More to Love

There's a new reality series by FOX called More to Love and basically is "The Bachelor", but for PLUS SIZE people. Meaning the bachelor himself is a plus-size man, and all the single ladies are plus-size babes.

At first i thought it was really cute. In my mind i thought, "AW. Fat people can find love too"...and that's always been my philosophy seeing i have been chubby/fat/oh-so-heavy all my life. Its only been about 2 yrs or so that ive finally been lesser on the fat side, but leaning very much into the THICK/MEATY side of things. Anyways, because i've always been on that side of the fence- i know how it feels to have guys not look twice at you, creating mountains of insecurities resulting in believing that "fat girls can never find love let alone a date.". So after seeing this show being promoted, i was extremely "FOR" this show until i noticed two things that made me feel a lil offended.

1. The show is portraying the message that: plus size girls want a plus size guy.
Ah, totally UNTRUE. This misconception always comes up because ppl assume if your partner is overweight like you are, you have something in common. No hahah. That is completely false. They totally showed this by choosing a MEATY/PLUS Bachelor and of course, all the woman are equally/or bigger than him. Giving off the message that love can only found between two big people is just plain ass stupid. They should cast a less meaty bachelor, it would make things more REALISTIC. I dont understand why they cant cast a less meaty guy. I mean opposites DO attract haha True it may be pretty hard to find a guy like that out there but I KNOW HE EXISTS. Look at the mister. He's PRIME EXAMPLE. muah ah ah ah.

2. The show is about "real, normal" woman
That's really offending to a lot of fit/skinny girls out there because the producers are basically saying they arent normal lol I dont think they should say that this show features "real" woman, but rather focus it in a light where they arent bashing skinny pretty girls and focus more on the fact that these meaty girls can be just as fun as any size girl. haha unless America considers being big, than obviously i have no say on that haha

A quote directly from a forum debate on this:

"While it may be difficult for many people to believe, the average size woman in the US is a 14. Until size 0 and negative 2 size women started being praised in the media, that was normal. It still is normal. Being a size 14 does not mean unhealthy. IT'S NORMAL. We've just been bombarded with unrealistic and unsustainable photoshopped pictures for so long that we forget, IT'S NORMAL! Size 14 is not fat. Can I say it again? It's normal! And btw, anyone who resorts to name calling just shows that they are not intelligent enough to debate with facts."

I cannot have said it better myself.



--- Contradicting myself now, i am still going to watch it despite its sending the wrong message. lolol


Also on the subject of weight issues, i recently joined Goodlife Fitness because i felt myself getting big again and im really sick of that pear-shaped body i have ( i blogged about a couple of weeks) and i really should do something about it instead of always complaining how fat i am to LX. On top of that, my cousin really motivated me to join so i gotta give her lots of credit for that.

So far ive been really good, i go three times a week (b/c thats all that my membership permits me), two of those days i attend classes back to back (Body Pump, a class that involves cardio&strength training, Body Combat, a class that mixes cardio with karate&boxing and Body Jam, cardio&dancing) and on Sundays if i dont make it early enough for one of the Strength Training class, i'm going to do my own strength training in the weights section with all the intimidating boys. Shocking isnt it seeing ive never done any weights/strength training yet i am willing to go join the strange sweaty boys.

The things i will do to ditch this pear-shaped body! Hopefully it pays off. Normally people would try to lose weight to have a "beach" bod for the summer, but seeing that we dont really have a summer *sad face*, l'll just work towards a refined birthday body!

Wish me good luck.................its going to be mad hard cuz i still love (bad) food.



Anyways this weekend is full mode, Project Debbie Travis on a Budget! Will explain and show that later. Sadly though, Operation Special Project will be on hold........for quite some time.


outs.

I Hate Computers

i reformatted my laptop last night, and i THOUGHT things are going to be better and much smoother after the reformat.

Sighs.

its not.

• Random windows alerts pops up
• my MSN doesnt run b/c of some prevention script. Not that it matters b/c i dont go on MSN (THAT MUCH) anymore but the fact that it doesnt even run bothers me.
• The resolution of the screen keeps on changing back and forth periodically and spontaneously when i least expect it
• No Adobe Creative Suite : ((((
• Transition between windows seems kind of slow
  

The only great thing that came out of all this, is i now have Microsoft Outlook (Thank U Stanley) and it actually worksssssss. Now i am obsessed with syncing my life with it.

But with all the CONS in place, I'm REALLY considering a new laptop (maybe a nice monster size, 16"-17") on top of the many things i wish to purchase aka finance for a year. For example i am in the middle of planning to redo & rearrange my room. The project is going to be like a year long because i cant afford to buy everything at once (i.e. a new bed, new sheets, filing cabinet, etc.) and i still need to throw out/donate/store/sell a gazillion things in my room. After that's done, i can then begin to buy furniture and couple of other things, put up the curtains the mister got me and do some crazy moving after i pay all my crazy bills.

Sighs.

This has not been a good weekend at all. Weather is shitty, computer acting up. && it just started to rain as i begin to pack for the gym.

Double sighs.

TWILIGHT @ COMIC CON 2009

i kid.
i wish that was me. hahahah
holymoly look at all those ppl!!!!!!!!!! They're there for the Twilight Panel @ Comic Con in SanDiego. AKA they are all there to see edward or jacob, or both.


so exciting.


Reblogged by http://incontention.com/?p=10526

You Know You Love Me

Heres more recent gossip stuff i picked up during my lunch hours that i wish to share both the gossip and my two cents on it.


[ SECTION 1: R.PATZ aka My God ]

Robert Pattinson Attacked By Pack Of Cougars
“Look out tweens, they’re fully developed, experienced, and they’ve got the hots for R. Pat real bad.”

• HAHAHAHAH this made me laugh so hard.

““Rob Pattinson is a sex symbol,” said Daniel Radcliffe. “Rob Pattinson is a genuine sexy guy. He’s got the height. If girls like short and nerdy, then I’m a sex symbol!”

• Yesh. Yesh he is. sighs

• Taylor Lautner. Jacob Black. You have officially won my heart!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
  

[ SECTION 2: Channing Tatum, mister hot gangster underwear model ]

Channing Tatum is MARRIED.

• I'm sure this broke MANY girls (and guys) hearts. But hey, if someone so hot is married- it just means its COOOL to get married. Yes yes? Hahaha

“I don’t care. If they don’t like me because I voted for Obama, then f— them. I like horses and I like Obama. Nothin’ wrong with hat.” - Channing Tatum to GQ Magazine

• horses?!?! correlation to obama?!?! PWHAHAHAHAHA not only is he hot, hes also funny.

[ SECTION 3: JON & HIS EX KATE minus THE CUTE EIGHT ]

“Jon Gosselin is engaged to Hailey Glassman (22), his girlfriend of two months. “

• Ohmyefffing geeee. Is that even legal when he isnt even SEPARATED from Kate yet?? That’s FREAKING CRAZYYY. And the kids are growing up so fast. Sniff. Probably because of the divorce. Sniff sniff.

“Jon Gosselin’s new girlfriend Hailey Glassman apparently “is not a fan of fat people” "

• BITCH. I swear im starting to be mad annoyed with all the gossip features on Jon (& his ex Kate) and this new gf of his. They're both big douche bags. I hope the children doesn’t have to call this new douche bag mama #2

UPDATED: Jon Gosselin is now dating Tabloid Reporter, Kate Major just five days after they were first photographed together.

• WTF. thats all i gotta say. what the efffff. First hes engaged now hes not? Now hes dating a reporter name KATE? Pwahhaah irony's a bitch.
  

[ SECTION 4: misc. ]

Original Article link: http://justjared.buzznet.com/2009/07/21/alice-in-wonderland-teaser-trailer/

• To summarize the article, go on facebook and become a fan of either the Mad Hatter, Red Queen or White Queen and the page that has the most fans, Disney will release a movie trailer about them. Craziness. Vote vote. I wanna see a Mad hatter trailer! Even though its pretty obvious Johnny Depp is going to win (13,200 fans vs. 2909 vs 2426)
  

• She (Jennifer Aniston) is HOT. She may be no Megan Fox but shes SEXYYY elegant and classy. I want to look that hot when im forty.

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Okay im done. All courtesy of just jar-ed (pwahahha) dot com.
Also! Comic Con 2009 in SanDiego seems SO exciting this year. i wish i was able to go.

I swear I am the biggest wimp in the world.

I cannot tolerate any sort of pain, whether its the bf popping a pimple for me (his favorite past-time. I know, its lovely), a nasty toothache or getting a needle. I think pretty much everybody knows this and just calls me a big crybaby (a big -EFF you to everyone) when I whine about something that hurts.....it probably does to whatever extent.

Anyways the other day, a nurse drop by my house to give me a physical because my insurance lady says I had to get one in order to qualify blah blah blah. I was a little bit...NERVOUS at first and I got a lil more panicky when she began to set up the needle to get blood. To quickly summarize my fear of drawing blood, the last time I had to get blood was when I had my Kidney infection. It basically took three nurses, three different needle heads (I don’t even know why they used the super big one for the second try?!?!?) and about five attempts to PROBE for my vein. It was freaking ridiculous and of course I cried like a newborn. I mean if you had people fishing for your vein when you were in serious pain already, you get kinda traumatized. Which brings me back to present day, the kind Filipino-looking-but-was-actually-Chinese nurse told me she doesn’t “go fishing” for veins and I should keep on talking and think *Happy Thoughts* when she proceeds to insert the needle. Haha so according to my brother who was in the next room, I began talking non-stop to the air for like a good five minutes with almost no breaks.

His words- you didn’t shut up for one second there.

Sighs. I guess I do have a tendency to babble when im nervous. Back to my talking, so while I was talking I realized everything I said related back to the mister and his nephews and niece. I babbled on about how we met, what we like to do, his cute nephews and niece and how much I adore them, on and on. At the end of making it through two vials of blood, the kind nurse said to me, “You are one happy girl” and I smiled like an idiot at her while my arm began to bled profusely where the needle was.........ANYWAYS lol It made me realize (once again) in the recent years how much happier I have become and its still very unbelievable given my terrible relationship history and the shitty luck that i have had with guys. IN CONCLUSION, what i am trying to say is I feel lucky that I am able to have happy thoughts to think about when I am most scared.

........barf.


i know. but i was in blogging mode and had to write about someeeeething.

Randoms:

• Yesterday evening, BodyCombat combat-ed the sh!t out of me. i couldnt even make it through the entire class. Kay fails.
• Skinny Asian chicks that go work out does not annoy me. Skinny Asian chicks that go work out in booty shorts ALSO does not annoy me. On the other hand, skinny Asian chicks that DO NOT work out and show up at the gym in booty shorts and sits on weight machines and does not do anything but talk to her other skinny Asian chick friend with a low cut top who is also like her just sitting on a weight machine - ANNOYS ME. I dont get what theyre doing, are they trying to MOCK ALL THE FAT PPL IN THE ROOM!?!? I am like sweating my ass off (you do not want to see me at the gym. i look like a fat panda with crazy hair gasping for air on a treadmill) and i see them tippy toe-ing from one machine to another. Am i not catching on to some new miracle exercise routine where tippy toe-ing around the weights machine will help you lose weight? Hell if that was the case l'll tippy toe around the weights machine for two hours straight if i have to. Someone let me know please.
• To finish off the previous point, when my cousin and i head back to the locker room to shower and do our respective business, these girls trot in again (their lockers were next to my cousins. i wasnt stalking them) and dont even bother to wash their face, change or anything. But then why would they need to do all that when all they did was come to the gym to NOT SWEAT. *thumbs up*
  
• Later that evening after gymming, I RANDOMLY saw Tall Jenn in the Bamburgh Circle Plaza. I msged her and told her she looked really distressed lol.
• That was my eventful evening of failed combat routines, annoying Asians, pho and starbucks.
  
• Today, My hair slightly resembles Aslan the lion (the lion from Chronicles of Narnia). Kay fails AGAIN.

Good Day!

Six years.

Its been six years that ive been searching for this. & tonight i finally found the full version of the theme song from 律政新人王 <<忘記傷害 by 林峯>>. ive always just had the "extracted" version and never the actual full thing and tonight after listening to it just now for the first time in its full, it still doesnt fail to make me tear up if not worst than when i first heard it.

gah. this is like grade 12 all over again lol

i hate emo songs.

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in the end i just have bad communication skills. or perhaps i just fail.

bitch rant

i wrote up this CRAZY, MEAN bitch rant at work but i left it in one of my "draft" emails, so im going to copy and paste that later because thinking about it now it should be quite entertaining to read.

my teeth hurts : (


edit back with my entry copied & pasted ###

Over the years, ive grown to notice that I hate ignorant, useless people. Maybe because I am now more bitter little things annoys me. I am even more annoyed when people say stupid things about things that I am particularly passionate/fond of. For example today, on my facebook a useless person changed their status to say something along the lines of, “...wasn't that good, no fighting, no explosions... no anything really, but at least Gandolf aced a mountain of Schmegols.. “ - that pissed the fuck out of me. So pissed, I decided to delete that person off of my facebook because theyre useless and all their statuses annoys me. Anyways that status is so terribly stupid on several parts. One, no fighting, no explosions? Whatthefuck? HP isnt some combat action movie to begin with, if you walked into the theater thinking you’re going to get that- YOU-ARE-FUCKING-RETARDED (excuse my french). Go watch X-Men again if you want fighting and explosions. I hope it wows your peanut-size brain. Second, the line that said “no anything really”, ah were you asleep for the 2 and a half hours of the movie? Clearly you did not read the book nor did you even attempt to understand the movie. Again back to my comment about having a peanut size brain, I understand at that size you cant process things quickly enough. Lastly, the part about Gandolf and smeagols (its S-M-E-A-L-G-O-L)- this is more of a personal bias because I am a Harry potter fan, but you do NOT COMPARE OR REFER DUMBLEDORE AS GANDOLF, or reference Harry Potter to any Lord of the Rings stories. OhmyfcukingGee. I feel anger as im typing this. People are SO STUPID.

& to maintain fairness to that person (even though I still think they're stupid), a lot of people are like this too and it bugs me how probably half the population on this planet is ignorant like that and probably worst. Roar, I hate people.

Anyways that’s my bitch rant.

The rant about the movie itself though, it was so good! This is quite good coming from a hardcore Harry Potter fan. From beginning to the end, I felt like there was not a single boring moment and even though it was condensed, even though they changed many, many parts, didn’t focus in more important scenes, I was surprised at the fact that I LOVED it. I mean, I basically named all the things I hate about books-turning-into-movie yet this was so different! It was funny, I laughed my ass off, the boys (tom&dan) were such yummy eye candy and so charming, the actor that played one of the profs- he was EXCELLENT, they focused heavily on the Ron&Hermione storyline (which I loved because im a R&H fan) and the story made sense even though their British accents are SO hard to understand sometimes. Overall, this movie sold me. In the previous five movies, they butchered the story. The first one I would say was the best one, than came the second and fifth which were very mediocre. The third and fourth were TERRIBLE. The third book (HP&The Prisoner of Azkaban aka the one where his teacher was a werewolf) is actually my favorite book (next to the seventh) out of all seven and the third movie is the one I hate the most. They butchered EVERYTHING, cut the wrong scenes, TERRIBLE, ohmygod. Same with the fourth one too but I think its only b/c the kids were going through their awkward teenage years which was why the movie was so shit too. I pretty much gave up on the idea of there ever being a GOOD Harry Potter movie because the first five failed and disappointed me (thats 71%!!!!!). Now we come to this day, in almost seven years, a HP movie finally gave the book justice (more than the other ones)!!!! I am SO excited about the 7th movie which they are turning into TWO movies. Apparently they are using the same technology that was used in the "Curious Case of Benjamin Button" movie. I cant really remember why they would need that technology (uhoh, bad dorky. time to re-read) but its going to be deadly when it comes out! i know it.

hmmmmm I am SO willing to watch it again with anyone who wants to see it. I will give them another $11.50 of my savings because I love (you) Harry Potter.

The trio looks SO sexy in these pictures.
Though im not too digging the whole Ron is so far away from Hermione thing. They should all just hook up (well R&H) and have harry potter babies. Their babies would make so much money. Maybe JK Rowling can write a sequel on their babies.

Harry Potter

Watching it tonight! YESSSSSSSH ^____^
Ratings so far so good, DO NOT DISAPPOINT ME!

As always, i will just learn to get over it.

Reblogged: Cute Wisdom

Once upon a Time, there was an island where all the feelings lived: Happiness, Sadness, Knowledge, and all of the others including Love. One day it was announced to the feelings that the island would sink, so all repaired their boats and left. Love was the only one who stayed. Love wanted to persevere until the last possible moment. When the island was almost sinking, Love decided to ask for help.

Richness was passing by Love in a grand boat. Love asked Richness for help. Richness answered, "No, I can't...There is a lot of gold and silver in my boat. There is no place here for you."
Love decided to ask Vanity who was also passing by in a beautiful vessel, "Vanity, please help me!" "I can't help you, Love. You are all wet and might damage my boat," Vanity answered.
Sadness was close by so Love asked Sadness for help, "Sadness, let me go with you." "Oh...Love, I am so sad that I need to be by myself!"

Happiness passed by Love too, but she was so happy that she did not even hear when Love called her!

Suddenly, there was a voice, "Come Love, I will take you." It was an elder. Love felt so blessed and overjoyed that he even forgot to ask the elder her name. When they arrived at dry land, the elder went her own way. Love realizing how much he owed the elder asked Knowledge, another elder, "Do you know who helped me?"

"It was Time," Knowledge answered." Time?" asked Love. "But why did Time help me?" Knowledge smiled with deep wisdom and answered, "Because only Time is capable of understanding how great Love is."


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This is the part where we all go, AWWWWWWWWWWW

Originally blogged by Annnnnnn : )

Winner of all Winners

my friend D just launched her new site. Head over and take a look around.
i love that girl. She truly is the inspiration for me to not give up on design. I would categorize her as a PRO when it comes to Design and is the only person i know that can turn dead, boring words into something witty and laugh-out-loud-able material.


http://scribbled.ca/


*thumbs up, props and a big high five*

Winner

On this Day

i ate my first bite of a vegetable in....19 years?
[[ Quick backstory: I don't eat vegetables, blah blah blah, i get naueous and sick and an automatic gag reflex when i attempt to eat veggies so its a psychological reaction blah blah blah its been like this since i was four blah blah yes my number two is fine blah blah blah the end. ]]

pwahhaha omfg this is too much. What happened was, i went to my manager's Italian resturant (Stratto Wine & Grill on Avenue Road) with the mister and their food was effing delicious. Holyshit, you know that im not kidding or exaggerating if the food was able to get me to eat veggies. this is crazy i tell uuuuuu!!!

i ordered their calamari griglia( Tossed with Olive oil, garlic, Balsamic, Kalamata olives, oven roasted tomatoes and fresh herbs with blonde frisee’....copied from their site* haha) and the sauce that it was prepared in was SO GOOD, that this was when i told myself i have to eat all the tomatoes because it would be a terrible sin to let this good sauce go to waste. So that was when i began to eat them..................amazing isnt it (the mister helped me with the sauce by dipping our dinner rolls into it...we are so big six).

pwahahaha.

Then the gnocchi alfredo i ordered and the mister lasagna was uber filling and delicious.

& & we got to have traditional Italian tiramisu (superb taste, the alcohol soaked with the cheese mmmmmm) on the house, courtesy of my manager's husband aka the owner.

i swear it was one orgasmic dish after another.

i am taking every single person i know to that restaurant (i.e. the girls, my parents, my cousin&bf, and more) not only because the food was A+++, the presentation was A+++ too (the presentation was like those dishes you see that gets prepared on the Iron Chef) but because i ate a tomato without anyone forcing me to. Okay so maybe its NOTTT that big of a deal, but seriously those whom has ate with me before, WOULD know that this is kind of a big deal for me so

BE PROUD OF ME PEOPLE.

giggle giggles. i know i suck.....and fat from the calorie explosion.
but LETS DO IT AGAIN SOOOOON muahahah *thumbs up*

the mister and i before dinner @ starbucks. look at how big my cheeks are!


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Edit: Ok its like 2 hours later and i still feel bloated. i feel like i downed a bottle of cream and im not digesting and its almost my bedtime. yuckiness.
do not try this kids......even though it was pretty amazing. haha

MJ

Even though i am kind of contradicting what i am about to say by blogging about it in the first place, but its okay because i know i am contradicting myself.

For the past two and a half weeks, the entertainment and paparazzi world has focused their attention to Michael Jackson's death. Every single channel, news feed, paper, magazine, gossip site, radio has either been either covering the story, playing his music, or both and basically amplifying his death. This is probably a "good" thing for other celebrities (i.e. Kate Gosslin) because it means they probably got a 2 week break away from the paparazzi because they all flew to LA to cover the MJ death.

Adding on to some of the points my cousin brought up on the subject of ".....why didn't people appreciate him when he was alive!!??? the same people who are mourning him now were making fun of him when he was alive!" YES, point well made. To top that off, the mediais blowing things out of proportions re: how he died, why he died, is he really the daddy to his children, the content of his will, his memorial, etc. -- the heck?

I was never a MJ fan. I dont know his music, i dont know anything about his career aside from all the tainted negetive gossip that surrounds him. Its quite terrible that I am only interested in him because of all the gossip that the media generates. I don't really careee about it in general but like i said, i am only following this because of all the coverage and gossip that spruce out of the topic.

Moving onto the original reason why i wanted to blog about MJ. Today was his memorial/funeral and people coined it as "Bigger than Elvis & Princess Diana's death". I, would coin it as "Joe-Jackson (his pa)-and-LA's-Money-Making" event more than anything else. Seriously, it was a circus (there were elephants and horses clearing the roads) followed by an awesome concert feat. Mariah Carey, Jennifer Hudson, John Meyer (random!? hes not even black!), Lionel Ritchie, etc. with sidewalk booths selling MJ tshirts, cups and lawn chairs. Tsk tsk, talk about lack of respect. The LA authorities should fine these people for making money off of a FUNERAL event. I dont think people should even compare this event to Princess Di's memorial because from what i remember, hers was classy, tasteful, and respectable. You can actually feel the sadness sweep through the crowd as her casket was driven away. Even though i didnt watch the MJ memorial myself, i can imagine it being like a big concert.

Facebook and CNN did a collaborative "interactive" event again (the first being Obama's Inauguration....which i was part of) where we could have watched the event live and be able to change our status in accordance to the side conversations that went on....as we were suppose to mourn the loss of "the greatest entertainer". According to a few sites, there were 500,000+ status updates and was estimated that it would total one million at the end of the day. Greattttttttt, one million RIP postings.

Perhaps some would think i am contributing to this distasteful coverage by blogging about it but like i mentioned in my first sentence, i know im contridicting myself but its alright because i say so and because from the start i admit im a big gossip girl, and not fake like a lot of those "mourners" out there.

the end of rant. period.

oh and im super excited about Harry Potter 6. tehehehe One week countdown! && my "label" cloud code worked on my first try. YESHH, to me. Now i have a semi-wannabe WordPress blog!

Great.

"To dream that someone is shooting you with a gun, suggests that you are experiencing some confrontation in your waking life. You may feel victimized in some situation."

"To dream that you feel fear, indicates that your achievements will not be as successful as you had anticipated. You are experiencing anxieties in various aspects of your life. The key to overcoming your fear is to discuss them and deal with them openly."

Like the New Look?

I finally did it and got off of my lazy arse and changed my blog look.
The background is still pretty off and theres a couple of bugs and kinks here and there, but l'll come around to changing and fixing it all soon.
Funny that i took the time to do this but neglected to do more important things i.e. buy a domain name and set things up with D. (sorry sorry! i will get back to u on fb soooon soooon) lol
Enjoy~?

Some thoughts:

• I finally watched Transformers 4 and i agree with every other male (and some female) organism on this planet that Megan Fox is three words: HOT, RAW, SEX. That of course, is another topic for me to rant about on another day lol but wow, she is SEXXXX.
  
• Twin just told me on MSN that TWO of her friends are newly engaged and both whomwhich were proposed to this month. I officially declare this to be PROPOSAL month because EVERYONE IS GETTING ENGAGED. I say its the influence of that movie (the Proposal) but other than that, i think its time for all you people whom i know that are dating- TO GET ENGAGED so i can have an engagement party to attend.
• I have the sniffles. Boooooos.
• I am SO excited about Harry Potter 6. It looks SO good, i really hope it lives up to its trailer. I have good feelings about this movie. Time to prep for it by re-reading the book for the seventh-ish again!!!
  
• Other movies that still has/has my interest: G.I.JOE, the Last AirBender, Daybreakers, Amelia (Probably DL), My Sister's Keeper, Angels&Demons (Waiting patiently for the Mister to finish the book) and Inglorious Bastards (Probably DL as well)
• I bought these super awesome 0.4 point pens and pretty file folders @ chapters for 75% off and they look so pretty on my desk....now i just gotta make my desk look pretty.
  
• Note to self: Buy more make-up cotton pads and do nails because fingers look naked without color
  

Okay time for sleepy time because just like that, a new week begins.

So Much to Do, So Little Time

I have been busy-ing myself with a little side project (which i coined as Operation Special Project...so unoriginal i know) that started out as something fun and i had plans for it to progressively evolve into something more serious in the future. Now, i have plans to began to actually structure this project and turn it into something more serious and potentially change my career direction (again)....OR it can remain as something on the side, depending on how much success and interest I still have in Operation Special Project in a month or two. I am hoping with D's (thanks mindtrip!!!! =D ) assistance in my project it will be go smoothly and a little faster because she is amazingly talented and i cant wait to learn more things from her. I wonder has anyone figured out what im doing yet. I'll reveal what it is once I actually have results (even though I think its kind of obvious and very boring to some).

That's one thing.

Anyways so apart from needing to do all that, i still want to change the layout to this blog but (like my cousin haha) i have been SO lazy and im still not motivated enough to figure out how the HTML works for Blogspot. I dont know about others, but their templates are so long and tiresome to look at that it just tires me out as im scrolling through the lengthy codes. I suppose people can peek at what im working on if you go to my Experimental Charms page. There's not much to peek at though. Peeking is only worth fun when there something worth looking at lol

That's two things.

The other day i stepped on my scale and i did NOT like what i saw haha Clearly my plan to "maintain" my weight (no gain, no loss) is not working. Also i've noticed in the past year, my body has morphed itself into a pear shape. To explain that in greater detail, it basically means i can buy shirts in size S-M, or size 6-8, simple enough. Ha when i buy skirts (especially pants), i explode to a mighty size 12? 14? size L-XL? Which is why i dont like wearing jeans anymore and opt for black cotton pants or dresses/skirts. Its even more noticeable in pictures, it makes me very sad and makes my shopping trips very annoying because sales people tend to recommend what they think would fit my upper body......and become "surprised" when my behind doesnt fit into it. Sweet (and polite) of them to think i can fit into a smaller size, but a big waste of my time because it takes me twice as long to figure out what size i need. big boourns to my lower body. Anyhoo moving on, My cousin basically inspired me to go sign up for the Gym, and i probably will join next week. Hopefully because of this monthly fee, it would inspire me to make good use of my membership and i can perhaps thin out this pear-shape body of mine into i dunno, a kiwi or something because wanting to be like thin like a banana is being greedy (......I dont know why i am making references to fruits). It also means a couple of my evenings will be dedicated to gyming which decoys me from doing other things.

That's three things now.


There's also like a tonne of miscellaneous things i need to do such as iron all my clothes (my boss hates wrinkles), read up on how to improve on Copywriting, clear out my room/decorate it with the stuff the mister got me for Vday this year (i dont think i ever mentioned, but he got me all these things i wanted from IKEA for Valentines Day instead of flowers and teddybears because he's not very fond of things that dies and things that collect dust), reorganize my ipod *cough lx's ipod that i stole cough*, develop all four years worth of GCM pictures & formal+convocation pics to be framed.

Four, five, six, seven, eight things!!!!!

Gahhhhh. Whoa, thank god for Blogspot's AUTOSAVE because i freaking hit the [BACK] button just now and could have potentially lost all that junk and rant i wrote just now. Kudos to blogspot! But back to my original though, i was just going to say: see what i mean by having so much to do, and having so little time to do it all (efficiently)?

*thumbs up*

Oh and today, i went to get my trial pair of contact lenses and can you say EPIC FAIL in giant captital letters?!!? omfg, as ive already tweeted about it- it was the most tortureous experience i ever had to endure. I really dont know how all you contact lense-wearing people can do it so naturally, but big ups to ALL OF YOU because holy shit it was such a terrible and frustrating experience. I sat at the back of the store for a good hour and a half and was only able to put them on and wear them ONCE for ten minutes (yes the sales lady PUT THEM ON ME for me, it was not at all my victory) before attempting to take them off myself which took a grueling half an hour. Than when she told me to do it myself, i seriously sat there for a good hour trying to put them on myself. It was horrific and i teared up so much and kept on pushing on my eye-area so much that all my concealor and eyeliner actually was gone by the end (terrible makeup mess) when i totally gave up. I told the lady l'll come in on Monday with the boyfriend (as a contact-lense wearing supporter and perhaps, teacher) to try again, i pray it will be better. sighs.

Or maybe me and the "unknown" were not meant to be?
or maybe simply, me and sunglasses were not meant to be.

*thumbs down and sad face*