The most important thing I realized is that painful breakups, unrequited love, shitty jobs and the like help us to BUILD CHARACTER and that no matter how bad it feels, we are much better off because of it. Sometimes you have to stand alone to make sure you can. Forget what you want to remember what you deserve.You may not end up where you thought you'd be, but you'll always end up where you were meant to be. You can either let these bad things, define you, destroy you or strengthen you. Fight through it like a warrior. Greater things are to come.

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

A New Dream

After seeing this picture, it inspired me to want to go to Paris and sip Starbucks!!! All while wearing a pretty outfit with hot shoes. Linking arms with the mister and perhaps be chomping on some french baguette with cheese. (inside jk. hahah)

It would be suchhhhhh a classy and romantic affair.

Of course sipping Starbucks wouldn't be the only reason why i want to go to Paris, duh.

Word Vomit blog entry in the typing. Stay tuned.

Friday, September 25, 2009


Gorgeous picture. <3 Twilight

Thursday, September 24, 2009

Jumble of Thoughts

This picture makes me feel so so sad.

Maybe because long hair means a lot to me and I currently miss mine terribly. (God what was i thinking when i cut the four inches long. Did i forget how freaking long it takes for my hair to grow?! Gahhhhh) OR because there's like a couple of thousand things going through my mind and i just want to go body combat all of it out of my head. Since my thoughts aren't exactly too organized right now, l'll start type-jotting things again.

So why are there a couple of thousand things going through my mind right now. Last night the mister left my place well after midnight (and that's REALLY late b/c i'm normally in my bed and under my covers by 10:30pm) because we spent the night talking (about pretty much everything) and he left me with a lot of questions and a lot of things to think about.

That's the thing i absolutely love about Lx, is his objective perspective. There's that saying/quote or whatever that says "You should think outside of the Box"- i personally feel that he is able to do everything that quote asks for and more. I find its very hard to take a step back and be objective when there are a million monkeys (metaphorically speaking) surrounding you with chatter and as a result you become trapped in this so called "box". I am glad he is able to step out of that. That said, being someone that thinks with their mind but act on their heart, it's very hard for me to be objective when 101% of the time i am influenced by my emotions or the emotions of others (and how they would feel if i make a certain decision). Having him explain and share his perspective not only helps me become stronger (if not immediately) but also makes me consider a lot of things, which brings me to present-day and my essay-like typing for the past twenty minutes.

Sorry to bore. That's the end of that rant.

Next. I love the gym, it makes me feel wonderful but i'm not seeing results and its discouraging me. It kind of sucks because my main motivation was to look fantastic for Halloween (notice i said Halloween and not my birthday. I love Halloween way more than my own birth-day so lets not disappoint the dork this year!)

And this ice coffee isn't perking me up either.

I need a higher paying job too.

& a hair straightener. Yeah. I got my hair trimmed with twin last weekend @ a small Korean place and the results was fantastic. Straightened, thinned, styled, 20 bucks!!! I heart. But it becomes a bush again after a wash so all that is kind of useless if i go back looking like Aslan the lion. Any suggestions on where and what brand/kind i should get since im kinda a hair-straightener noob? i will luv you forever and thanks.

I still need to go stalk the other BMV locations. Alice in Wonderland is really dry.

OMG it just hit me. I just had a total EUREKA moment. I know EXACTLY what i can get Tall Jenn for her Birthday and she would absolutely LOVE IT. My only dilemma is, i HAVE to go to Urban Outfitters ASAP before it sold out. My vague memory reminds me i only saw two left at the store and its sold out all over America and apparently Vancouver. SHit shit shit shit.

Oh and this made me feel uber great:

That's my popularity at its all time highest over at Tumblr. I feel special. ('Mind you that its normally at ZERO). Yeah...i should stop spending time on the internet and do some REAL LIFE EXCITING ACTIVITIES!!!! Note: the sarcasm.

Nuit Blanche next week! I am tres excited because i consider the free 'contemporary arts night' to be something special between lx and i but since we both are so boring now (haha), we don't mind going with other people. I also miss coco and albie. The other night i spent half an hour on the phone with coco and we both agreed that we need to do something in the near 2-weeks future because we've been deprived of each others company. I do hope i get to see them both soon.

Lastly, I apologize again for the lack of structure and sense in this rant. & i did not realize this would turn into a word vomit. And and! Even though i sound so terribly depressed, frustrated and upset- i'm feeling actually quite fine but just a little tired (from lack of sleep). That would explain the lack of my usual bubbly (online) presence.

Good day.

Wednesday, September 23, 2009


On a positive note. My lunches are spent with Taylor Lautner and Robert Pattinson (notice how i put taylor's name first because i am IN LOVE with him and have practically converted to being part of Team Jacob even though its quite sick of me since the boy is not really legal- yet).

Of course i read a couple of pages of Alice in Wonderland but that book is so jacked up and weird i literally cannot go pass, A COUPLE OF PAGES without giving up because i get so confused. At this rate i can finish the book when the movie is out NEXT YEAR. =__=''

Then i go on && and crazy BBM akemo and start a frantic rant on how much i lurve twilight.

in case you didn't catch it yet- I <3 JACOB

ohtayyyyy its work time~


I think its plain mean for older men to pick on me because i'm younger in not only age but in experience. It's not nice to turn the situation around and make it my fault instead of owning up to the fact that they are the one at fault. I also get lack of respect and pretty much ignored until the end of the day because they have more important things to do then to tend to my e-mails that are subjected: URGENT or IMPORTANT. I mean, no wonder my mind drifts and my heart isn't in the right place.

I guess its pretty immature of me to blog about it in the first place.

Blah. I don't know what to do to earn their respect.

I hate work(ing). I miss school.

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

prime time tv


I lurve Wilson. pwahahaha

Criminal Minds

Hotch: My team? Let me tell you about my team: Agent Morgan fought to protect his identity from the very people who could save him. Why? Because trust has to be earned, and there are very few people he truly trusts. Reid’s intellect has a shield which protects him from his emotions, and at the moment his shield is under repair. Prentiss over-compensates because she doesn’t yet feel she’s a part of the team; she need not worry. Everyday Agent Jareau fields dozens of requests for our team, and every night she goes home hoping she has made the right choices. Garcia fills her office with figurines and color, to remind herself to smile as the horror fills her screens… And Agent Gideon in many ways is damned by his profound knowledge of others, which is why he shares so little of himself, yet he pours his heart into every case we handle. I stand by my actions, and I stand by my team, and if you think that you can find a better person for the job, then good luck

When hotcher said this, it made me choke up.

Law and Order: Special Victims Unit

<3333 Stabler and Benson
They're in their...what....eleventh season? Eleventh year? I have been faithful and watched EVERY single damn episode. That's dedication if i would say so myself!!!

Prime TV downloading just gets better and better!
& of course there's still Gossip Girl, Project Runway and Hell's Kitchen

Monday, September 21, 2009

Who says black people cant be intelligent and profound?

"i thought we agreed on celebrating our anniversary, ANNUALly"

Getting sick.

I can so feel it.

Tense/aching jaw, stuffy nose, heavy head, semi sore-throat, pashmina scarf not sheltering me enough and clearly not enough warm green tea.


But a big Happy 29months and two days to the mister and i ! Despite him not counting months but rather years, i still do it anyways! I count both years and months. And days. When i'm really bored.


Thursday, September 17, 2009


ive been SO into tumblr-ing for the past couple of weeks i totally want to completely migrate over and start a completely new tumblr for etc. purposes (my current one already has a theme which im sticking with). Love tumblr, there's constant inspiration over there.

...........but i think that's such an impulsive decision so im going to hold out.

Happy Birthday to my BFF today!!! <3>

& i declare it being officially fall today (in my calendar) because im breaking in my fall/winter boots and wearing a new "autumn"-trend polish color! Love the boots but need to adjust to the color. haha

A side note, im sad that tickets for "The Imaginarium of Dr. Parnassus" is sold out. i wanted to surprise the mister with them too.... sniff sniff.

&& this weekend is going to be quite eventful! I'm going to try sneaking in wearing my maxi dress ONE LAST TIME this weekend before it gets retired with all my summer dresses. (Yeah i realized i am so contradicting because i just declared it autumn moments ago...but its ohkay). Hopefully i can take my camera out of the corner and blow the dust off by using it again. I miss loading pictures on facebook.

Wednesday, September 16, 2009


AHHHH this is too sweet for words.
Blair&Chuck ftw<3

Note to self : Must. Mimic. Pose. With LX. (No matter how many tries it takes)

11 things every woman deserves in life & Gossip Girl

  1. A friend who takes your side and has the guts to tell you when you’re wrong.
  2. One item of clothing that instantly makes you feel twice as beautiful and half as nervous.
  3. The occasional good cry, for no particular reason.
  4. A man who just cannot get enough of your body.
  5. At least as much pay as the guy at the next desk who does the same job.
  6. A same-size friend with an incredible closet.
  7. A really hot, really fast red car. Failing that, really hot red shoes you can run in.
  8. The expensive toilet paper.
  9. To sometimes lie back and take, take, take in bed.
  10. A grandparent equivalent: wise, huggable, all ears.
  11. A life in which you play the starring role.

# # #

On a random note, i am back in FULL GOSSIP GIRL MODE. I watched the first episode of (the brand new season of) Gossip Girl last night and can you say maxi dress-galore? Gorgeousssss!! Absolutely gorgeous!!! Makes me long for the summer weather even more! I can't go and buy maxi dresses now because the leaves are turning yellow (even though the dresses are probably on sale). Argh. I want to wear my maxi dress right now, it was honestly the best purchase i ever made in my life.

Adding onto that- wow, Chuck Bass. I have freaking missed youuuuu this entire summer. I will it leave it at that before i get into trouble (with the mister) by getting into details on how much i missed Chuck Bass. har har.

This part was cute

She got us a special treat for tomorrow. A table in our name at the Vanderbilt annual charity polo match Greenwich. … Lily thought it would be fun, so we’re gonna go have fun for Lily. Please show your family support by mimicking my expression.

YES! Primetime TV downloading just got better. *thumbs up*

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

You've just been told

You are so ruined KW. Even your black president thinks you're a big meanie.

Monday, September 14, 2009

All Over Tumblr, FB, & Twitter

( LOL )

Kanye’s West number twenty thousand six hundred and two public demonstration on how to be a big jackass.

The whole stunt with him jumping up on stage and taking the mic from Taylor Swift was SO tasteless. Seriously, I felt embarrassed for Taylor Swift- the poor girl didn’t know what the fuck to do and mustve felt SO shitty. If I were her I would have cried. She couldn’t punch his lights out because she was live on TV LIVE. She can’t punch his lights out OFF stage b/c his thuggins would massacre her. She’s fucked!!!

Second, I surprisingly felt embarrassed for him for making a big A-Hole of himself. Yeahh sure, it’s a-hole declaration number twenty thousand six hundred and two- but is this the example he’s setting for little (black) kids who look up to him? I’m not talking about tweens or teens, I mean the actual little ones. As much as we all hate to admit it, we listen to the same music as what eight and nine years olds listen to. (lame). But I mean, way to be a role model or setting an example. Also, if you’re going to do this, you better expect the same disrespect coming from others and don’t start hating and saying how people don’t give you no respect b/c you’re black. Sheesh.

Third and lastly, I was mad embarrassed for Beyonce. Every cam shot they had of her, she looked SHOCKED and freaking embarrassed to the core. She must’ve wanted to crawl under her chair because holy crap, this fool just jumped onto stage and had to pull you into his clown act too!! Again, extremely tasteless and cruel of Kayne. You are a clown my shadow friend.

# # #

Add: On:
Stolen from Kelly Clarkson’s blog

Dear Kanye,
What happened to you as a child?? Did you not get hugged enough?? Something must have happened to make you this way and I think we’re all just curious as to what would make a grown man go on national television and make a talented artist, let alone teenager, feel like shit. I mean, I’ve seen you do some pretty shitty things, but you just keep amazing me with your tactless, asshole ways. It’s absolutely fascinating how much I don’t like you. I like everyone. I even like my asshole ex that cheated on me over you…which is pretty odd since I don’t even personally know you. The best part of this evening is that you weren’t even up for THIS award and yet you still have a problem with the outcome. Is winning a moon man that much of a life goal?? You can have mine if it will shut you up. Is it that important, really??
I was actually nominated in the same category that Taylor won and I was excited for her…so why can’t you be?? I’m not even mad at you for being an asshole…I just pity you because you’re a sad human being.

On a side note, Beyonce has always been a class act and proved again tonight that she still is. Go TEXAS!!

Taylor Swift, you outsell him ….that’s why he’s bitter. You know I love your work! Keep it up girl!

KC :)

Add: On: Add: On:
Stolen from Kayne West's blog


# # #

My thoughts:

  1. Wtf is with the caps?
  2. Whats with all his booooyaaawwwws?!?!?
  3. “I LIKE THE LYRICS ABOUT BEING A CHEERLEADER AND SHE’S IN THE BLEACHERS!”- wahhaha I think KW was drunk when he blogged.

In the end he did NOT sincerely apologize because he mentioned beyonce being amazing AGAIN (ok we get the message. As if we didn’t get it the first time around when you jumped on stage!). The part about him giving his award to outkast b/c they deserved it is basically saying Taylor Swift should have given her award to Beyonce…which contradicts his apology.

I digress.
That’s my two cents on Kayne West being a clown.

But his music is so good.

blah I am SO contradicting too.

Friday, September 11, 2009

Blogging Mode is back and strong.

I think Glasses are SO sexy on a girl. Why doesn’t guys think so?

Anyways, I havn’t really word vomited in a while and suddenly the lack of motivation to do work (at work) is making me want to write up something instead. I guess l’ll be jumping back and forth on several topics because there are like 10 gazillion things I want to get out but its all very jumbled up in a big web in my head so this is literally going to be a word...vomit. Topics flying everywhere. Good luck understanding me.

First up, September. Back-to-School whattttttt!?!?! Holy crap it didn’t hit me until I saw kids on the bus with their TNA bags but binders sticking outta them. Then I saw a couple of girls with Starbucks travelers mugs and super hot back-to-school outfits on (I think I might have creeped them out a bit with my staring). Sighs. No back-to-school shopping for me! In fact, I’ve been repeating outfits for the past couple of weeks because there are boxes and bags cluttering my closet area (I haven't finished detox-ing my room yet) and I havnt been able to (well more like I’ve been to lazy to) get around the clutter to choose what I want to wear. Instead I grab and wear all the clean laundry that my mom left on the side for me to put away in the closet that i’m unable to reach and the cycle repeats.....haha my scarf box looks like it exploded, jackets and blazers laying across my ironing board, undergarments and (dirty gym) socks left on the ground. Its a hazardous site I swear.

Anyways I detoured away from what I was saying and the whole point is, I miss school SO much. I miss going to school with my laptop and seeing the kids in our middle row. I miss taking our annual photobooth pictures. I miss feeling superior (hahaha to the rest) because I was part of a LARGE “family”. I miss blogging in the middle of our lectures, I feel like im funniest during those times. I’m also STARBUCKS deprived because I am no where near one now that I’m outta school. Sighs. I miss school.

I hope we all can get together soon for jennut and tall jenns bday. Its starting to get a little sad (and annoying) with how the only way i do get to see them are in my freaky as that may sound.

Speaking of which; the fantastic four (3/4) has all expressed a need (by msging me) to get together to catch up because we havnt talked to each other at all due to one leaves it to me to organize this, ones computer-deprived and two are working. Hopefully that will happen near the end of the month when we have our monthly cinema experience, intense intellectual conversations over Starbucks and Burger-Joint Dinners. sighs. i miss the boys.

I also miss shopping. Ha ha ha ha but that’s another topic for another day. Blogging about it now might actually provoke me to go spend an abundant amount after work today. (I’m thinking of getting myself a Lululemon duffel bag, the one I want is 98dollars....and some work-out wear..... Haha aiii)

About the gym- I’ve been going to Goodlife for a good three months now. I’ve been pretty good, going to my classes but not so good with my “diet” which actually caused me to gain weight. Very bad in fact since the whole purpose of starting to work out was to lose weight. Bright side of this is I feel a lot better (healthier), I enjoy my time there, I think im a lot stronger than when I was before I started but I am still weaker than a pregnant woman. Anyways, going to put my game on and go for 6-8 hours of the gym each week instead of my normal....3.5? Yeah that’s really little....seems much more little now that I see it typed out. Argh.

Next, I need a new book. At work I’m reading New Moon (slowly!!!) during my lunch but at home (before going to sleep) I’m currently book-less. Finished the Lovely Bones last night, don’t know if I like it so much. There’s a lot of sex-ing going on again (2 books in a row with lots of sex-ing!!) and I don’t like anything that has to do with death and families breaking apart lol. Time to hit up BMV with my booklist.

I would continue to word vomit mindlessly but my severe boyfriend withdraw is really distracting me (dammnit charge your phone LX!!!) so going to stop here.

Good Day to you All.

extreme withdraw

title says it all. ahhhhhh

Wednesday, September 9, 2009


Many of you might find this a little disgusting, but the longest i've ever gone without seeing the mister has been ahhhh five days? Anyways, its been a little bit more than a week and i am going through some major withdraw. I mean it can be A LOT worst but still.

Thank god for my cousins company. lolol SEE. I CAN BE FINE TOO.

*goes into crazy fidget-mode*

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

there are some things worth dying for

These are one of the many things. (Click to enlarge)
I am so willing to lose a couple of toes in the process of learning how to walk and function in these babies. I mean, who needs all ten toes anyways. I can do without one or two. Or three.
I am in lurveeeee!!! And they're also the closest pair of imitations to the 1500 dollars Givenchy ones ive talked about on my Xanga.
I am counting down the days until i get them.....even though i haven't tried them on, don't know the price and don't know which CBX stores in Toronto carries them. ohmegee i need to go to a mall SOON.

Monday, September 7, 2009

New Level

Dear gawd i was KO'ed so badly last night, i reached a new level of drunkenness: not remembering ANYTHING that happened. i dont even want to try to remember some of it because it was SO embarassing. I'm sorry for being such a hassle girls, thanks for being there for me! <3

i was going to blog about something but totally forgot what.

&& The next few days is going to be lonely b/c the mister is out of town. sad face.


Saturday, September 5, 2009


Haha whoever thought of that is a genius! as a starbucks addict, i love seeing things like that lol
Been a quiet long weekend so far. Did nails again, got my first pedicure. Embarassed myself as i was getting my pedicure. It was such a kay-leena thing to do haha but both pedi and french mani was SO cheap, i think i shall frequent this place from now on.

i also really wanna shop. i actually refrained myself from going to fairview the other day because i know that l'll go insane with all the shit im going to get....i really need to go with someone thats money conservative to make me feel guilty when i want to spend money on something unnecessary i.e. another scarf.............unless its really cheap and reallllllllly purdy.

Anyways tomorrow should be explosive. 930am body pump class and following in the evening, Girls Night at the Howard Johnson and Cabana. Lets hope i dont get too trashed lol

Going to settle in for the night and continue to read the Lovely Bones~
Perhaps lll mega blog on monday.

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

Pear Yogurt Tastes like Medicine

A conversation between LX and i tonight.

Me: The Girls and I are planning on clubbing on Sun-Mon Morning, i booked a hotel for us today
lx: What about me?
Me: Oh...... you are doing your own thing
lx: Why?
Me: Because it's a Girls Night *lol*
lx: But I won't be in the way
Me: it's only the girls lol, JY won't be there
lx: I won't be in the way. i promise (okay i might have imagined this part haha)
Me: lol i know you won't but its only girls. Even J won't be there
lx: Maybe J and JY will come if i was there
Me: But its GIRLS NIGHT =___='''

- The mister is such a dork sometimes.
i think only my cousin would see the cuteness/comedic nature in this convo. haha

Tuesday, September 1, 2009

"I believe in pink.
I believe that laughing
is the best calorie burner.
I believe in kissing, kissing a lot.
I believe in being strong when
everything seems to be going wrong.
I believe that happy girls are the prettiest girls.
I believe that tomorrow is another day and
I believe in miracles."

- Audrey Hepburn

No wonder girls of all ages, all generations idolizes her.

I finally get why. It clicked after reading that line.

I'm currently having a terrible evening (i'm sorry for being so bitter on twitter)
I don't know why but after seeing that balloon picture i feel a little bit better. The picture makes me feel hopeful and light, instead of that heavy feeling i carried with me as i took my "cooling down" walk up and down Steeles.

tweeet tweeet