New Years Eve, Eve

The day is almost over and i am still in a bit of a shock that tomorrow is NYE. It really, REALLY doesn't feel  like it. It might be the warmth, the lack of snow, the lack of spirit - who knows. That said i am starting to get a bit excited about it after getting my nails done earlier in the afternoon. Currently @ a SB by dear A's place, awaiting her to shower so we can grab some dinner and a gossip futbol session to follow. I redeemed my much belated "birthday" drink (that i am entitled to!!!!!) and made my own seat at the corner of the bar where i don't think is a "legit" seat.....but due to my subtle flirtatious manipulative but friendly nature i was able to get my way and was even able to find a plug BEHIND the bar. Win!

So what's the plan for tomorrow? Getting sloshed (in a classy way) with the cousin and the group at Club V over in Yorkville. Its suppose to be a Masquerade party but i can really careless about that. It's mostly the 3 bottles and 2 bubblys that i care about haha. The night's goal is to try to maintain lady-like posture while double fisting my drinks to sensual top 40s beats.

The idea is to be able to wake for the Arsenal game at noon. haha! The shit i do for futbol.

It's actually my first time clubbing for NYE (SHOCKING. I KNOW) and will probably be my last time. haha so i better make the best out of it.

I will probably not be updating at all. If my hangover doesn't kill me l'll update on the 1st after my Arsenal game at noon where i plan to spend my day at SB w/ possibly J when he returns for the day (that's possibly after hangover dimsum with Cousin & Co.) Otherwise until January 3rd it is. I'm excited about posting that entry. I've been slowly adding to it every day so its going to be quite a read.

So a big Happy New Years to everyone!
Party hard, party safe.
I will be back with a year wrap-up entry when i can function!

Outs~

Not Caring

I find myself being able to walk away from a certain situation tonight with so much confidence and A LOT of game - because i don't allow myself to care.

I know how the game works. i am effing proud of myself.

Now if i can only do the same with this other situation. I have no idea how this game is going to be, how serious and how long but from the looks of it i do not have the upper advantage which scares me shitless.

Simply because i think i'm starting to care. i don't know if im ready for this game.

Fuck-erys.

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I should sleep.

Gotta start the day early, perhaps SB, head to the gym, get nails done for NYE and go see A!

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Le Ghetto Side of Me. 

 

So appropriate.

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HAHAHHA

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I love finding cool things like this.

Plans for Today?

NONE. 

Because i am POOR and need to recover for NYE this Friday.

Therefore i am going to take advantage of this fact and:

• Clean my unbeliveably messy room and to sterilize/sanitize/make it germs-free
• Watch the Catalonia vs Honduras friendly 
• Pray that ManU will lose their game 
• Watch Despicable Me
• Check how much i have spent in the past 2 weeks (something i am absolutely DREADING) and figure out some finance stuff
• Possibly Combat - haven't decided yet. I still feel defeated from last night

Side-note: love LOVE Big Bang Theory. Where have ive been without this show?!?!?! ohmygod i must catch up.

Random

Can someone take the Clamato juice away from me? I'm on my third cup of Caesars in an hour and a half.

Brief Update

Just to let you people know that i am honestly okay-

my mood improved dramatically since i learned one of my futbol player crushes just joined twitter.

amazing how much power these men has over me.

Severe case of Holiday Blues

I tried really hard to change how this Christmas was going to be like this year. Everything i can do to not be alone, to create new traditions, to not allow myself to be pitiful and feel sorry for myself. I seriously, honest to god felt the way my Christmas Eve was spent - things might actually not be so bad and god probably might even be good to me.

Things dramatically went downhill from there. The root and cause of the problem being things at home. The favoritism of my brother has never been more evident - no matter how successful I am, my brother is entitled to the same luxuries without working for it. I feel like I am growing further apart from my mother because of her stubborn, restrained and old-fashion mind. The plus side is I feel like sometimes now that the older my father gets, the more he understands things.......when he isn't angry that is.

Everything just fell apart.

The perfect Christmas that i was suppose to have, expected to have - Gone. Stolen. Taken away from me.

The new Christmas that i wished to have now also non-existing with the exception of the great couple of hours escape i had over at K's last night. It was a great few hours i got to spend in company of good people. Her family are kind people to let me join. I appreciate and am forever grateful for that. They have no idea.

Then this morning those broken parts of this holiday just continued to crumble into dust. I got into the largest fight with the mother I have EVER gotten into in the existence of my life. It was brutal. Beliefs were brought up, harsh words were exchanged and it was obvious she was not gonna back down and knowing me when i am pissed, my attitude and face exhibits the words - Bring. It. On.

Yes, to my own mother. It was the worst, sickening and hurtful feeling.

I know that all of my friends are busy with boxing day and holiday festivities and the one thing i hate is to hassle them with my problems. I refuse to have friends change their plans for me. I refuse to have people go out of their way to see me. People that cares about me has done SO much for me this year without me asking for anything. You do not pay back good grace with selfishness. You do not treat people like that (something that I was trying to make my mother understand during our fight) and I especially am not going to repay back my friends by dragging them out of what they originally plan simply because i am sad.

I HAD to get out of the house even though I still have a fever and a crazy beast-like cough. Which was why i took refuge to the one place (as STUPID as it sounds) i know l always feel safe and warm at - Starbucks. After drugging myself up with cough meds and sinus drugs I ran all the way to the Yonge and Eglinton Starbucks because i also remembered my 2nd haven was there (being my used bookstore) aka My peaceful sanctuary.

So far its been a good choice to come. I find books to be very comforting (as NERDY as that sounds), the people working are always pleasant, i found 3 books, it was worth the trip. As for Starbucks, i know the workers were going to be good to me (been to this location a couple of times before and never been given grief), the guy at the bar even got me to laugh for a bit - more than i can ask for today. Sad how a coffee shop can give me that type of security. Might be the meaning behind it. Which would be even more sad.

That said comes down to me being here alone, typing up this vent with tears streaming down my face.

I hope they don't think im suicidal. Don't think SB is insured for that kind of stuff.

I'm alright. I'll get through this. Because hey, when do i ever not cry? : )

Bye.

Foul Mood

Maybe i really should have went up to Blue w/ J. At least i know there he would keep my happy mood up.

That is after K's Christmas Fest which she so graciously invited me to join.

Otherwise this has not been a good morning at all.

Talk about a sudden change of mood after last night.

Shit.

Merry fucking Christmas.

My Gift to you all- Merry Christmas

Oh its been a while boys and girls. A while since ive actually really sat down and really wanted to "blog". There has been so many blog-worthy topics and moments over the past weeks but my laziness has gotten the better of me and since this Wednesday, the cold-bug has gotten the best of me. I still feel like poo but thank god for this thing called Tylenol Sinus and Cold, i am able to function.

Today is Christmas Eve as we all know. I officially started typing this around 10pm. I hope by midnight i would have this completed with something juicy and entertaining for you to read as a Christmas gift from me to you. Please do forgive me for the terrible grammer and lack of cohesion because i am still pretty drugged & stuffed up.

Lets back-track shall we?

I promised people a MIAMI post. HAHA oh dear i am so sorry. But i find it kind of pointless to blog the details of the trip when those i actually care about and DO talk to- already know the details of it and i dont want to be redundant. That said though l'm still going to talk about it briefly in an overview sense rather than- what we did on what day and what we ate on what time.

As everyone know, i went to South Beach Miami with one of my best girls C, as a mini getaway for an extended long weekend. We stayed at a beautiful hotel that was literally minutes away from the ocean and another few minutes away from this popular shopping/entertainment/restaurant strip call Lincoln Shopping Strip. Both of us has gone through what we felt like life has done us wrong again (relationship and career-wise). For many evenings prior to our trip it was literally like deja vu where she would be smoking outside on my driveway and we both would just pour our hearts out to each other - just like almost 6 years ago. Where life again played us as fools. Anyways being doomed together, we thought "Hey why not take our doom-ness to somewhere HAWT". Hence the idea was form and we were on a plane to Florida! It was ironic (but not shocking) that we felt many of the same emotions as we left Toronto together on a plane and many scenic things reminded us of certain things. Our trip consisted of us exploring, eating, drinking, shopping, tanning, partying, counting how many pairs of homosexual men that we saw in the remaining duration of our trip.

FYI Kids- South Beach is not a place to get laid. Unless your a guy.

Seriously! Nothing against gays but there was WAY too many that it was a BIT overwhelming. Perhaps it was an underground festival that we did not know about? WHO KNOWS. Maybe boys should tell me that would you ever go shopping/strolling with your bff down a popular tourist strip? I really want to know. Over 80 "suspected" homosexual couples counted within one meal is A LOT if you ask me. 

Another observation- the men that parties there are GENTLEMEN.

They are far from the usual douchey, pushy, obnoxious BOYS in Toronto. I was fairly impressed by the two groups of men that asked us to join their party at this club call Mansion (highly recommended if you are into Hiphop, top40 and oldschool socca....at the end of the night. obvs.) and their mannerism. Sure they aren't lookers and were a bit older than we were but their politeness was what won me over! Thank you Montreal Guy from Room 1 and Black Guy from Room 2! lol

The trip was far, far too short. The weather was amazing. Being able to dine outside in a maxi dress in the middle of December is really something. One thing i did during the trip though was really thought things over. I can go on hating life and fate but i can also take it as a lesson or just another punch thrown at me and stand right back up. I completely admit when we were flying back i felt incrediably sad. I looked out and it was gloomy like that very day, around the same time too and i recalled how happy i was because after a great vacation i was coming home to something. Not this time- i was coming home to nothing ("metaphorically", not "literally") and it was a sharp stab. That said i completely snapped out of it because there's absolutely nothing to be sad about (except from maybe my Job and Weight issue haha). I understand now.

 ive come to understand that there is no suffering if you do neither.
why would anyone want to forget the good times and let time dance by you as you do that? That to me is suppressing, not accepting. It's one choice to choose to suffer. It's also one's choice to put an end to it.

For those interested: I don't feel remotely awkwardness blogging about how i feel even though I know that he comes by here sometimes to read up on what random stuff i have to share. I consider this a growing process and what Junior calls- a mature confession. I'm not asking for ANYONE to hold my hand or AW at me when i talk about this. Blogging has always been my outlet and i do feel much better each time i type it all out. I also think this is why after so many years, people still come by and read my blog. Its because i'm real and i blog about what's real. I don't hide what i feel, if i slip - i admit that i slip. if im on the floor sobbing, i will admit it too. I can go on forever on this topic but l'll leave it here because theres soooooo much more i want to blog about lol

I DIGRESS.

During the trip I confessed many things to her and i feel like we understand each other a lot more. One thing is for sure though- i now stand by even more and have faith that one day things will work out for you C. You are strong, a fighter and again this is just one of those blowouts that will turn into an eventual win for you. A win that will be for life. Greater things have yet to come for you. Love you lots!

Totally random kids, but for my girl readers.
You guys know that i'm not big on purses and bags right? I'm all about vintage purses and hobo bags. But after seeing these two pictures.

Wow. Pure class. 

I totally want a chanel bag now. Especially the BLUE one. Holymoly. I wonder if its real? Can anyone confirm for me? Anyhoo that's just a thought.

Let's see what else is up. Oh yes- the other day i went engagement ring shopping with someone (for the nature and secrecy of the proposal....i cannot disclose how close i am to this person because it would be busted if the girlfriend EVER comes by my blog) and it was SO educational. Who knew diamonds can be SO complex? Okay bad question, it is complex. Its not like buying romaine lettuce (okay maybe it is. LOL INSIDE JK ONLY jay siu & K understands).....where u can just CHOOSE something. So here i was walking around claiming to be his xxxxxx (again, cannot reveal the nature. might compromise the secrecy) and im asked to try on the rings for him. Man, i hate engagement rings. For someone like me that is so into weddings i absolutely HATE them. I feel like they are unnecessary and as ive expressed my opinion many times before, i think my future husband should just effing skip the engagement ring and buy me a really beautiful diamond crested thick thick wedding band. Then spend the duration of the money on photography. hahaha just saying. We made our rounds around Yorkdale and it was SO brutal and draining. All that sparkle totally blinded me. I was glad to finally had my delicious Caesar, YARD of beer (fuckery i think i have a small liking for beer now) and Poutineeeeee at Honest Lawyers with xxxxx (no need to explain right?) joining us shortly. Overall it was a great day - im whole-heartedly honoured to be the one you chose to ask to go ring shopping. I really can't wait for the wedding. I think it would be very heart-wrenching.

But wow. It is almost midnight, this entry really did almost take two hours to write. Back to present day being Christmas Eve. I really thought today was going to be depressing. This year (aside from being brutally sick for the past couple of days!!!! omgosh) i opted out to go to ANY family outtings. To those that talk to me on a regular basis would know why so i don't want to repeat. That said things were done traditionally....for a very long time. Suddenly i have no idea what to do since the tradition is no longer in place. That said i am forever grateful for my day today. I was actually.....not sad. lol I've actually been...pretty happy lately. Thank you.

So here I am now, all snugged up in my germ-infested bed, my Forever Nuts (nom nom nom) tea with a gigantic dash of honey and a pill im ready to take to knock myself out - but not before i make my rounds of Merry Christmas via text/bbm/fb.

One thing i must say though before i end this- holy shit i AM giving a fuck. Taking it one day at a time.

No such thing as getting burned again yo. Not for me....

WoooOOO dont you guys love open-ended, metaphorical ramblings from me?!??

Tis officially 12:00am people.

Merry Christmas everyone!!!!!!!!!

Stay beautiful. Thanks for staying with me. Hope you all enjoyed the glamorous, belated post! Expected a similiarly long/longer post to close the New Years (ive even started writing a bit of it!).

Be excited!!!!

My drugs are next to me. After seeing C its K/O for me!

outs.

Sick

Like. REALLY sick.

Hence the lack of updating.

Learning

Or shouldn't have said. But you only grow stronger at the end of the day. Stronger enough to fight the next.

Shocking

“I let her (Vanessa Hudgens) go for now but it doesn’t mean that I don’t love her anymore. We’re just thinking of what might happen maybe tomorrow, someday, in the time that we both don’t expect. We’ll just meet and maybe, just maybe, it would be our time again.” - Zac Efron

He is SUCH a man for saying that publicly. A part of me totally died when i read this. Sighs. I really thought they could have proved the world wrong- that love does exist at a young age in Hollywood.

I guess nothing lasts.


................that said- hear about Blake Lively and my man Ryan Gosling??!?!?! roar.

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What is FATE?

DEFINITION OF FATE:

a. Something that inevitably befalls a person
b. Ultimate agency by which the order of things is prescribed
c. That which is inevitably predetermined; destiny
d. Prophetic declaration of what must be.

It is clear that these definitions have the following two components. ONE, that future is predetermined. TWO, that there is an agency that does this pre-determination.

ONE— that future is predetermined. This will be adressed here in some detail. Available scientific information will be combined with possiblities based upon such information to consider the likelihood of correctness of this component.

TWO— that there is an agency that does this pre-determination. This will not be discussed. It will be taken as a foregone conclusion. It is obvious that if something is done, there must be someone who has done it. That someone may be called God [Lord, Yehovah, Allah, Ishwar, etc.], Creator, or, even as a yet unknown or understood force or agency. The nature and attributes of that being, God, will not be discussed here.

-writing.com


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SORRY SORRRRRY. I REALLY WAS GONNA BLOG. BUT I CAUGHT UP WITH HOMEWORK INSTEAD!!!! haha

I am going to try really hard and make tomorrow a BLOGGING DAY.

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There is ZERO love in this world.

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Sorry i did it again. I promised an entry but yet still nothing and its already 1130pm! I apologize, but i lost all mood when my gunners lost their game today and i went on this crazy drinking binge all by my lonesome self (i know, its SUCH an acolohic thing to do!!!) to numb the pain i felt from the boys loss. La sighs.

ANYWAYS.

I do want to blog soon. About Miami. And everything. But not now because i hafta get ready for bed because of work tomorrow.

Leave you guys with a ffffound.

Pray that i dont lose my data connection tomorrow???

BACK

Yesh. OBVIOUSLY i am back because i noticed my hits jumped 300% since i declared on facebook that l have a miami post coming. hahah

i dont have something done up yet......but i will soon!!!!

Overall though- fabulous time. I love you lots C!!! =]




playing with fire again

Twitter & BBM

Confirmed. I will indeed have these two on and ready during my trip.
BBM or TWEET me kids!!!! =]

Goodbye Snow

Miami in roughly 20 hours? YESHHHHH.

And if we "happen" to come by here?

Expect me to be effing INKED yo.

 

Not sure if i will have data. (I have yet to call Rogers to figure that one out)
But if i do its ONLY going to be for e-mails, Twitter and BBM. So if you want to stalk and see what im up to. You can here:

http://www.twitter.com/dorkkly

OUTS!

GCM ESTIMATING NIGHTMARE

Earlier, K.Lee and I (actually more K.Lee) were working hard at figuring out the cousin's ESTIMATING question.

THAT'S RIGHT KIDS. ESTIMATING. A.SETO ALLLLL OVER AGAIN WITH OUR PAPER PRICES AND PRODUCTION COSTS.

Thank the lord K.Lee did everything because if i was to do this problem on my own, i think it would have taken me a solid 8 hours to finish - with errors mind you.

As i was "assisting" him with the problem it made me realize how useless my time in GCM was or the fact that i remember ZERO terminology.

And i was SO stressed trying to figure it out with him too. It really felt like doing one of our homework questions in 4th year that i could NOT figure out without the help of Coco or A.

It was seriously pure GCM fail guys. No kidding.

That said, K was amazing, figured out the problem (most of it) and even did up an excel chart and everything for her. I totally owe the guy a hugeeeeeee one. Thank god for friends still in print!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! <3

Ryan Gosling gets me going like a futbol player does

Look Cousin!!! It's our HUSBANDS :D
(Credit to K and finding this for us)

Oh so cold

Hmm feels like i havnt blogged in a while - you guys are in for a treat. i am in total blogging mode so theres stuff for you guys to actually read instead of fffound pictures or random spur of the moment thoughts i have.

Currently i am at my usual Starbucks, freezing my ass off because i am sitting RIGHT by the door (for plugs...or else i would not torture myself like that) at the handicap table with my iced cold drink (that my SB crush made for me......he has never made me a drink so im quite happy).

Quick Side Story of my Life- so one of the main reasons why i go to this SB (aside from it USUALLY having free plugs and its closest to my house) is because i have a huge crush on one of the baristas here. I swear i sit here and he probably catches me staring at him with my lustful creepy hungry eyes. Anyways the funny thing is that he is no futbol player-looking guy but this skinny lil fobby guy. The funnier thing is that i actually blush (seriously, Kay blush? ah. doesnt happen) and STUTTER when i do my ordering. Its like my brain goes into retard mode and i forget how to speak or something. I think the absolute worst part is when i order i mess up my drink orders. I recall this one time i ordered a MEDIUM iced green tea. He just smiled politely and punched in a tall for me. It was a very FML moment because its such a rookie mistake!!! Not even rookie! NOOB. Pure Starbucks Noob Fail right there. Especially because i am there OFTEN, he KNOWS i am not a noob. UGH. Thinking about it makes me embarrassed.

I also noticed that he tries to avoid taking or making my order. It makes me very sad.

But that just makes me that much more smitten and attracted to him. haha.

Watch he's probably 18. Apparently ive taken an interest in youngins lately. Its major Pedo Bear alert.

I digress. Back to my time at Starbucks.

......Hoping that i can get some blogging done before i head home for dinner. I find Starbucks is a great cure for hangovers but today i think i might just get a cold instead from all these fuckers that keeps on opening the door so much. Seriously people, do you need to open the door THAT WIDE??

Ive also been trying to download this one file since 1pm (2 hours later) ive restarted it THREE times already. Fuck. Not meant to be or something?!?!

Anyways, last night was K's highly anticipated amazing 25th Birthday Party that we've been planning for since JUNE. I am so glad that it went so smoothly and it was so so much fun. There was so much stress involved in the prep from envelope fuck ups (my fault), venue issue, and other stuff and to see it come together and everyone enjoying themselves (especially K) is a great satisfaction. The place we went to was really nice. Somehow K also managed to get herself a DJ which changed the mood of the party completely and because of that i got much more intoxicated than i planned to. Happy 25th Birthday dear!!! I hope it was absolutely amazing!!!! =]]]

That said just a quick retrack. LAST weekend was my lovely cousin's 24th birthday @ an ASIAN KARAOKE place. From what i do recall, it was actually most of the guy's first time at an Asian Karoke so it was nice to see that they enjoyed themselves. Being the wonderful cousin i am, i went ahead and prepped as many surprises as my limited bank account allowed me to do. And obviously i got myself plastered almost as badly as she did (PWHAHA) and met myself a couple of new fob friends. I love meeting people who enjoys singing sad chinese songs in public places with me. There aren't many of those out there.  But yes, Happy 24th Birthday to my Cousin!!!!! Next year is going to be EPIC. I know it!!!!!

Pics to come for both events on fb soon!

There's THREE more days until Miami!!!!!!!!!!!!! And i know it is going to FLY because i have something to do every single one of those days until the day of my flight. There's SO much i need to do but i am EXCITED out of my mind. C and I need this trip. Desperately.

Video Games are Evil

I will never, EVER meet a guy who is not into WOW/DOTA/CS or VIDEO GAMES in general.

Just Saying.

Re-Evaluation

Precisely why i need this Miami trip more than ever with someone who is probably the only person in the world at the moment that understands.

Miami Beach, Florida December 9-12!

DEPRIVED, AGAIN?!?!?!?

God clearly hates me on Tuesdays & Fridays because every single time there is a game on while im at work…..around the 2pm mark…..my phone stops receiving data connection and I am left stranded again….with no scoremobile (thank GOD for leaving me with Yahoo Sports play by play…), no twitter, no fb, no bbm, no msn, no NOTHING. I feel SOOO disconnected YET AGAIN.

Thus I resort to "email" blogging as a method to let people know that I am DATA-DEPRIVED yet again.

Second Home

This is our second home whenever a huge match is on. Loves it here. I think the owner loves us too : )
My life is pretty much on hold for about 2 hours whenever a huge futbol match is on (like today). And what's really sad is i am STARTING to not mind the taste of beer..........yuck. i know.

Anyways dont have much to say. The other night was le cousin's anniversaire à le karoke avec all you can drink and we rightfully got plastered. I'm waiting for her pictures so i can jack them and load them on my fb lol I hope she enjoyed her birthday this year!! i really tried my best to make it really awesome!

Up next is K's 25th!!! Going to be so so much fun!!!

oh. btw people. Im going to Miami next week. (80% confirmed).

Thought l'll share.

Oh the sapppp. Its overwhelming

I am IN LOVE. The song is downloaded and totally on my repeat playlist.

Aside from the obvious reasons to why i love this vid (cough HOT guys) i cannot believe how they were able to translate the lyrics so perfectly. You know when there's an english version of any Chinese/Mando song the translation tends to be completely different from what the original song because of the way the language is its difficult to have a perfect translation. I am totally wrong after watching this. 

I think i melted when Jason Chen started playing the violin. There is seriously something about a guy who can play the violin (or piano) that is so so sexy and attractive. &&&&& J Rice is SO hot. Fak. It was like a triple combo- Hot Guys + Hot Voices + Sad, Romantic Song. All in which results in my almost-death but on life support long enough to watch the El Clasico match tomolo. 

Yo J Rice, play soccer? You have the makings (physically). haha sighs.

Its official guys. I want a footballer boyfriend that can play the violin. And he's going to have to play the exact song at our wedding as a gift to me. Yes. That will happen.

Are my requests a bit demanding and outrageous?

I think so.

Big Happy Face goes here.

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Okay watched it again after an hour and melted again. Thought lll share.

Love and Other Drugs

Just came home from watching this movie. I have to admit that i enjoyed it very much. It seems like every Jake movie that ive watched lately has been a hit. I have no idea why. I don't normally go out to watch his movies but the ones i have has been quite good. I wouldnt really like to say i liked the ending because i dont believe that someone can be that lucky. Its probably because i am bitter as hell but ur gonna hafta see it for yourself to know what i mean. lol I liked it more when it was all about the game in the beginning. Notice people, the moment she says I LOVE YOU to him. That's when it went DOWNHILLLLLL.Not good. Not defensive. Lesson right there.

Awakening...Dream?

In my dream you held my hand again and everything was how it was but you asked me,

Would you have accepted all the choices i have made and will make? 

I didn't have an answer. I just wanted to prolong that moment as long as i can. Then the reality of it all being a dream hit me and i said,

This is all a dream isn't it. 

You nodded. And i sobbed until it actually woke me up with tears running down my face.

I feel sad. But not because we are no longer together (as i have felt for so many, many months and that occasional slip that i get over). I feel sad because i think my answer would have been no.....or a very uncertain maybe. Which should never be the case because in order for it to have worked i would have needed to agree with no uncertainty. This dream was almost like a realization that perhaps it is better this way. For now anyways......

Anyways. Strange. Time to wipe that face to get ready to go to Chapters/SB (hope the net is amazingly fast) to work for the day and then Love & Other Drugs with C tonight.

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WHATTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT?!?!?!?

omfg EPIC. this is the best FFFOUND ever.

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i find the coolest reads. EVER.
Good Nights!~!

Girls are Psychotic Bitches

If people haven't already heard about the viet/chinese markham home invasion....well you do now because im blogging about it lol. Case goes, 3 men (black, black and white) entered a home, tied the 24yr old daughter up and killed the mother and shot the father multiple times in the upper body and in the neck area (but he somehow managed to stumble over to the neighbours?!?! Solider) and the daughter manage to break free and called the cops.

So its all pretty creepy you see because of the many similarities between that family and mine. The parents are the same age as mine. I am also Chinese Vietnamese, I live in Markham, I have a younger brother roughly the same age too and we both are 24. The similarities are definitely eerie.

Anyways. So C bbms and tells me how shes unable to get over the news! Here i am completely confused and asks her whats up?! What news. And she hits me with the insaneness.

(I quote the Globe and Mail)

In a major twist, Jennifer Pan – who was initially considered a witness to the horrific crime – has been charged with first-degree murder, attempted murder and conspiracy to commit murder.

What the shit!!?!? The DAUGHTER was part of this WHOLEEE home invasion thing. Holy fucknuts that is crazyyyyyy.

This is what happens in the measly 5 hours that i don't have connection to the internet.

Adding onto that, apparently i know a crapload of people who went to school with her and worked with her. The idea that someone that is so similar (lifestyle. not mental state) to myself is capable of cold blood murder is unbelievable. People need to be careful who they mess with because if ANYONE ever told me this chick is gonna slaughter her mother, i would just laugh in their face because she does NOT look she could. I would share how i really feel but l'll shut my trap now in case she googles her case and finds me. & kills me.

Just saying.

Anyways! Moving on.

Earlier this evening A tweeted me this

Wondered what she meant. I thought maybe its Torres holding a really fat asian mixed kid or something. Clicked on the link. Saw this:

AHHAHAH 

Ohmygoddddddddddd. That is DEFINITELY my kid. Saving the pic to use as reference for i am gonna make it for my future kid for Halloween. She's going to be so snurky and tell her classmates: "My mommy says i'm a sweet Vanilla Bean Coffee-Based Frappicuno with a Venti Straw!" Man. My daughter is going to be such a smart cookie.

Okay feeling productive again tonight. Must get to it and not let the Arsenal lost today put me down.

Mobile Blogging. Sort. Of. Not Really. SOBS.

Okay this is not so much MOBILE blogging because i am typing in the notepad and will be "emailing" it to this blog.|

This is my plea of how disconnected i feel from the world. As of GOD KNOWS WHEN, my blackberry data service has been LOST/OUT/GONE/DEAD. I consider lack anything longer than 2 minutes- TORTURE. Even though I may have the internet, but they blocked Twitter, Blogspot/Blogger, Facebook (Obvs) and even TUMBLR!!!! So i cant tweet/update status and this is the most creative way i came up with as means to communicate with the outside world. I have absolutely no idea what is going on outside of my cubicle. Are people wondering if i am DEAD?!?!? Did the world stop spinning? Ohmygawd i am going INSANE.
The fact that my manager is working from home today doesn't help because i have zero things to do and the stuff she has left for me i finished before noon! The one day I can chat on day on my bb i can't even do so!

My only source of comfort is that they did NOT block Yahoo Sports (thnx god) so I can follow my soccer game's play by play in approximately 3 minutes.

On top of that, i just learned that i have to edumahcate myself on how to use Microsoft Publisher. AKA. INDESIGN FOR NON-CREATIVE PEOPLE.

!@#$%&!!! FAK.

Does it make me a retard if i find Publisher harder to use than InDesign!?! (Okay l'l answer my own question- I THINK SO). Omg i wish they would just let me design it in InDesign. I would even do it on my own time.

Come onnn Rogers EDGE. COME BACK.

fffound.....& for the sake of posting something entertaining

Seems like something i would do as well in a crisis.....text someone. haha

I really should sleep but im on this crazy design-high and normally when im on one of those....the shit i come up with is usually pretty awesome. Not to sound completely self-absorbed or anything like that.

Also because a late Peking Duck dinner tonight with K and the cousin has not fully digested itself in the belly.

BIG YAWNSSSS. Looks like its going to be a five hour night again tonight.

Gossip Girl Haul - to make up for the lack of GG tonight

*takes a deep breath* Weekly dosage of chuck & blair is needed.
This part was particularly stabby to the heart as well.

GAH.!#$% CANT WAIT FOR NEXT WEEK'S EPISODE.

There is no such thing anymore

Disney Animation is closing the book on fairy tales

Source: Link

Okay if even DISNEY (like....MICKEY MOUSE&MINNIE MOUSE, HAPPILY-EVER-AFTER DISNEY) is ending it.

CARTOON OR NOT- there really is no hope for anyone in this world anymore.

BITTER. NESS.

to not to be affected by anything

ITS SNOWING mutha-effers

When people first wake up the "normal" thing to do is to go by the window to open the blinds or go to the washroom to sober up (from sleep....how i refer to it as lol). For me its to turn on the laptop to check facebook, tweetdeck, emails, blog tracker and tumblr dashboard. Anyways long boring unnecessary details short, i discovered that it was actually SNOWING....from facebook. UGHHH. UGHGHH. I look outside and in fact there was flurries swirling and the rooftops were glazed white. FAK MAN. Its not even the cousins birthday and its snowed already!

People, je ne suis pas content with snow and cold weather.

I digress.

So on Friday evening i (obviously) went to see Harry Potter 7 (Part 1) with twin. Most people would (and should) know that i have extremely high expectations and hated all the movies with the exception of the most recent one (#6- duh) where it was "entertaining" in a comedic way. That said i expected nothing from this movie except lots of shit talk on my part about how unfaithful it was to the book, the scenes were terrible and what not. We watch the 1030 show (after waiting for AN HOUR in line) and,

HAAAAA. To my shocking surprise, the movie was SO GOOD.

Holycrap. Hands down. The best out of all the movies. Finally in 10 years of doing this, Warner Brothers finally got it right!!!! There was a lot of comedic parts that made me laugh really hard, they chose key parts to react, and even though they made up a lot of the scenes/scenes not in reading order- it was brilliantly done in a way where it worked very well with the flow of the movie. God i am so impressed, i think people should REALLY give it a chance. Why not right?! It's the last movie in the franchise! So so looking forward to the 2nd part in July. Until then, i am definitely watching it again.

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I spent the afternoon with two of the boys minus Albie. And they presented me with my belated present which turned out to be a CHEESE BASKET (with wine, mini baguettes and utilities to eat the cheese!!)

FYI. I LOVE CHEESE.

Hahah honestly, Chocolate should get into making gift baskets because he is so so GOOD at it lol The gift is SO uber fattening but i love love love!!! Can't wait to bring it over to annbugs so we can have some cheese and wine over intellectual, non-dirty conversations about futbol.

Now that the weekend is practically over. Must do work tonight.

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Playing the game like a man and being defensive guarantees that you will never strike out.

My Childhood

Something that’s worth too much, coming to an end.

.................well technically July 15th 2011 for part 2 of the last movie. But who cares for details. 

 Watching HP 7 with Twin tomorrow after work! This is going to be EPICCCC. Oh je suis tres tres excited.

Our Adventure to find the perfect Futbol Bar

As everyone know (from my status updates, tweets and share-age of excitement) yesterday was my International Friendlys Day for FIFA and as most people would have noticed, i was MISSING IN ACTION for pretty much the entire day (i'm sorry!). A and I really thought our day was going to be "smooth" because we've been planning for this day for a while now. She took the day off of work (hardcore) and the plan was to spend our entire day at Philthy McNasty's with the England vs. France game until it was time for MWDC.

Nopes. Did not happen.

• The day started quite pleasant with Flapjacks as a light Brunch over the Brazil and Argentina game (which Argentina won and i was extremely happy about only because of Messi). 
• We head out for Philthy McNasty, parked for a total of.....9 minutes?!?! Paid 12 dollars for 9 minutes. Why?
• Because freaking Philthy McNasty did NOT have the channels playing our game
• We stood there as the manager (i guess) was flipping through the channels and appears to be flabbergasted with himself on WHY he did not have the channels (or "packages" as he referred to them as) to watch the International Friendlys.
• UGH. BUDDY. DO NOT PROMISE/OR SAY YOU HAVE IT IF YOU ARE BASING IT PURELY BASED ON THE FACT THAT YOU HAVE 30+ SPORTS RELATED CHANNEL. 
• We left...IMMEDIATELY because it was 5 minutes into the game and we concluded over BBM that the situation was hopeless and we MUST leave to find a place that's playing it. 
•  We ran up and down Yonge (i believe....or could have been eglington. Doesn't matter. We RAN) going into multiple pubs and bars asking if they could play the game for us. 
• NO LUCK.
• Life was completely hopeless. A mustve been so devastated. We got into the car and was ready to zoom back to her place to stream the game when i noticed a couple more places and i suggested that we REALLLLLY should try to see if they were because i really didn't want to be at home watching these games (doesn't feel the same). 
• I go into a couple more places when one of the bartenders suggested i go across the street to this place call "Main Event" and more than likely they ARE playing it?
• Indeed they were. 
• God loves us.
• We parked AGAIN. This time paid 2 dollars for about 17 minutes. Why again?
• We were SO ecstatic about finding a place that was playing a game that we RAN to the pub (The Main Event) in time to watch France score one on England. 
• Obvs, A went crazy cheering for France (her team).
• While it was a good goal that i happily cheered for too, this man at the bar tapped me on my shoulder and pretty much said, "Tell your friend there to" [ insert hand slit to throat gesture ]. It was pretty loud at the pub and i replied, "excuse me? i dont understand.". He answers, "THIS IS AN ENGLISH PUB. TELL YOUR FRIEND TO *insert hand slit gesture again* OR SHES GOING TO *insert hand slit gesture*.
• Erm. I totally tried to calm A down and whispered to her that we were in an ENGLISH pub and that man pretty much is going to kill you if you don't contain your excitement.
• For the next 14 minutes of the game (there was about that much time left before half-time) while A watched it, i was busy calling MORE pubs to watch the games elsewhere because i know for a fact they were not going to switch over to the Spain vs. Portugal game and i feared for A's life. lol 
• I called the Football Factory (our usual pub) and indeed they were playing it AND they were willing to reserve a booth for me to watch my Spain game in private. 
• UGH UGH. CANT BELIEVE WE DID NOT GO IN THE BEGINNING.
• i told the girl that we were at another bar and we are going to fly over during half time like real devoted fans.
• Oh and don't forget the fact that we paid 10 dollars cover (EACH) and downed a pitcher of beer in 14minutes as well. And left RIGHT at half-time. So not worth it.
•  We head over to the Football Factory in record time in time....while tipsy.
• Quick back story on why we didn't go to the Footback factory in the FIRST PLACE.
  So we called ahead of time to discover that they were charging a ten dollar cover. Don't know why we did not want to pay that "ridiculous" cover and decided we can find somewhere else that won't charge cover.
• Clearly we were wrong. We now know better to never hesitate in needing to pay cover for a GUARANTEED, non-hostile, no-death-threat, fun, exciting time.
• Our lesson costed EACH of us about 70 ish dollars. When it really could have just costed 40....in TOTAL.  
• We had a BLAST there. We even met a French guy! haha 
• I was actually a tad bit disappointed because they actually were not able to show me the Spain vs. Portugal game. I was the only fan there in my jersey and was really sad!!! 
• The owner felt terrible that he couldnt carry out his promise of showing the game. And so to compensate for that he gave us poutine and yagerbombs on the house. 
• He really didn't have to. I am still returning either way lol
• But its still pretty awesome that we got freebies.
• I stayed true to my words and took three tequlia shots to mourn Spain's brutal defeat by portugal. 
• Sighs. : (
• Then off we went for Pho....slightly tipsy and then back to A's place to wait for the kids to go for more drinking.

Pretty adventurous!!! If i would say so myself.

I missed the game completely and i am so upset about the loss. UGH i need to download the game to see what went wrong1!! i feel completely defenseless because i didn't watch the game and  i dont know how to retaliate if i stumble upon a Portugal fan and they happen to be smug about it. i am seriously upset and screw you all for making fun of me. lol

That said- Football Factory, we will never, EVER turn our backs on you AGAINNNNNNN.

GG Haul - 3

Sighs. Le Love.

GG Haul - 2

Even Gossip Girl believes in that.....
MUST BE TRUE because GG is golden.

These are for you K!

GG Haul - 1

Just playing it defensively

Unless i don't expect anything at all. Never am i going to get burned again.

Okay this is for all you people who don't understand why i love soccer

Football is more than a sport, it's a way of life. It's seeing your teams play & cursing when the ref gives a yellow. It's crying when your teams lose and even more when they win. It's praying that the player who got injured heals quickly and without complications. It's the pride you feel, when you say their name, or wear that jersey. It's sticking with your team no matter if they win or lose because they will always be champions to you.

&&

Swearing obscene things at the bar. cussing out random strangers for talking shit about your team and making new bffs for liking the same teams?!

- added on by A.

Its the same for all you people who support the raps/leafs/jays!!!!!

Futbol Jerseys....a Rant

I think all my friends (aside from A) would frown and disagree with the fact that i am willing to spend hundreds of dollars on Soccer Jerseys. It has somehow evolved into an obsession now. One part is not only because i have clearly (whole-heartedly) indulge myself into the wonderful sexy world of Futbol and i want to show/express my support materialistically but the other part is because they're so expensive and i can't afford them therefore, i must have them.

I am so crazy right?

Before i was extremely skeptical about acquiring any other team's jersey (aside from Spain's) because I was afraid i would be subjected to interrogation by a fan who recognizes the club crest and at the time i did not know much about the team aside from naming the men whom i want to become my kid's daddy. Now i feel confident enough to wear them and thus even bigger reason to buy, wear and show off that i am more than just a fan-girl!!!!

Not to mention that jerseys are so unbelievably comfortable. God they feel so nice on the skin after the gym. I think its the material. Its truly like sex stitched into a shirt rubbing against your skin.

Okay maybe im exaggerating a LILLOOOO bit. haha but i really do go ape shit over them (even though i only have one).

Anyways this all started since this morning when the first thing i did when i woke up was to check the debut of the new Spain team's jersey for 2011. Sexy jerseys. I can't wait to not only own one, but to watch the boys wear em while destroying Portugal on Wednesday.

In all seriousness though, there's about four (Arsenal Fabregas, Liverpool Torres, Spain Away Torres, Barcelona Messi) i want and they cost around 70 bucks a piece. Lets NOT do the math shall we? lol

SIGHS. What have become of me.

New Spontaneous Layout

I suddenly felt like changing up the layout. It could possibly be because my mood and attitude towards certain things have changed drastically during the past 2 weeks. I havnt been blogging much because i HAVE in fact been out and about a lot but at the same time i feel myself going through some transitions and was not motivated to really disclose or share how i've been feeling.

Anyways, i like it! lol

New look, new attitude.

fffound

Omg even three years old can find love.
....................
FAIL KAY. FAILLLL.

fffound

LOLOL FAIL. Click to enlarge

Done and done

Okay i think i am done with clubbing for the next little while. I was looking through my agenda and ive actually gone clubbing every weekend for the past MONTH. Two of those weekends were back to back which is absolutely MADNESS.

This week is going to absolutely flyyyyyyyyyyyy.
Work, Gym, Futbol Wednesday, MWDC and Harry Potter 7!!!!!!!!!!

International Friendly 2010 Fixtures

Next Wednesday is going to be football Wednesday for A and i (if anybody wants to join!!!!) and it is going to be absolutely spectacular because all our national teams are playing their friendlies that day. Catch? They're playing almost all at the same time....some AGAINST EACH OTHER.

Now in the futbol world, that just causes chaos and overdrives our ovaries because its sexiness and dorkiness all at once for a good couple of hours (i believe 6?).

I pray to god we survive to see the kids that night.

Anyways just a rundown of the schedule of games (that i am either going to watch or care enough to watch the highlights and results) as reference for myself and anybody that cares, here is the following-

Nov 17 06:35 ET China v Latvia [ I want to see how China plays....and possibly be ashamed ]
Nov 17 07:00 ET Hong Kong v Paraguay [ Same goes ]
Nov 17 12:00 ET Argentina v Brazil
Nov 17 14:30 ET Netherlands v Turkey [Because of prince charming]

Nov 17 14:30 ET South Africa v United States
Nov 17 14:30 ET Sweden v Germany [Because Germany is that good.]

Nov 17 15:00 ET England v France
Nov 17 16:00 ET Portugal v Spain

The bolded is obvs the games i will be watching. Bolded and underline is the one i will disregard all to watch lol

Yep. Definitely going to have a GOOOOOOD DAY. I am tres excited.

Remember....

Remember back in the good ol' days there were these three brothers call THE HANSONS?!?!?

Okay if you don't remember THEM exactly you should remember their absolutely non-making sense but catchy song, MMMbop?!? (To this day i STILL have no idea what that song is about and i dont plan to find out because i dont want anyone to catch me loading it on Youtube at Starbucks lol)

Anyways. Someone on my fb changed their status saying that theyre sad that they're going to miss them in concert in Toronto and they also loaded a picture of them, being this one:

...............

At first im like WHAT. No effing way in this world that's them. They looked like monkeys before!!!! Omfg not getting it. Looked closer.

GAHHHH

IT IS THEM. ohmygee. They look GOOOOOD. Well the older two anyways. The oldest one looks like shia labeouf and the middle brother just looks good.

Craziness. With age comes sexiness. im impressed.

WHO KNEW.

But im not gonna start listening to them. haha

Mobile Blogging

I'm annoyed.

Seriously people- if you think I'm a Starbucks No-doer that gets drunk all the time. You really don't know me at all and in that case I don't need to give two shit about you.

Don't fucking judge me if you don't know me. Fuck off.

Good day.
Sent from my BlackBerry device on the Rogers Wireless Network

fffound

omg whyyyy asian woman. WHYYYY.

fffound

So, like, i would TOTALLY love to wake up every morning looking at that gorgeous face. 

GAH. Gossip Girl <3

Game

i love the googlys.

Hmmmmm

for the past couple of days i havnt been feeling the blogging drive.

not sure why?

anyways started new part time job today. i love downtown SO SO much.

other than that i dont really have much else to say. maybe later in the week?

weekend

omg i actually survived this weekend.
i went to sleep and woke up at 8am to catch the Arsenal game at 830 just because a specific prince charming player was on the bench and i wanted a glimpse of him. Can you say devotion? haha

anyways l'll blog more later and upload pics on fb soon for ppl to look at!

I'm alive

LOL. I laughed out loud when i saw this. haha oh Ralph. My dork <3

Anyways. I havn't been blogging anything with actual "substance" lately because i've been really lazy and not been doing anything worthy of being called "productive". I think i'm just allowing this to be my birthday "week" and start up again after this weekend. That said i've been pretty good with beast mode (when i can reach the gym anyways).

O right, i have a new part time job starting next week. But that's not really exciting. I don't think so anyways. lol My "conquest" begins though heh.

Two weeks until HP7 pt.Un!!!!!!

And i started a SOCCER-related blog somewhere. I thought it was about time. Not like anyone would care though. Except A. hahah

and ya. That's all.

24th Birthday

Let me start off by saying how i felt before i went out for dinner last night.

I stayed home the other night and welcomed my 24th birthday alone. For the past 3 birthdays i have spent it with the ex-mister (or at least he would have been the first person i received a phone call from) but obviously that would not have been the case this year.  I was surprisingly not sad or anything like that but rather i was very indifferent towards that matter. I stayed home, still trying to recover from Halloween and spent the evening reading up on the Barcelona team and hot team members' interviews. Obvs when midnight hit i get that wave of texts/pins/bb fb notifications that somebody has written on my wall or pm's were waiting to be read from then until now. I appreciate every single one of you who took the time to text me, to message me, and to call. I will slowly get back to everybody (on fb) once the day is over.

Anyways, still feeling indifferent through-out the day but a tadddd bit more cheerful than most years. To those who doesn't know this but i actually do not like celebrating my birthday at all. I mean in past years, how many birthday "party" of mine have you attended? Probably zero. Birthday dinners.....meeeeh ya perhaps one on one. But that's about it. This year however i've actually made plans to do stuff with people as a "group" because truth be told, i was afraid that l'll get horribly emotionally depressed at the fact that i had "no one" to spend my birthday with anymore. A part of me was terribly afraid of being alone and was afraid of not being use to that "loneliness". Which was why i made plans to have a highly anticipated lesbian dinner with K, MWDC with the Kids, Meet-Up w/ C, Century Room Clubbing, Lunch with the Boys, Dinner w/ Twin at some point and more clubbing next week. Pretty eventful right??? I thought being less of a social hermit this year would do me some good. Yesterday i went abouts with my day combating, watching soccer and doing my nails haha seems like thats ALLL i do doesnt it? Minus the starbucks part (UGH which i SHOULD have went to because its a free drink on your bdayyyyy).

Evening falls, K shows up at my doorsteps with flowers like the PERFECT date (hahah) i felt myself go red like a little school girl even though it was not a guy lol we journeyed to the Italian bistro and it was funny because she said she wanted to get gas but......we never did. That should have been a trigger for suspicions but since i'm not a very intuitive kind of person i just let it go. Get to the restaurant, waiter lead to our table and then,

BAM.

there they were- C, J, A and Cousin sitting there.

The moment was SUCH a blur. I don't know whether it was the shock, or the dim warm-sexy-lightings, or the fact i had on contacts on and i can't see as well with them or maybe even a combination of everything but my brain actually did not register at all what was happening. I stood there with thoughts racing through my head like, "Omg is that really Twin sitting next to the girl that looks like Cousin?!? No, can't be. Holy shit that girl looks like C but it can't be here?!?! And there is nooooooooooo way that's Bestest." UHHH. TWILIGHT ZONE (but not the TWILIGHT that i like with the Cullens haha) much?!?!?! This wasn't suppose to happen until i get married?!?! I'M CONFUZZZLED YO.

Being the big dork i am and somewhat making sense of the situation (complete delayed reaction) i made a scene and swore so loudly in shock that probably the chefs in the kitchen heard me. (I'm sorry).

 Dork.

Turns out the girls (sneaky) have been talking to each other (behind my back!!!!!) for MONTHS planning to get together while here i was thinking how in the world am i going to introduce everyone. I cannot describe how i felt at that moment. Even now a couple of hours later i am still speechless and weepy. At that moment i wanted to cry soooo badly because i was extremely moved and overwhelmed with happiness. But i didn't because Twin gave me the "If you cry l'll punish you severely" eye. haha  Remember what i said earlier about afraid of being alone? When i saw the girls all there in the same room as me it made me feel so so stupid. Like how did i ever think they would ever let me spend my first birthday after a breakup, alone. It's so ridiculous how i even thought that would happen. I'm so grateful for having them in my life and simply by them doing this for me made my friendship with them even more valuable.

Time flies SO quickly. I've known some of these girls since i was 8.

I'm also really glad EVERYBODY got along. Haha. I guess that was one of my fears too, that a big cat fight would break out or something because all the girl's have very easy-going distinct personalities but at the same time they are also very, very blunt (funny, i'm not) so they don't take shit from anyone which can cause problems lol Dinner was extremely fun. I enjoyed myself tremendously and i hope you girls did too. I can't wait to load up the pictures!!!!!!!!!!!!

Now, feelings after dinner.

I went through all the cards after dinner at home and the two things that was common in all the girl's cards was the words- Big Changes in your Life. & You will Good again. And that touched me very deeply because its true. So much has changed this year and it has broke so many of my hopes, my ability in believing in certain things and to an extent even my character. I'm sure they know and can see how hard i've been struggling to fight for the past half year. But for them to be there along the way to encourage me and believe in me- it makes all the difference in the world. It makes facing the unknown that less scary.

I know ALL of you are reading this. Thank you K for planning this. You are beyond amazing. Thank you girls for showing up, for spending so much money when you really don't need to (seriously) on me, for showing unconditional support and love. I really don't mean to sound like such a sap but seriously i gotta get it outta my system. Thank you for absolutely everything, i appreciate it SO so much even though i can be a bit of a weird turd sometime. This is the type of Sex and the City bonds/friendship every girl wants and i feel so fortunate to have five.

I love you girls. You girls give me hope.

...................and the partying continues biatches!!!!!!!!!!!!

Best Birthday.....EVER

I have a SUPERRRR LONGGGGGG blog post written up last night.

But i can't post it without pictures.

Cough. Cousin.........Bestest........

haha

This was seriously the BEST birthday EVER. I really don't think anything else can top this.

Await the entry! It's epic and sappy. haha

I'm Ready for Halloween Again

I'm feeling this you guys.

LOL

I know i know. You are crazy Kay. WHATEVER. I get to hold a fucking wand. How many of you can say you can hold a wand. Pwahhah I found ONE of my costumes for next year.

RECAP: Halloween Extravagenzaaa

Why do i love halloween? Because i can dress up as a slut and not be JUDGED. Haha over the years i find that Halloween has become the "day" where girls can dress slutty and not feel bad about it. It's also a day where if you are taken- you tend to want to ditch the boyfriend to be single for one night. I think guys who has girlfriends have every right to be concerned to be honest haha

Anyways so everybody knows Halloween is MY holiday. It is probably the only holiday i would spend massive amounts of money supporting (Christmas might actually even come second behind that because im pretty cheap). This year i pushed it and partied three nights in a row-

UTSC (Open Bar) FEAR Party where I was a "Distraught Sailor maiden awaiting her tall, dreamy fernando torres look-alike sailor to come back from sea....while having a few drinks".

• It was an open bar party that did not serve shots. fail fail fail. 
• There was only two "bars" serving about 300 rowdy, demanding university kids wanting to get the most out of open bar. Clearly it did not work out.
• The dinner was crappy banquet food. I think the best part of my dinner was the sad dinner roll.
• The music however was the best and most amazing music i have ever danced to in my entire "going out" life. Hands down. 2001-2003 Top 40s were played and i'm sure the youngins did not recognize. A solid track of Socca was played (Love. R and Cousin knows that's my high), even Justin Bieber was played but obviously i froze and decided id rather get myself more drunk than to dance to him.
• I got a good buzz but it wasn't enough for an All you can drink fest.

TruBlood @ Club V where that night I was a "A morbid ER Vampire Nurse that was turned accidentally during sexy time with Damon Salvatore. Bite Marks evident all over body."

• I'm officially very fond of STRONG martini's now. 
• Nice small club that was filled with non-asians. We must've been the ONLY asians there. 
• Which was nice. Because that just mean's we were the center of attention! 
• Oh and 60% of the club didn't dress up (lameee), which made us look even more exotic and exciting.
• Don't remember much about the music- i was hugely distracted by the throbbing pain in my feet and True Blood was being played on the screens. I was kind of watching the episode while dancing haha
• I almost broke my fingers. It's visibly bruised and still hurts as i type with it. 
• Met up with a very, VERY drunk A and her girls for pho!!! They looked so so cute....when A's head was not down on the table. Haha The introductions were up to us.

And LASTLY, Masquerade Event @ Rockwood where i dressed up as something i've planned for a YEAR now which was a " Flirtatious Victorian belle sipping too strong martini's, in search of a perfect gent at the town masquerade ball."

• I honestly did NOT think i was going to survive a 3rd night of dancing in pumps and drinking
• Obvs, i survived. 
• I mentioned here that i was hoping someone can get me these shoes to wear as part of my costume right? Next thing you know- Cousin presents me my birthday present.
  
  

• FUCK I LOVE YOU.
• So noticed how earlier i felt like i wouldn't survive the night? Yeah i survive the night BECAUSE OF THESE SHOES. They are the MOST comfortable shoes i have ever worn in my life. I compare that feeling of comfort to wearing my runners. That is HOW comfortable they are. 
•  Thus my Cousin is effing awesome and gave me my wish of an AMAZING COMPLETE, COSTUME for Halloween aka my birthday!!!!!!!!!!!!!
• My costume was actually part of a "group" thing with the girls, R and Cousin looked so fabulous in their gettup too. 
• We were actually EARLY at the club....for the first time in my life. It was a strange feeling. But we were able to get bypass and everything which was nice.
• To be very honest, i was SO drunk that everything from the moment we stepped onto the streetcar, everything is very foggy and fuzzy. i dont even remember if the music was any good, i don't remember people's costumes, i don't remember who i saw (no that's a lie, i saw many people i did NOT want to see), i don't remember what we danced to. Oh man. Not good. 
• By the end of the night i was actually sick of drinking and i don't recall even drinking much from the bottle we bought
• which btw was SO sketch because we didn't get a booth but got a SIDE TABLE by the stairs. Some VIP service we got. argh. 
• Met up with C and went home with her at the end of the night.

Ahhh that's it? lol Thanks to everybody who went along with my madness. You guys have no idea what it means to me, to be able to go out and celebrate halloween like this. I'll load pics on fb once i steal em from people's cameras lol HAPPY HALLOWEEN EVERYONE! UNTIL NEXT YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Which i already know what i am going to be.

Weekend done. Birthday week starts? woot woot. teehee.