Zero

i had one of those dreams. Where everything in the dream...was normal again. I mean there were no changes, nothing out of the ordinary, it was all the same like nothing happened.

It was a complete nightmare.

Because i know that it won't happen again....i felt that "complete" feeling again...and that for me, hurts a lot.

I woke up feeling like i was back at zero.

I don't need dreammoods.com to decode any of this. Its just that part of me that i've so successfully suppressed- missing the past.

Argh. This is what lots of alcohol on a weeknight does to you.