i digress. On to the challenge and the actual read!

Day 1- Ten things you want to say to 10 different people right now.

Person 1- I wonder why we stopped talking? I mean we were such great friends and then one day it was like it meant nothing to you? Its a shame. I miss you lots dude.
Person 2- Stop being naive and lying to yourself. He's not coming back.
Person 3- You make me so angry sometimes. You don't fucking know how lucky you are.
Person 4- So um, why did you never gave us a 2nd chance? Not that i want it, but it was always a big what-if eh?
Person 5- You are such an immature pathetic little boy. Excuse me while i fucking punch your lights out.
Person 6- Its unfortunate we met under such bad circumstances.Otherwise i think things would be....a lot different. At least the way i act towards you anyways. I wouldn't be so protective of myself.
Person 7- You're not better than me, dream fucking on.
Person 8- Oh mister gooner, whyyyy is god so cruel. lolol
Person 9- You make me sick you douchebag.
Person 10- I'm not giving up

For obvious, obvious reasons - i cannot use names or initals because it will stir up drama and shit fo shureeee. Especially given half of the stuff i want to say to people aren't exactly..........nice. haha 

I doubt any of you can figure out who's who anyways. Except maybe K. or C.

10 day -you- challenge ; Songs

 

1. Prayer - Endless Love OST
   
   I really thought i would get over this song in a couple of years because i thought it was one of those songs where i would like it for a predetermined (but unknown) time and then i would totally forget about it. Interestingly enough its still that "it" song of mine since i heard it first in grade 10. It's one of the theme songs from a Korean drama call "Endless Love" or "Autumn Love" call "Prayer". So for the past 10 years, i've been telling anyone that would care (or not care but will listen politely to me) that i want my future husband's gift to me, to be able to play the first 1 minute and 45 seconds of this song on the piano for me during our wedding. I mean it's not really that bad considering the song is almost five minutes long (actual song, not the piano version in the Youtube Vid), i just want 33.3% of the song played. With that said, I do NOT want to tell him that I want this but rather I am hoping he would find out on his own by either stalking all blog entries i've ever wrote or ask my friends what i want (hence why i am trying to tell as many people as i can heh heh clever eh). Interestingly enough, when I got a Korean friend of mine to translate this song (that i want played for me at my wedding), i was told that it's actually a very tragic and sad song about death and it's not very good for a wedding. ..............Bleh. Knowing me, i would choose the only song on the face of this earth that is bad luck for a wedding. Nonetheless, I still want this played since i only want the melodic version, it won't be so bad because not the actual words will be serenaded to moi.  Take notes future husband.
   
   
2. Por Una Cabeza - Carlos Gardel
   
   I think strings music is beautiful. I would choose it over a band orchestra any day. I might even choose the violin/viola over the piano which is saying a lot because i love anything that is played on the piano. The violinist in this vid is so brilliant and so perfect. This song just means a lot to me. That's all.
   

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I just realized i gotta find another challenge QUICKLY because this one is coming to an end tomorrow and......life is going to be dry and boring around here again!!!! bah.

10 day -you- challenge ; Films

1. 500 Days of Summer
   I loved every single thing about this movie. I even brought it on DVD......and for all your information i don't believe in buying DVDs when i can download them so that is saying A LOT. My 2nd actual legit DVD haha. I think what i truly loved about this movie is the realistic vs. expectations element they always play on. The movie highlighted and touched upon a lot of real relationships problems where no other "mainstream" romance comedy would bring up. One being feelings can change at any moment. There's no promise, no guarantee because nothing is constant except change, feelings included. In short, no fairytale endings bitches! It's sweet, playful, romantic and uberly tragic. Which is pretty much everything i love about a movie. Also Joseph Gordon Levitt is like my dream guy.
   
   
   
   
   Turdy, hot and romantic. Yums.
   
   
2. The Notebook
   From my last entry, i'm sure people have gotten the hint that i really dislike it when books are turned into a motion picture. Mainly because they always manage to fuk it up pretty badly. ESPECIALLY with Nicholas Sparks books. He has about i think 13 books or something. I've read about 6 of them which is a little less than half but nonetheless still a lot. That said i've also watched all the movies that are based on his books and they were alllll shit (especially A Walk to Remember. I am sorry to all those who are fans of the movie but the book made me bawl from like chapter 10 and on (there's like 20 chapters in the book) whereas i swear i just teared at the last ten.) That's until i watched the Notebook. My god is it accurate and for once, the movie was so much more sad than the book (which is VERY impressive for my standards). An absolute tear-jerker. I recommend it to all guys that want to impress a girl and still be able to enjoy it. I love the actor and actress, plot, the idea that even with time, distance and other people that enters your life, that one love you share with another person won't fade away. So optimistic and naive of me but if noah and allie can do it- EVERYONE has hopeeeeeee. Sorta. Unless you're me. Then you have no hope.
   
3. Pearl Harbor/UP/Sex and the City (1)
   For my third favorite movie, its a tie between Pearl Harbor, Disney & Pixar's UP and the first Sex and the City movie.
   
   • Pearl Harbor because i have always been interested in the events that took place prior and after the bombing of the harbor. It was just beautiful how they were able to incorporate a storyline with the history (very well done actually, according to my limited yet i would say good understanding of the pearl harbor attack). Ben Affleck and Josh Hartnett is just an extra bonus treat for me. I also gotta add that i was completely smitten by the idea of a romantic plane ride with my future hunk towards the sunset, and preferably a proposal occurring afterwards. Since the only pilot i do know is J and i am definitely not marrying J (bahahha) so that one is crossed off my list. haha
   • Every single person whom i've talked to and has watched the movie UP, absolutely adored it. GUYS included!!!!! I think it was just a cute movie that everyone enjoyed because everyone is a big kid at heart. I've also never cried so much for a cartoon, so it gets credit for that lol
   • Lastly, the first Sex and the City movie. I thought it was absolutely amazing (as oppose to the 2nd movie). I loved it so much i even went to see it two more times after watching the midnight release (and i had work the next day!). For me personally, the idea of Big and Carrie finally being together is like a dream come true for any girl who is unable to be with the person whom is not necessarily the best for you, but you need to be with them because they're like a drug. Don't get me wrong though- i'm a Big and Carrie shipper....as oppose to EVERYONE i know who is an Aiden and Carrier shipper. lol It can also be because i am a devotee to the Sex and the City cult, the movie had that much more of an effect on me.

r u guys as impressed as i am that i am actually caught up with this challenge? heh.

10 day -you- challenge ; Books

1. Harry Potter
   (In the following order from most loved to least love: Book 3, Book 7, Book 6, Book 1, Book 2, Book 4, Book 5)
   Everyone knows what a hugeee Harry Potter fan. Just to make it clear though, I am a BOOK fan, not really a movie fan. I watch the movie for the pure sake that i am a book fan and i ought to contribute to the movies because it is based on the book - even if it sucks bulls balls. Anyhoo. Hands down, favorite book(s) no doubt in my mind is Harry Potter. It seriously changed my life (made me into the geek i am) and pretty much following it from the start has been phenomenon. I can tell you people now that its a whole lot more than just people in capes, pointing sticks at each other, mumbling some sort of pig latin while maneuvering themselves on a broomstick and banding together to kill a man that has severe facial disfiguration. Its a LOTTT more than just that. But this is not the place and entry to re-explain it as i have tried to many times. Ugh. Muggles.
   
2. Twilight
   (In the following order from most loved to least love: Book 1, Book 4, Book 3, Book 2)
   Ok don't start judging just yet. First off, just like Harry Potter - i am a book fan, NOT a movie fan. The movies are rubbish and does not even capture the essence of the book. I don't support the movies, i support the books. I actually hate the movies but i watch it because R.Patz is eye candy delight. I think for me personally, what really sold me was the idea that an ordinary girl (plain jane i guess) is able to have her fairytale ending with a super hot, ideal guy. Who doesn't love a good fairytale story? Especially a romantic schmuck like me. Anyways, another book (series) that changed my life.
3. Twisted, by Jeffery Deaver
   In terms of an actual novel (or collection of short, twisted, oh-my-gee-covers-mouth shocking stories) its gotta be this one. There is nothing else (aside from HP and Twilight) that comes before this book. Great read if you are into shocking, "twisted", thrillers.
4. The Other Daughter, Lisa Gardner
   I believe this was my first "adult" (not SEXUAL adult, but from the non-teenage section at the library haha) mystery novel that i read. I really don't remember what its about but i do remember that the ending was shockingggg. My mind might change if i read it again but for sure, first novel for me. Gotta mean something.
   

I'd also like to add that i am not one of those girls that only read fantasy, magical, fun stuff. i do read a lot of different kind of books AND true crime (http://www.trutv.com/library/crime/index.html) but it just all happens that the ones that had an impact on my life happens to be the two series that has the most controversy. Just because i believe in magic and vampires are cool doesn't mean a total nutcase. You people can still take me seriously!

Heh.

10 day -you- challenge ; Food

I will interpret "5 foods" as....my top five food i love. I mean i can be real pessimistic and do 5 foods i hate but that wouldn't be very fun to blog about. Even thoughhhhh....i do tend to be a bit more passionate (angry) when it comes to subjects i have a negative connotation associated with it. Nah, favorites it is. Easier. lol

1. Chicken Wings or Fried Chicken
   i can eat SO many chicken wings, its very disgusting. Same goes with fried chicken. if i can eat fried chicken (w/ mash and gravy) every single day without gaining weight or having a stroke, i totally would.
   
2. Egg Benedict
   I LURVE egg bennys. Actually, more or so specifically....i love the HOLLANDAISE SAUCE. hahah i can SO eat that with anything. I would put it on my potatoes, in my sandwiches, on my apple slices if i can yo. But i can't because l'll be judged. Yes, even by my best friends and own family. Terrible. lol
3. Potatoes
   This would probably be my all time favorite food in the world. I can live on potatoes for the rest of my life and l'll be content because of the many varieties of dishes it can produce. Who doesn't love potatoes?!?!?
4. Oyster or Mussels
   i can eat so much of either one to a point where people either tell me to stop because i am scaring the people around/next to us or until i am sick of it. Oysters can't be raw though. The last time i put raw oysters in my mouth, i thought i was going to die.
   
5. POUTINE
   As mentioned in one of my previous entries- this dish is made up of three main components and of course, all three happen to be my most favorite food in the world. Cheese, fries and gravy --an absolute god's gift. The dude that invented this should win the Nobel prize award. Him and the dude that invented the hair straighter and the Air Con. Geniuses, i tell ya.

10 day -you- challenge ; Places

Going to name SPECIFIC places.

1. I want to go to London, to the Emirates Stadium
   To watch Arsenal play and meet their green dinosaur mascot, Gunnersaurus Rex.
   
   

2. I wanna go to Disney world
   Who wouldn't want to go the happiest place on earth? lol Never been but WILL go one day.
   
   
 
3. I want to go to Seattle, to the first Starbucks that opened in history.
   For obvious reasons. lol I can't be called an addict if i've never even been to its birthplace.
   
   

4. I want to go Italy, to see the Trevi fountain.
   Call me stupid but I believe in magic and under the influence of many, many romance comedy and romantic movies - i totally think things can happen here.
   
   

5. I want to go to this bookstore, El Ateneo in Buenos Aires, Argentina.
   One of the grandest, most majestic book store in the world. It was a theatre turned into a bookstore. What I would give....to spend a day in this place. To read and to blog. I am left speechless thinking about that.
   
   

6. I want to go to HogwartsThe one in Orlando. Apparently its spectacular and breathtaking. Being the huge Harry Potter fan, i must go and see for myself.
   

10 day -you- challenge ; Wants

1. I want to travel.
   Oh there is just so many places i would like to see. I'm not going to spend too long on this one because the tomorrow's entry is going to be on "the 6 places i want to go", so that would be the elaborated entry for this "want". 
2. I want 500 followers on twitter.
   Not happening but a girl can always dream lol
3. I want a flatscreen tv hooked up in my room, complete with the sports channel.
   Obviously, this is for high definition soccer viewing on Saturday mornings in my bed. Giggles giggles.
4. I want a fairytale ending.
   I believe in it, i want it, don't know if I'll get it, we shall see. 
5. I want a full time job at my dream company- MacLaren McCann.
   Preferably with the perfect benefits package.
6. I want to be a size 6.
   Pants/shorts/skirts, im a size 10 (groans), shirts im a size 6, dress im a size 4-8. Go figure? It would just be perfect if overall i'm a 6. Makes life so much simplier.
   
7. I wants………………..hunter boots, new blackberry, ipad, ipod, imac, nail polish, everything at H&M, heels, life-time premium megaupload/fileshare/rapidshare membership, aaron ramsey, oxford shoes, black rimmed frames, meet a turdy green dinosaur, everything at Urban Outfitters, unlimited bandwidth, a zillion books, many soccer jerseys, new shelves/boxes/baskets for my room, color laser printer, fernando torres, many vintage hobo bags, everything at Zara, more make-up, to watch actual EPL soccer matches, laptop bag, pretty long gossip-girl-like hair, etc.

Not really in the mood to blog tonight but did it anyways because i want to complete the challenge!

Tomorrow are the EuroCup Qualifiers- leaving work early to meet up w/ A at an undetermined bar to watch her team les bleus (France) and my team, la roja (Spain) play (not against each other). And then an eventful weekend.

I think i need a rant session.

10 day -you- challenge ; Fears

In no particular order:

1. Driving
   I don’t care what anyone says, I am terrified of driving. Mainly im afraid of damaging the car. Since my family aren't in the greatest financial shape, we really can't afford having me eff up the only car in the fam. There was an incident where my brother kept on yelling at me (how bad I was driving, etc. etc) and by the end of it - I felt like a moron, and completely incompetent when it came to operating a vechicle. From that day on I have not driven. You'd think I am being extremly silly for letting my kid brother get to me but if someone barked at how terrible you are for a good 20 minutes non-stop at an activity that you don't even have that much confidence in, in the first place…..can be excuriating and damaging to your confidence level and only fuels your fear. On top of that, it really doesn't help when half of the people you know have zero confidence that you can do it. It's like, seriously guys? Thanks for making me feel more incompetent. Just saying.
2. Vegetables
   Closest friends and people who eats with me would know this but, i have a psychological fear of vegetables. Meaning, I have not ate a piece of green since the age of 4 when I started kindergarden. It pretty much consists of everything aside from corn, potatoes, yams, string beans, mushrooms and the more recently- asparagus, zucchini and spinach. Everything else is out of the question. My mind has this natural reflex that tells my body to "reject" vegetables by making me want to gag, throw-up, eyes tear-up and i get nauseous sometimes. It's.....quite weird. According to my mother though, I ate vegetables when i was young but one day after i came home from school i just decided to not eat greens. I wonder what happened? Clearly its suppressed. Ah well. I'm an odd one. Which leads to my next fear......... 
3. Unable to have kids because of my veggie-defect
   Obviously I know that vegetables is a necessity in human diet. (And for who is curious- my daily #2's are great, thank you very much). That said its even MORE important if i want kids. This was something that I didn't take into consideration until Twin brought it up with me and just like that, i fear for my unconceived (lol), future child. The thought is actually very frightening because everyone knows how much I love kids and babies and if I am not able to have one.......yeah. Fearful. But let's not jump the gun - my next fear of......... 
4. Not getting hitched
   Yo, what if i never find myself someone? I'm doomed to be a veggie-deprived Starbuck loiterer. You know the ones that sit at Starbucks but they appear to be doing nothing? Except in my case l'll be the lil old asian lady that JUST HOPES, the love of her life will stroll in the door to order that same tall, 2 pump toffee nut, 2 pump white mocha bold she has in her wrinkly litte hands!!!! On a more serious note, sometimes i feel like I'm just not FIT to be with someone. I expect too much, i give too much, im the biggest whiner on the face of this earth and i can be so difficult. God i wouldn't date myself. Oh and to add on to that- i now have unrealistic expectations in person due to my new found love for soccer players. If you don't look like Aaron Ramsey, i don't want you.................. See what i mean? There goes my fairytale! It ends.........at Starbucks. Actually i shouldn't say it ends because it has never started! Seriously, i'm not joking.
5. Brother's path being difficult
   My biggest worry for pretty much my entire life to this point, is my kid brother. Honest to god, i love that kid so much but fuck, does he piss me off a lot. He is probably the only person in this world i would do anything for. He's spoiled as fuck but thats both my fault and my parents fault. He's had it rough. I know he has. Sometimes (alright maybe ALL the time) I don't understand whats going through his mind. But you know what, its okay because no matter what l'll always be there for him. No matter how many times hes screwed up, how many times he betrayed my trust, how many times hes called me a psycho bitch behind my back - he's my kid brother, who i know has my back when i need him the most. It just scares me a lot, knowing that he's going to have a more rough path than others. As his older sister i feel useless not being able to help make it less difficult. (Just re-read that paragraph. Not sure if i made my point but too lazy to rewrite it haha)
6. Not being able to be the person I want to be, achieving the goals i have set out
   So not only do i worry about my brother, but i worry about myself. There's a lot i aim to do, to be but I am constantly held back by obligations and responsibilities that doesn't allow me to take certain routes because there are things that i need to take care, people to look after. It scares me a little, i dont want to look back and have any regrets. More importantly, theres a certain reason why i want to succeed. And if i don't succeed, that reason wouldn't exist any more. And i don't want it to go away.
   i shalll elaborate on this......later. 
7. Rodents and small animals
   Simple enough i think. Any of the following will make me run across the street, pay no attention to on-coming traffic just to get away from them. I would be good if this world has NONE of these: Rats, mice, gerbils, hamsters, rabbits, ferrets, guinea pigs, chipmunks, squirrels, pigeons, raccoons, groundhogs and sometimes cats. I've made it clear that if anyone dares to bring one in close proximity of me, i would end our relationship. I don't give a shit who it is. I won't even forgive Cesc Fabregas (captain of Arsenal) if he throws a mouse at me. And that's saying a lot.
8. Becoming legally blind
   Yes - my eye sight is REALLLLLY bad. When i take off my glasses and i look at someone, their face is actually just a blob of color. Lets not get me started on when i take off my glasses at NIGHT - damn everything just becomes a flashy disco (i have SEVERE astigmatism too). My left eye "prescription" is around 775 degrees (7.75?) and right eye is at 825ish degrees. Anyone at 1000 degrees would be considered legally blind thus pronounced a handicap. Aka l'll become a handicap if i ever reach there. Sure lll get perks like being able to park in handicap spots.........BUT I'LL BE BLIND. Iono people, if thats a price id pay just to walk a few steps less. Being blind isn't quite something i want to achieve that's for sure. Its actually really scary because u become that much more vulnerable. 
9. Tripping down the stairs
   Kind of silly and l'll keep it short. But its true. When i walk down the stairs i fear l'll trip and die. Or worst, trip and get laughed at while laying helplessly at the bottom of the flight of stairs. I'd probably be in too much pain (OR CRIPPLED) to BBM for help! God the thought is scary.
10. Teeth going back to original state
    Iono was it my impatient-ness or my ortho is not a very good orthodontist but my teeth are MADD shifting again. I got braces 2 yrs ago but after a year and maybe a couple of months, my ortho allowed the removal of them and i'm stuck w/ expensive "invisalign"-like retainers. Even WITH retainers my top row of teeth are shifting and i REALLY, REALLY don't want to have crooked teeth again. Not only because i can't afford getting braces AGAIN (fuck nuts) but just the pure fact that it would be crooked. I look at pictures and am disgusted by the way i looked before i got braces. I NEVER want to go back to looking like that thus.......scared to death. Ugh. I hate dentists. You guys robbbb me pooooor. 

Woot. done! Hopefully everything makes sense because im not going to edit/reread what i typed.

I understand, fears are meant to be faced.......but that only means time, and i know i am capable of it. Except maybe for the rodent one. THAT i refuse to face/get over. haha

Time to head out for MWDC biatches!

10 day -you- challenge ; Loves

The four obvious:

1. Family
   My life. Enough said.  
2. Friends
   Girlfriends whom are like sisters, boys who makes me laugh and drunk - key people required in my life. I cannot be more thankful. 
3. Futbol/Arsenal
   This has officially earned a #3 spot (not that this list is ranking my loves in order) because it has become that big of a part in my life. Whether its for the game, the guys, my team - anything related to it, J'TAIME! I mean if i am able to give up eating octopus and squid until 2014, it's GOTTA be love yo. 
4. Food
   Maybe this is why i will never be able to get skinny because i don't really believe in cutting anything out. I would eat poutine every day of my life if i can. My happy level depends on my food intake. Feed me and my happy level soars!
   
   Bhahah didnt even notice they all start with F's. Moving on.
   
   
5. Blackberry
   I am perhaps one of the biggest crackberrys ever. I've walked into doors, tripped over benches, honked at in parking lots, been grabbed - ALL B/C.....i'm always paying attention to my phone. The only other person i would say that comes close to being as obsessed as i am is probably annnbug. And maybe J too since he does my blueberry tri-monthly maintenance work. But i love it. It's my life. Defines who i am. 
6. Design
   Design is so vague, broad and subjective that its hard to say what i mean by "design" being a love for me. It can be defined in so many ways but i'm not exactly sure how to articulate it so i'm going to leave it to yours imagination to figure what "design" is. Either way, its a love of mine. 
7. Blogging
   I have blogging since Monday, January 03, 2005. That's six years that i have not abandon documenting my life because I absolutely love blogging. I love sharing my thoughts for others to read and i don't mind others knowing more about me because i really have nothing to hide. I'm probably not as funny in person though. Snickers. Its my love for blogging that drives me to take the time out of "job searching" time to type up something or share something for those who come by my blog. No doubt that blogging is a love. 
8. Potatoes + Cheese + Gravy = Poutine
   Who doesn't know that i love poutine? Shiet i just revealed (yesterday) that i use to drink that meat juice as soup! That said the three top food categories (yes they have their own categories according to MY food pyramid) in my life all happens to be in ONE dish, God is good to me. That's gotta be love.
9. I can't think of a #9.....so skip to #10. 
10. Fashion, manicures & pedicures, caesars, paper, shopping, post-it notes, shoes, tequila, weddings, hardcover books, typography, sad chinese/mando music, starbucks, facebook, harry potter, fairytales, smell of sharpie markers, photography, wine, scarves, myself, ribbons, make-up, megaupload, office supplies, piano or strings music, vintage anything, twitter, Pandas, mcNuggets, twilight, text messages, fat things, honey, bookstores, calligraphy, toys....................is love.

Yay done! Now to jump over to my soccer blog to blog there! lol