The most important thing I realized is that painful breakups, unrequited love, shitty jobs and the like help us to BUILD CHARACTER and that no matter how bad it feels, we are much better off because of it. Sometimes you have to stand alone to make sure you can. Forget what you want to remember what you deserve.You may not end up where you thought you'd be, but you'll always end up where you were meant to be. You can either let these bad things, define you, destroy you or strengthen you. Fight through it like a warrior. Greater things are to come.

Monday, August 30, 2010


There are 3 things right now that i need replacing but i am unable to replace them all at once because....i can't afford it lol they are, a laptop, a blackberry and glasses. There are their pros and cons to which one i should get first.


Current Laptop Status

  • Had it for about 3 years, going onto 4. 
  • Stickers all peeled off. 
  • Exterior scratched up and dirty. 
  • The "E, A, R" keys are severely scratched and dented because of my nails. The "N" and a quarter of the "O" key is non existing. 
  • Reformatted about 8 times. 
  • Illegal version of Windows 7 installed.
  • Fan goes crazy at times. 
  • Going Slow. Starting to feel the lag when i open two Adobe Programs simultaneously. 
  • Feelings of fear arises multiple times during the week as the screen freezes....but then unfreezes itself after i do a couple of mad prayers to god asking for it to unfreeze.
Pros of getting a new one
  • New. Can work more efficiently. 
    • I'll even buy a laptop case for it. 
  • No more feelings of fear and failure. 
  • Should be proactive instead of reactive when it does in fact die on me and i have no back-up laptop.
Reasons in why i can delay
  • It's still working. I can still do work.
  • I don't know if i can choke up 7bills right now.

Current BB Status

  • It has a mind of its own (texts and calls people without my permission....seriously)
  • Indicator light runs wild for a couple of hours and then stops when it feels like its bugged me enough
  • No noise (meaning no ring tone, no text/msg noise)
  • Been through severe moisture damage
  • Just turned one year old in April....
  • Dropped numerous of times
  • But reception still good!
Pros of getting a new one
  • I get to have a white BB
  • I can actually hear my phone calls (very VERY important)
  • No crazy indicator light business
  • I will own it instead of it pwning me!!!!
Reasons in why i can delay
  • I guess i CANN do without the ringtone.....just call me many times people
  • It's only a years old....
  • Don't know if i can fork up the X amount involved to "upgrade" my contract...

Current Glasses Status
  • Scratched up beyond imaginable
    • My color perception is actually impaired because its THAT scratched 
    • People can see the scratches while talking to me
  • Four years old
  • Pretty bent up too
Pros of getting a new one
  • I can see properly. I think everyone deserves to see properly.
Reasons in why i can delay
  • I don't have 4bills to cough up (it takes THAT much because i am extremely blind and i tend to buy the ULTRA THIN lense so it doesnt look like i have coke bottle glasses and i also have crazy severe astigmatism)
  • I mean i haveeeee been living with impaired vision for sooo long.
  • I still like the style...

GAHHH Decisions!


anh said...

Oh dear,

There ARE dilemmas,

I say get the laptop.

BB - someone can potentially donate you one and/or they come cheap on craigslist used. You don't REALLY need a spanking new bb

Glasses - buy them at and then bring them to your optical peeps. I feel you, my glasses look like coke bottles too. CC have free shipping after a certain price point and free returns if you dont like it nd they ALWAYS have sales

anh said...

I meant to say THESE

pseudoartist said...

get the GLASSES! Your sight affects everything you do, and if you're not seeing clearly (if your lenses are scratched.... you aren't) It's an investment that will last longer than a phone or a laptop will.

Plus glasses really do make a statement, and getting a new pair can even switch up your look!

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